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11/20/2008 5:23:31 PM

Spending Time

There are times when I think that we spend our time

Trying to carve out of others the image we long for,

The missing piece, we need, love, or desire, often against reality,

Only in the end to find a series of doors,

Do no seek the keys to the locks,

In love there is no because, no reason.

Would we want an easy explanation?

Each time in our life has its season,

But answers and solutions are not to be had.

I often observe, this reasoning we pursue.

When if time was taken to hear the world,

There would be much less time to lose.

Observe just the images passing by,

Those you can never live in, or make love to;

Do you languish and sigh?

Does your heart ache through and through?

Do you bow before others?

Or take possession of these sources of joy and ecstasy?

Take joy and happiness from within,

Allow the world to be a place filled with fantasy,

For who is to know, under our secret grin?

What goes on in our thoughts, in our minds,

Other than what we see beyond the translucent world.

Surely, something distant, beyond the clutter of signs.

11/16/2008 11:18:44 AM

Observing A Dead World

 

His arm wrapped tight

Around her shoulder,

It was as close

As he could hold her.

While they walked

And she wept.

No one noticed

The tragedy that kept

Their lives in strife.

As he dried her tears

Comforting her,

Though he had fears,

That their sadness

Had only just begun.

The world continued

But there was one

Who was wondering

The cause of their plight.

Curious about the cars,

And those in plain sight;

Who continued on

Never turning their head.

Blinded to tragedy,

They may as well be dead.

I continue to observe

The man and woman fade,

And the world continue

Its hypocritical parade

Of caring for everything

And nothing all the same.

In a world of despair,

Closed eyes are a shame.

What part do I share

In humanities disgrace?

When I can see,

But remain in one place?

I question my part

As I step through my door,

Realizing for some time,

I don’t cry anymore.

 

 

 

 

 

11/14/2008 7:10:39 AM

I wanted to tell you

About all of the blackness of the world.

I wanted you to know

The truth about what you tried to unfurl.

You drowned out our hearts.

In darkness when there should have been grace.

Hiding in shadow,

When light and wisdom could substitute in its place.

Freeing the evils,

Allowing personal inner demons the freedom to fly.

And disciplined hands,

Form the slave to give joy to the unseeing eye.

You will never see,

The dying eyes lost from the agony of grief.

The tears that fall,

For the skin that aches for the burn of relief.

That can only come

From the lashes of the devil’s wicked dreamy whip.

I will never begin

To close my eyes to dream of beginning that trip.

With you to guide me,

Because it is a mirage that will never begin.

Truth is I’d have given

You the freedom to explore every depth of your sins.

I’m sad knowing

The dream had to come to an end.

But in truth again,

I would not want to be the only one who can bend.

Harmony in sin.

For the strength and bending love of the willow,

Can be as dual

A need as pain quenching fires below.

I wanted to tell you.

3/30/2008 9:54:06 PM



the world

speaks

of dawn wine

endless time

shattered

glass deep burgandy red

writhing marks to be bled

controlling

deep seated antagonists

fire is a protagonist

sounds

like the whipping of the skin aflame with fires

or of the road under the tires

hums

on like the voice of the intellect which

the sound brings a sudden twitch,

speaks

so softly but turns on a dime

hold that thought, all in due time

controlling

fire is for those with real propensity

will and torches to outflame the intensity

burns

they're weak as the vines

consumed the wrath of the wines

grow

even the earth,

nature's rebirth,

knows

flames are just hell's wicked kiss

opening gates to heaven's bliss

flourishes

again the vines grow forth in spring

leashing the neck of wrath in a ring

grow

from the ground measured in length

tamed by quiet demanding strength

sieze

taking hold like binding rope

having forgotten the lessons of hope

controlling

forever an endearing presence in the mind

all is well, for even God is blind

controlling

fire, even flame has its place.

 

3/29/2008 7:30:21 PM

Wish only

for the butterfly screams.

Wish only

for the sins of the night.

I'm obviously reluctant

to do any real talking.

The wild red rose laughs.

Images,

your image of me;

images,

my image of you;

are merely illusions.

Made by your delusions,

built by screaming maggots;

For the butterfly screams

for the sins of the night.

Guilty late night group gropings

full of misogynistic hopings,

I want to hear the screams.

Fed by illusionists

that have no real clue

of delusions or what is true.

Viciously peeling fruit

like vampires of night.

Wish only

to find the harvest.

Wish only

for sweet tender flesh,

of heart and mind.

Its filled with arrogant proses,

written with thorns of roses.

I want to hear

the butterfly scream.

Wish only

for the scream.

 

3/28/2008 7:57:43 PM

Along stood a flunky monkey

waving margaritas under a tree

and yelled out he wanted to talk to me.

said he that he had a secret

that he was bursting at seams to outlet

but he was busy just now, with the ferret.

