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| ***I seek to be a rope bunny and/or whipped for play sessions! Everything else for further relationship type things are listed below.***
Been away for a long while after a very hard parting with my previous Master/Daddy.
3 years. I did try a relationship with a strictly-Master gentleman a year ago, and needless to say, it did not work. I am not ONLY service minded, which puts aside my ambitions of being strictly an objectified toy. I am embracing more and more everyday how diverse and wild I am, and the needs I come with.
One day; a possession, babygirl, masochist, servant, princess, queen, confidant, object, tool.
A girl who responds.
Masters and I argue about one thing; the subject of my becoming their vision.
I can't even conceptualize giving up my life again at this time. I once did. I was once ready to give it all. I've questioned if I'm a slave. I suppose I could yield to being called sub, but my devotion is usually 100% once I bond. Everything we do after is a test of devotion, what I can give and what He can receive.
What I know now is that when the connection is there, and it is true, I give my whole self to it. I seek authenticity. A uncompromisable need. My two unbending hard limits are growth and health(not the momentary seemingly unhealthy explorations to play with the psyche and power exchange) in an overall sense.
For now, all I am seeking is someone to play with. For all of the details and things I think I know, seek, and want in a Master/Daddy, nothing is more telling than when I enter a scene and the energy is present.
It's nameless to me. It is either there, or it is not.
On the Myers-Briggs, I am an INFP. The dreamer, artist, counselor, etc.
My talents best lie in energy. Creating atmosphere, power exchange, feeling others energies. I believe it is why when I go to events are parties, I tend to speak less, and look for how everyone plays. I know what I need when I see it in someone else.
At parties, I am acutely aware of the men whom have a vision and a will to execute it with their partner, consumed by their scene. I'm attracted to intelligence, class, open minded men who want to play with the entire soul.
I am not monogamous. I never have been. Inadvertently, I have always engaged with men regardless of other people as long as our connection was authentic What I have learned is that I am either a primary, an alpha, and/or simply my baby girl can be the ONLY baby girl to my Daddy. Due to my history, I do have certain hard limits about any other partners mostly to do with their mental states.
My current life consists of adult work, in which I am rebuilding my foundation from the ground up and into investing in the long term. I don't believe in 9-5 "jobs" for myself. It isn't what I'm wired to do with my life. I'm too intelligent, too motivated, too entrepreneurial minded. Please do not understand that to mean I'm lazy-I am actually a workaholic to my detriment.
At this time, I am free to create my schedule at will, and I like it that way. What I am doing is something I am willing to give up, though I fully intend to have other successes flowing before I do so. I am NOT looking for a sugar daddy Dom. You may be wealthy, but for this relationship I cannot mix power exchange and money unless or until it is an authentic connection.
I desire to create enough passive success to be free in my time to serve and to create art/music.
Kind of a raw update. Will polish this as I go.
**This section is old(at least 3 years) and I am editing by rewriting what I want in it but is telling of me in some fashion nonetheless.**
[Things that meant something to me just several months ago were photography, artistic success, adventures, meeting new people, and really in depth conversations and connections. I suppose, these remain the same, although currently I am detached from them. I'm finding a way and place to be, and still yet important, to be me. In the long term, I seek someone who is first and foremost, Master. I do possess a child-like and young side of me, and therefore have to acknowledge I need a Daddy type as well, but Master first. I need this to be apart of who they are. Need. The one thing that comes first, although the Master has a high amount of influence in spite of this, is my art.
I need to be an artist. I need to express ideas. I won't necessarily have sit-down jobs, or retail, etc. This does NOT mean that I don't work hard every day to do art, please you, keep chores done, or even take up small jobs. It means that I am highly effected negatively by repetitious work that is not contributing to forward motion. I need you, that Master, to need me to do this. Not only to do it, but to encourage, and be involved in what I do as well. To love it, as a part of me...and hopefully not too much, but love my art and concepts as well.
I need strict, firm, discipline, training (cumming on command, or sleep, protocols, positions, etc), to be nurtured, chained, humiliated, denied, overwhelmed, to connect, to do new things everyday. To be the beautiful potential that I have, hanging on your arm. When I am with you, I need to feel helpless and overwhelmed by your control. This is by far my biggest brain and physical trigger. Aside from pleasing, this is the motivation to my slavery. Eventually, to be owned as property.
I need that Master to be fun, and open, but I also need someone with class and intelligence, as well. To be able to try new foods, wines, places, and be inspired by what life has to offer beyond our little world, and yet share it together. I'm drawn to the aesthetics of life and desire to be spiritual with the M/s connection.
My slavery is very spiritual, vulnerable. I am a very passionate person, and am deeply effected by connection. Not only do I give and yield, but I receive the Master and his vulnerabilities, spirit, and soul as well.
In the last year, I've lost 60lbs, grown into a person I've longed to achieve, and still have much to do. I am no doormat. I hope that some day soon, I won't be waiting anymore after 5 years, for someone to be everything I can be with, and for them to be proud of theirs...]
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