If you contact me on here, and it takes me a long time to write back, please don't be put off by that. I've had one minor catastrophe after another. I'm coming through it just fine, I've just been really busy. There is a good thing that makes the bad easier to take, although it makes me even more busy. I do not mind being busy with this at all.

I kinda met someone. His name is Jim, but I've started calling him Daddy. He's a much older man, he likes to spank but isn't on this site. I can still mess around, with or without him. In fact, he likes to ask me about what I've done with other people and then discipline me for it. Not that I"ve had a lot of time for messing around with others in these last few weeks. But there have been a few. In the absence of that, he finds a reason to take the paddle and riding crop to me. Last night he punished me for masturbating. He doesn't tear my ass up the way a few others have, and I initially tried to get him to. But we get together almost every day, and he reddens it pretty good a couple of times each time. That's just as good, maybe a little better.

Daddy has talked about taking me to the bathhouse and disciplining me in front of the other guys there. I'm really looking forward to it. I hope other guys join in, but if they just watch that's hot, too. I could suck another guy off, Daddy punishes me, then the other guy takes a turn spanking my naughty ass. Or just about any other scenario. I'd also like to watch him spank another guy, either having been spanked just before or knowing I'm going next.

Ok, this guy contacted me on another website I use. My profile pic is the same as my main picture on here. It clearly was an appealing enough of a picture that he wanted to meet me. After we had some fun, he pulled out his camera phone, saying he wanted to provide me with “a decent profile picture.” He proceeded to take the two pictures I just added here, and another one of my butt. He seriously believes I should replace my profile picture with the one he took of my face. I think my main pic I have now is much better than the one he took. I could be wrong. But seriously, I think I look terrible in the one he took. I hadn’t shaved that day, but I didn’t think it was that noticeable. But in general, I think it just looks awful. I have trouble getting my head around somebody finding that appealing at all. Am I wrong? I would like some feedback here. If you are inclined to say that all of my pictures are ugly, it won’t hurt my feelings, but why would you bother? Unless you believe you have something constructive to add, all I’m talking about here is comparing the two pictures.

The things that are my hard limits are things that I wouldn't think would even need to be mentioned. But, apparently, they do.

Animals? Seriously? People really do screw with animals? Years ago, I knew a guy who was a "plushy" (is that the right word?) and introduced me to using dolls and stuffed animals. Not what I thought he meant by “toys.” I was ok with that. It didn't do anything for me, but I was ok with it. But real, live animals? And something's wrong with me, because I won't even discuss it? Seriously? If I ever do reveal the details of what inspired this rant, it will be to the authorities. And I probably should. I am just so creeped out.

Right along with that, I have to say children are also a hard limit. It hasn't come up, but that has to be one of the worst things anybody can do, to take advantage of a child.

I have to draw a moral hard line on both of those. It is just wrong to use an animal or a child as a sexual plaything. If you have that desire, please get psychiatric help. And leave me out of it. That is just disturbing.

My third, and final, hard limit isn't so much a moral thing, and certainly not disturbing. I simply won't pay "tribute." I made that decision over a decade ago, that I will not pay for it. I wavered in my resolve a little, when it came to the lady who ended up turning me on to this site. She is a professional domme, and I was considering it, but ultimately decided against it. Then a guy I met on here wanted me to pay him. He just slipped it into the conversation, like it was nothing. I simply drew a hard line. I will not pay. I don't hold anything against people who do, though. The only shocking thing here is how common it apparently is. It's like a major industry.

Ok, not quite germane to this site, but there is something that's been on my mind lately.

Jesus attended Hanukkah, according to John 10:22. I wonder why Protestant Bibles don't contain the original account of the Maccabees and the miracle of Hanukkah. It is part of the Hebrew Scripture, and the Catholic Bible, and Jesus attended the festival. The only other "holiday" the Bible says Jesus observed was Passover, with the Last Supper being a Passover seder.