Now when the two were done,

having tea, cigars, and some fun;

he stopped, looked squarely at the sun.

Then turned around to face me

and spoke..who the hell might you be?

The sanest sight I ever did till then see.

Now the monkey wore a funny hat,

red felt, looked queer as a bat;

said, "Sorry, thought you were a cat."

I paused and wondered as to why

he could speak to me so sly;

when out his mouth came a huge butterfly.

Never more astonished could I be

but surprised I wasn't at all to see

for there was an odd monkey talking to me.

The butterfly was a brilliant bright blue

and despite its wonderful magical hue

landed on my shoulder for a much better view.

Coyed up to me, whispered in my ear

"Oh my, you are talking to a monkey, my dear.

I am queen here, you have nothing to fear."

"Queen Lavitia, is my name,

Oh, the monkey he is quite tame,

However his stories are a tad insane."

He danced and jumped like a fool,

but took my hand and led to a nearby pool,

where the Queen and I took seats on toadstools.

At once before me, said "look in my eyes!"

I swear deep in his eyes were a pair of fireflies!

Next I knew, the monkey had me mesmorized.

This is where the funky monkey's tale began

where the water steamed away and turned to sand

and we boarded ship to set sail away from land.

He told of a land where there is always a breeze

and cherubs fly about as small as honeybees.

Beautiful meadows of blue grasses and violet seas.

The native flora is all made of colored sugar cane

and all the pebbles are red hots to drive your mouth to flame,

At once I stood up, "Stop here, monkey, you are insane!"

Queen Lativia fluttered before me, taking quite a pose,

I thought for a moment she might land on my nose!

"My dear child, sit, all is well. This is what i propose."

"Let him get the story started up again.

What must have an end must always begin.

Allow the monkey to tell his tale to the end."

He reached in a tiny purple pocket in his red shirt vest,

and out came a three foot golden wand right out of his chest.

A trail of golden dust showered from the end, as he began to jest.

"UhmHumm...Before I was so rudely interupted,

Take your seat, my dear, for I shan't be disrupted,

for I see now, the Queen, your mind has corrupted."

With that, he danced and began the tale once more.

As he waved his wand, golden dust fell to the earth galore,

coating the grass, the sand, creating a sparkling golden floor.

Entranced by it all, I put my head down on my knees,

Not surprised at all, by the faeries skating by as they please,

As my lids grew dim, they seemed as small as fleas.

They danced in the dust, acting out the show,

As the monkey's tale of life, began to flow and grow,

Sweet as angels, wicked as devils, the faeries were hard to follow.

He told of the worst and best of humanities,

loudly proclaiming wars, only to whisper the profanities,

faeries girating to tales of humans' lusts, dancing wildly to insanities.

The faeries acted out centuries of tales of lust,

and wars and feats of humanity in the golden dust;

their dancing was enchanting till at once was a huge wind gust.

All at once the party came to an end,

because thunder followed behind the gust of wind,

and the faeries chatter that raindrops were around the bend.

As raindrops fell upon my face,

I woke, startled, to look about the place,

the cat was still there, but of a monkey there was no trace,

A huge blue butterfly twittered about,

the cat opened his eyes and stretched his paws out,

I whispered to him, "The dream had to end, there was no doubt."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

3/28/2008 11:31:28 AM

Trust

It was never yours

to hold

as you have always

shown

how little you disregard it.

It has no more importance

to you

than yesterday's sports page,

which you tossed

on the floor,

beside the bed.

Everything to me,

nothing to you.

I wonder what

you have to lose.

I will hold on

to what I still have.

Trust.

As always,

the lesson remains,

the same.

Never trust,

anyone,

who does not value,

your heart,

above others.

3/23/2008 4:07:47 PM

Anxieties and Truths

We walk in circles,

limited by our own anxieties,

pushed upon us by society.

That we can no longer

distinguish the how to

and between false and true.

Between a Dominant's whim

with the very purest of ideals

of where one should kneel.

What does get our attention

more so than the tales of cruelty

is to observe with much novelty.

When fate is not satisfied

hope is merely the pain turned cold

pain of a disapointed wish grown old.

That which produces pain

upon the mind if promises abound

can only prove our hearts yet sound.

Can we truly be hypocrites

of our dreams filled of incubus

as to what truly wakes us?

Yea, I dare to say not.

dreaming permits our insanities

leaving behind personal vanity.

without consciousness

without restrictions or temptations

and so yet is, our truest salvations.

 

 

 

 

 

 

3/22/2008 9:20:48 PM

Honor and the vain


I do not love thee, dear so much;

because I love Honor more.

Never leaving my side as such,

there is nothing more I adore.

The wounded Vanity knows

when it's pride has been hurt;

no matter the disguises it shows,

driven away without its shirt.

