aubrianne

It has been a very rough few weeks for me, i got to spend the last few days on wed-fri with my mom, sadly she passed to cancer at 10 am on Saturday morning. She had been diagnosed the week before and decided against treatment since it was already stage 4 and matastisied to her bone marrow. It was a bitter sweet few days and I am sad. But I can be comforted that she is no longer in pain and with my father, step father and son's father.

I have come back after being away for a while. I am not always online and not always able to answer messeges right away. I have mostly been concentrating on bettering my life and my son's life. It has been a hard few years but I am always keeping positive.

argh nothing ever goes right

seems like everything is going to hell in a handbasket. i may just go to the shelter again at least there i was happy and mostly stress free. nothing i do will ever be right since people look at me as if i am worthless maybe they are right

likely lost my job tonight but at this moment i have some decisions to make to better my own life before i can be with anyone. tonight i couldn't go to work because my sitter refused to watch my son. i admit he is my roommate and sisters bf and i cant afford to pay him anything . but he knew this when agreeing to watch my son. i take care of my son and make sure he is asleep before the sitter who had total knee replacement a few weeks ago so he wouldn't have to chase after him. but i need my own place. need to be dependant on myself from now on because it is the only way i seem to be happy.

Looks like a shelter for my son and I since helping three people managed to get me evicted from my apartment. oh well will figure something out

Finally working sister got me a job at her work it felt great to be on the work force again even if my feet are sore after only five hours lol but i hope it lasts.

I have a job interview today in a half hour I hope it goes well, i really need the job wish me luck

had a good 32nd birthday today with my little sisters and my son it was a slow day at first but ended with cake and a wonderful meatloaf dinner

Rest In Peace to my son's father a wonderful man and Dom he may not have been my Master these past few years but he always was a good friend and a great father. I love and miss you Killean, your son will grow up knowing that you were always there for you and your mother no matter what.

Killean passed away at 10:45 pm on september 26, 2012

Its a dark time right now for me i am trying to stay strong for my son right now and his step mother...

Frustrated in new place with no net, i had my cell phone but it was stolen so now am trying to find a job to get a new one so that i can get back online at least while I am at friends house i am staying at. 

Hurting right now one of my second cousins was killed last night in a car crash on SR 80 in florida i may not have been close to him in the adult years but we played as children

Working on assignments that seem to get even harder as time goes by, trying my best to get these done on time and get the best possible grade i know i usually put things aside til the last minute and that is not good especially when one falls asleep while reading assigned work

Have a wonderful and Happy New year all

tears fall.. the heartbeat of one beloved gone like a whisper... never to be heard again Murdered by evil ones.. nothing but memories and the sound of a newborn's cries as it will never know the one who bore it... life fades without the joy the one brought us, the sweet song of the one's love for others. Love and the memories are all we have left... you will live on in our memories my friend.. my sister.. you will live forever in our hearts as one of the most special people in the world.. one who didn't deserve to be stolen from those who loved you.. R.I.P my friend and watch over those that love you still........

            What is Love?

Love should not be rushed.

Love should not be taken for granted.

Love is a special bond between two people.

Love is more important than anything else.

Love is finding the one you want to be with.

Love is two hearts connected as one.

Love hurts when you can't see each other every day.

Love is a bond that brings you closer.

Love is all powerful.

Love is never a weakness.

You can say there is no such thing as love.

But I know love has found me.

Love will find you as well whether you look for it or deny it exists.

You can search for love all your life and never find it.

When you give up it will find you.

Remember to recognize love when it finds you,

Dont let your doubts and fears keep you from experiencing true love too...

Where are you sister of my heart?

Where are you Sharer of the womb?

Where are you? Are you safe?

Where are you other half of my soul?

Where are you?

Where can you be sister mine?

Why do you leave these questions unanswered?

We shared the womb for nine months. We shared a room for eighteen years.

We shared our secrets with each other since we could walk. Where are you?

Why do you not call me?

Why do you leave me like this, in such pain and misery?

Worry running through me, tears falling because I do not know if you are safe.

My heart burning, wondering if you are out there hurt and alone.

You don't call, you have sent no answer to my pleads of response.

When will we hear from you? Are you ok?

Please answer me at least to know you are safe.

I am twenty six years old. Live in florida and am new to this site. I am just a curious girl and I am a shy person by nature.