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 I am a submissive male who enjoys serving womyn, living a chastity lifestyle, cuckolding, and BDSM. I am very good at domestic chores and am willing to serve a dominant couple or females.
I'm a financially stable professional with a graduate degree. I wear a suit and tie to work, and I drive a Beemer, but don't let that fool you - I'm really a sweet subboy. In my real-life, I enjoy movies, reading, and museums. I work out regularly, having done marathons and triathlons.
Why I'm so weird in my private life...
Both my parents are very intelligent. My mom wore the pants in the family. She was taking advanced degrees at university when womyn just didn't do that.
An early feminist, this may have had something to do with my submissive nature. Since I was raised as a child in a so-called "gender-neutral" environment. I played with dolls as well as with trucks because my parents thought that I could be taught to be a nurturing, gender-neutral adult. They were right. I am very submissive and really need a dominant woman in my life. I'm domestically oriented, and I enjoy cooking, cleaning, and doing household chores.
I own a male chastity belt (a CB3000) and so far I like the results. I am more submissive than ever, and I love it. I really desire a dedicated keyholder who wants to take control of me.
I would like to meet you online, and perhaps later we can meet in person, if we decide we are compatible.
I am interested in friendship first, then whatever comes next. I don't have any fantastic expectations about where our relationship will go, so there is little danger in contacting me.
Thank you for your consideration...
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Are there any Domme's that are "normal". What I mean is that I'm looking for a "middle of the road" Woman, not someone who wears leather around all day. I want someone who is going to love me, guide me, and be my significant other...
Feeling frustrated right now... |
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My last Domme...
I met you in late September ‘03, and you’ve changed my life. I’m sorry that I disappointed you.
I just wanted to tell you about my “confusion”; what you have described to me as my “immaturity”. I think both terms can are synonymous with my insecurity about my sexuality.
I really did care for you, and I wanted you to look to me as a loyal friend because I think that we have things in common that you won’t find in other boys. Our views on the supremacy of females are very close. I still have much more to learn from you about women, but I bet I’m one of the few subs that truly believes in a matriarchal society. Many sub-boys don’t necessarily believe what we believe. I also come from a background similar to yours, and I can understand and appreciate your struggles.
When I first met you, I was out just to “play”. However, you are so different from anyone I’ve ever met – sensitive, sweet, smart, strong and beautiful. In addition, you fulfilled my deepest needs to serve women. You are my model of the supreme female. I thought that we could build on that bond.
More about how I feel about transpired over the past few months that we knew each other.
My insecurities first came out because of your age. I felt like I was crossing some social boundary that I wasn’t supposed to cross. I found that I couldn’t bring myself to mention your age among some friends of mine. However, after talking with friends, I’ve become open to this difference between us. That is why I invited you to our “Christmas” party and was hurt that you couldn’t attend. This was going to be my chance to break through a major barrier by introducing you to my business partners and their friends and partners.
My second insecurity came about when I was put into chastity. I loved being controlled by you. It made feel so much more connected to you, and it always reminded me of my devotion to you. The connection aspect was very, very strong in my mind, but it also made me feel very insecure. I hope that I can explain my feelings to you adequately.
I was insecure that I didn’t feel that I was in a committed relationship with you. I felt very tied to you and the lock confirmed that commitment, but I didn’t feel the same commitment from you. I felt that tomorrow you might find another boy, and I would be just left in the dirt. There is nothing worse than being abandoned. I didn’t want to experience that feeling – if it were to come about. I guess I felt “committed”, but at the same time felt as if we were playing and that you would find someone else and just move on.
It really hit home to me one night when I was out and a friend began to hit on me. I was locked up and couldn’t do anything. I was afraid that she would touch me down there and discover my chastity belt. I also began to think that if I weren’t in chastity, here is an opportunity for a potential relationship that was being lost. I began to think, if I were in a committed relationship my chastity would feel perfectly right (in fact, you probably wouldn’t have allowed me out with friends that late.), but I was insecure because I really wanted to be in a “relationship” with you, but I wasn’t sure because of my other insecurities. My chastity seemed to be a one-way relationship.
Let me clear up by what I mean by a “relationship”. I believe that women have the ability to sustain and manage multiple sexual partnerships that boys don’t have. I also fully understand your need for sexual freedom –which you deserve. I was very comfortable in having you (or someone like you) decide my sexual uses for you, and I was comfortable with your having other sexual relationships. I saw myself as but one tool for your sexual needs.
My need - in order to be able to serve with a clear mind – is for an emotional bond that I believe can only come through a loving relationship. I need to be made to feel that I’m as important – or more important- to you as anyone. As a boy, I want to be in a monogamous relationship (I believe that boys should be required to be in monogamous relationships). Given the nurturing and love that I need, I could have supported you as you move forward in meeting other personal needs that you may have.
My third insecurity concerns other people knowing about the nature of my relationship. I am a submissive, and as you know, I can be incredibly attentive and supportive. I like to joke around and I like to “play”, so some of my “whining” is just me being playful. If you objected to this behavior, then I would have stopped it. I hope you know that I will follow your orders.
However, I was hurt when you discussed my sexuality with C. I felt violated and began to ask myself how much trust I could put in you. Not trust in a bad way because I know that you are a kind and fair person. However, trust that our mutual needs and our understanding of each other’s needs were not aligned. In other words, I don’t let people know things about you that you’re not comfortable with, and you do that for me. I do have some boundaries around my sexuality, and these are things that I thought could be navigated with open communication and understanding. This holds true for any relationship – vanilla or alternative.
I began to have doubts over Christmas because of the three things above. At the same time, I also rekindled a relationship with a friend. Then, when the issue with your father came up, I felt that was the last straw. But for me it really wasn’t. Although, I still feel that you should not have brought him by my place.
Despite what happens in our future, I am deeply devoted to you for making me understand the full nature of my submissiveness. I want you to consider my apologies for my behavior and will reconsider your “grudge” against me.
Although, I wanted a relationship with you, I would be satisfied to have you as a good friend. I feel so isolated without you to talk to and serve. I miss my little bell jingling between my legs, knowing that it told you of my every move. I miss sitting at your feet while you watch TV. |
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