Pride carries its banner to the last,

just to unfurl itself into another field.

Driven from one just quick and as fast;

when to reality it must take its yield.

Vanity could not take Honor away

through subterfuge and submission,

Disambiguation dreamt away the day,

still seeking Honor's permission.

I do not love thee, dear so much,

because I love Honor more.

No longer to bear your clutch,

For the meek, I say what for?

The opposite of love is not hate,

it is the feeling of indifference.

I do not care, I believe in fate,

Honor's strength fuels belligerence.

"There is less in this than meets the eye!"

Talluleh once stood and shouted.

Allowing Vanity to seek out high,

but truth and Honor is what counted.

Entirety is what it appears to be;

yet behind it, you were nothing.

To submit, and request the same of me,

left dreams of Honor, kings of something.

Vanity's lies, it is well known,

are difficult in minds to eradicate;

from the heart whos soil had not grown,

poison and prudence often placate.

No more than weeds among the path,

to be trampled upon and die out.

As Truth walks by, it will but laugh;

at the insecurities needed to shout.

Only one person is missing, sometimes,

and to my heart that is all i needed,

to return to one's place, where at times,

Honors call will always be heeded.

I have never loved thee, dear so much,

because I have always loved Honor more.

 

 

 

3/21/2008 7:04:16 AM

Disambiguation

To reign is worth ambition

and believe it is over hell;

for one who seeks admission,

I suppose it is just as well.

In hell 'twould be better to reign,

than be in heaven to serve.

Diambiguation always loved the pain,

she always could well preserve.

Is the sense of power more vivid?

For when Hades could not break her heart,

do you think his rage became livid?

Or through it, did he tear her world apart?

The absolute aphrodesiac of power

brought to her knees and back again.

Yes, it brought springtime flowers,

always returning to her knees to reign.

Is power a strange desire to seek

over another one's liberties and life?

Does it make them the ones that's meek?

I say not, for they play the sweet fyfe.

Seeking power over another is to

ultimately give up power of ones self.

For the one who is to serve you,

can ultimately put you away on a shelf

To know the pains of power it has its appeal;

seek those who know its pain and its pleasures.

Pleasures are imaginary, pains of power too are real;

ultimately though, some too, find it a rare treasure.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

3/20/2008 10:31:42 PM

Rains of Appertenances

There is no such thing

on earth or on wing

as an isolated man,

or a lonely woman.

What can one teach

for fellow man, each?

We are made up of clusters

strength we must muster.

Of appertenances,

or oppurtune chances,

Put the book on the shelf,

explain, what to call one's self.

Where does it begin?

Does it ever end?

Does it manage to ride the tide low

and simply in our minds overflow?

Flow into everything,

every part of spring,

air and breath become lust,

as all becomes a part of us.

Then tell me, where hence it flows?

when the tides are low,

it seeks out another sin,

to pierce us through again.

3/20/2008 3:40:18 PM

An interesting quote by a favorite author, "I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do." Robert Heinlein In submission am i also not free?

3/18/2008 12:43:22 PM
I found this very interesting as I was reading today, the Russian Soul, and I thought I would share.  Fonvizon wrote "A man of low estate may have the noblest soul, just as the greatest lord may be the meanest man." Later another writer would add. "The peasantry is the soul of society, consequently the whole of society must weaken if that soul be kept in weakness."
3/16/2008 2:36:26 PM
"How wrong it is for a woman to expect the man to build the world she wants rather than to create it for herself." ~Anais Nin

3/16/2008 1:12:15 PM

speil mit mir...

on her knees, she speaks:


paragraphs and connotations
to live and breathe like Caesar
my Muse forgives insinuation
to inspire and die like Jesus

their scars are mine
to cherish and bear
it all heals in time
a lashing Humanity must share

inflections of my pain
heart in palm, so hot it sears
my Muse whispers of shame
kommst spiel mit mir

And the Master replies:

live and breathe like Caesar
sounds like a paradoxy
for your Muse is inspiring
living the lifestyle at both ends

of the spectrum and yet pain and
agony lie within
For I shall Not compromise My power nor My rule
your Muse must allow the scars to fade
nor live in the past guilt or shame

For inflections of pain searing or not
lashing out insidiously for not hearts to bear
whispers calm and serenity
conquests of agony and
pains burn within
This Master's touch is quelling like sin.

3/16/2008 12:54:36 PM

Proceed inward

from the dream

Moving outward.

Silent scream

I am too fond

of dreaming.

And the song

Of screaming.

Is it because

Part of reality

Appears false

A part duality

Far too sad?

I am afraid so.

Am I mad?

I am afraid so.

Nightmares and dreams

A fuel could sustain

The bloodcurdling screams

My life needs maintain

For the solitary person

that I shall be,

for a disposition

Like mine is key

Dreams made to live

Alone in unison

Only heed to give

Commands to union

Dreams with solitude. 

necessary to life

Growth with attitude

Razor sharp like a knife.

