I still seek nothing. Life is good. I'm learning to sail on my boat. I am honestly still too broken however many years later to fully give to a relationship. I only come here for the occasional amusement. Wanting for nothing. Hoping for nothing. Saw him today for the first time in years. A quick glimpse is all it took to bring the anxiety bubbling to the surface. Hoping he's happy but watching the pain in his eyes. Wishing it would all wash away for him. Don't think he saw me although I was right in front of him. Sailing, takes me away from where I've always wanted to be.
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