Collarspace

When i began searching for a dominant i am extremely particular. i don't trust easily and i don't care or love easily either. i ruled out a number of people out there because i knew i couldn't trust them, or they didn't have the right motives, experience, temperament or ego. i didn't want a know-it-all and i didn't want a complete newbie either and i certainly didn't want an egotistical guy with real or fake experience. Immediately when people hear the word particular they sometimes think 'shallow' but my carefulness was really about finding someone i felt was safe, sane and consensual so that i could build trust to allow myself to experience my submission. When i have find Him, someone i could allow myself to experience my submission with and through, will be someone i trust implicitly, someone i care for deeply and someone i want to hold the title and responsibility of owning me.

Being owned is this ultimate sense of security. i feel safe in my ownership. When i hear a Dom says He owns, me i'm flooded with a sense of peace and contentment. my life is busy and has it's own elements of stress and frustration but when i hear that phrase everything washes away, the stress and the frustration is gone and all i'm left with is utter security, contentment and happiness. i feel at home. Like there isn't any other place in the world I'd rather be because everything i need is provided by Him.