Far between and few


   
                                                                                       
                   these dreams strive

into the reality grew

of action to feel alive.

From the actions stem

This interdependence

dreaming begins again;

Creating transcendence.

Dreams are unbiased

Never ending or forgiving

And produces the highest

form of being and living.

3/16/2008 10:54:55 AM

Taken in...by Hope

"I suppose it can be truthfully said that Hope is the only universal liar who never loses his reputation for veracity." ~R. G. Ingersoll

I am often asked about this quote on my profile, why one would choose to want to try to eliminate this word from their vocabulary. Do I believe in hope, why or why not? What could happen to cause someone to absolutely lose all hope?

I think it was best explained by Dr. Henry Miller, "Hope is a bad thing. It means that you are not what you want to be. It means that a part of you is dead, if not all of you. It means that you entertain illusions. Its sort of a spiritual clap.."


I do believe in working towards dreams and goals, and faith in achievements. I do believe in choosing to be alive within. I do not believe in waiting for illusions or fairy tales. As to what makes a person come to this point in their life, is like asking to see the world through anothers' eyes or walk a mile in someone elses shoes.


I could spend the day pondering Atlas, and how he held the world. I could think of his feet on the elephant's back, and the elephant's feet on the tortoises' back. However, if I spend too much time dwelling on where the tortoise is standing... i may realize the need for hope never existed at all. :p

3/15/2008 2:40:45 PM

A Lion's Honor

Do you look back over conversations

Comprehend my observations

My allusions

Yet, the mouse has more courage

Understanding and insight

My conclusions

Than the dishonorable Lion

Who squeaks

Illusions

What Honor! Do you run with Hyenas!

Hunt in packs

Delusions

Little mouse is better with the Honor of hawks,

Eagles and man

so seclusion.



by babynina 

3/14/2008 5:35:19 AM

The Hidden Door

"There is a woman who stirs others' imaginations, that is all. She has the essence of the theatre itself, stirring the imagination, promising such an intensity and heightening of experience, such richness, and then failing to appear in person, giving instead a smokescreen of compulsive talk about trivialities." ~Anais Nin
What woman hasn't walked by that stirred your imagination? What man looked at you and caused chills down your spine? Did you allow these thoughts to flow and continue as your imagination played forth? Or did you stop yourself suddenly?
Fantasies enflame the unconscious thoughts of everyone equally. Men, women, gay, straight, we all have them no matter our sexual orientations. Society often plays a role in repression of our sexual psyche and essence by enforcing sexual roles and norms, community and religious values, societal condemnations, and other methods of sexual ignorance. In society you find all types of political and religious moralists spending countless hours trying to prevent Alice from falling down the rabbit hole.
Why? Is it because she might enjoy it? Could she have a passing thought about the mechanic fixing her car? Maybe one could believe these thoughts could lead to obsessions for devotional surrender. Or is it the ritualized form of power pulsating through the veins by inarticulated desires of the heart and mind? Whatever these thoughts may be, why the fear?
We must learn to recognize that pleasure is a need, not a right, and can be expressed in many diverse ways. Fantasies are a personal freedom of the mind that allows for exploration and encourages passion in relationships. Maybe we should not challenge the concept of whose fantasies are wrong or right, perhaps we should simply challenge the concept of Normal sex.

Maybe if men and women alike overcame their ambivalence by exploring their fantasies and the passions they can bring about in their lives, there could be less negativity and more respect, love, and passion between the sexes.

3/14/2008 5:32:25 AM
The Tango...


How often do we look at each other as rivals or pawns on a chess board? Is it all just a game? Another notch on the bedpost? Do we create a playing field between ourselves of mistrust, shame and humiliation? Is it the power of anger that thrills and drives us onward toward our next illusion of love or victim, whichever the case may be? Can we stop and look at our fellow man with truth and humanity...and give as well as receive love?



"...what we often experience in erotic connection between the genders is more of a tug of war--the battle of the sexual marketplace.
We become embroiled in elaborate sexual power games, overt and covert. As Wilhelm Reich pointed out, sex becomes a commodity, whose value is inflated by induced scarcity. As with all commodities, a primary question becomes who gets what from whom and at what cost. Implicitly and explicitly, sex becomes exchanged for money, financial security, attention, personal favors, and the illusion of affection. Instead of a dance of love and mystery. we too often experience the erotic as an area of manipulation...."
~Steinberg, The Erotic Impulse



What an image of senseless loss, shattered reasonings, that humanity runs itself tirelessly to reduce genuine affection into a commodity. And we complain about the payoffs. A never ending battle of scaring our souls to prove and compete with one another.
Is that how you want to find love? or even yourself?
sillytilly
 
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