b10tears

it's been quite some time since i've posted a note here, and, today seems to be the day to log a few thoughts.

i truly appreciate notes that include more information about WHO a person is so that i see beyond the general profile.

i apologize that i don't go into explicit detail about activities i am familiar with, and there is a reason for that. i follow. Purely and simply. i approach each introduction from the perspective of being a blank slate. i've learned that to tell One that i am experienced in this or that may be a gross understatement to Their level of knowledge and play...and vice versa...i.e. i may actually have more experience in an area than One does. So, i find it simpler to just finding out the details in One to one communication.

i DO so love to simply follow. And, as a wholehearted sub, i am quite happy to be introduced to whatever One desires from Their perspective, and not my own. Besides, Each is a different Being and i believe it's the chemistry that makes the experience unique, rather than the mechanics. It is also an ABSOLUTE ingredient in how much i am able to receive with One...it's all about the connection, trust, chemistry...the energy W/we create when combined.

i find it most humorous in the false perceptions some Doms have read into my reactions during play in the past. Some would call me a true pain slut, while Another makes a judgement that i'm not at all into pain. This simply reinforces my belief that, even in the lifestyle, relationships begin with a Foundation, and then grow...perhaps i'm simply trying to share that i sometimes feel that i'm a "tailor made fit in a ready made world"...but, please don't misinterpret this to mean i'm interested in being cut, seamed or otherwise mutilated...a piercing or two...well, that might be a different matter if following my Leader...wicked wink...and pausing to consider on going hopes of one fabulous day being found and claimed by that ever elusive One...Who desires only one...to comsume me entirely for His Own...

And that leads me into another recent topic that has been in front of me...i read Dom profiles that state there are so many more subs than Doms...uh? then why is it that so many Doms seems to be Collectors of Subs? the whole poly thing? i dunno...i just wonder how a Dom is able to invest equally in more than one...it seems to me that His subs can only receive 1/x (with x being the total number of subs serving the Dom) of His attention...and how deep can a relationship grow with only 1/x 'th of the Dom's energy? oh wellll...just a thought...

and i found a wonderful site i hadn't been aware of until recently devoted to the growth of Humble Women...and another site with videos of REALLY HOT spankings in all flavors! LOL!! either way, the content on both spins my mind out of control and into the deepest, darkest recesses of desire...i'm SO glad i've never been a vanilla girl at heart...how boring...and SO much untapped longing...

and closing with Wet kisses to One Who is so very special and i so desire to follow (whether He realizes it or not), and happy hugs to all O/others...b
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OK, OK....so much for the watered down version! LOL!!! let's strike that part about preferring the light bondage and spanking stuff...i've heard enough from wannabe's...and know well enough that i "go there"...wanna run wide open??? well, don't even expect THAT to happen at the get go....but, if You're curious, i hope You'll offer a hello and let's exchange some sane conversation....and now the tivo version of the profile! LOL!

i've been in the lifestyle about 7 years now. have had the good fortune and pleasure to have served a few wonderful Doms...but not "The One" yet. i absolutely love how i feel about myself as a submissive and all that the lifestyle brings into my life. i'm vanilla by day, but the facade comes off when i leave work. What i enjoy has a LOT to do with who i serve...i do prefer someone who is at least into spanking and light bondage, and has a wonderfully wicked wit! i love to laugh and the lifestyle is simply an extension of who i am...

i enjoy meeting new friends and hope to hear from you!