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Wanting to play today...anyone want to take a bad boy over their knee today?

Sometimes, you just need it.  You know...IT.  The one thing that will set you free from the worries and cares of the world.  Release from all the things that weigh you down. 

On the back of a motor bike.  With my arms outstretched, trying to take flight.  And leave everything behind.  But even at my swiftest speed, I couldn't break from the concrete in the city where I still reside.

I need to lose it.  Today. Anyone else feel the same?

Ever been so needy you'd jump on the first thing that showed you any attention?  Good god.

That said, if anyone local wants to play today, well...

Is there anyone bored and looking to play today?

Dear god, I am so needy today.  I need to play.  I need to be used.  I need...

i changed my colors for You
As You shaped me
Into what You wanted me
To be.

You had good stock, You said
Though i doubted it.
Still, i trusted You
And shed my skin
On the rocks
Of Your desires.

How was i the worthy one?
How did i deserve
Your attentions, Your gifts,
Your time, and Your talent?

Of all the others
who threw themselves at Your feet,
You chose me.
You
Picked
me.

And You threw me
On Your wheel.
You spun me 'round,
You wetted me
With Your tears,
Shaped me with Your hands
And pressed me down with the weight of Your heart.

You fired me in the heat
Of Your all-consuming passion,
And fired me again in the kiln
Of Your dark obsession.

There were times
i thought You'd break me.
The heat was intense
A blazing sun in my darkness.
Moments i thought You'd
shattered me, stretched beyond my limits.
But You kindly, gently
Patched me up
And dressed my wounds
With gentle words
And a soft touch.

One day, many months later,
this old warhorse awoke.
i raised my head
Picked up my sword
And stood at Your side
The perfect weapon
The perfect shield.
Beside You, on the right, a half-pace behind
Just like You taught me.

We fought together, You and i
Ate together, slept together
Breathed together.
A Lady and her champion.
When the time came, though
We did not die together--
The one journey You made alone.
i begged, pleaded to go along
But You told me to stay.

I listened. I obeyed.
I'm still here.

As often happens, real life intervenes while you're busy making other plans.

While being busy can be a pain in the butt, sometimes it's nice to be too busy to hang out in front of the computer for a few days.

I've already discovered for myself the high volume of fakes here at collarme.  I can assure you, I am not one of them.

I'm at a point in my life where I am unable to commit to an ongoing relationship.  But I have missed the "scene" so much.  Please consider taking me on, if you're looking for something more temporary.

I have had some experience with the D/s world previously.  Enough to know that what goes on during playtime isn't all about me, the submissive.  Rather, it has more to do with the pleasure of the dominant figure.  So is the natural order of such things; it is now, and always has been, my view that the submissive acts for the pleasure of the dominant, in accordance with the dominant's wishes.  Allow me to summarize: I will not lead  you on in an attempt to rub one out.  I realize that the sub's pleasure occurs at the pleasure of the dominant. 

Does that even make sense?  :D