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| I'm an outgoing girl that loves to learn but is often distracted by the many options of just what to learn and when to focus on what. My favorite places to hang out are coffee shops, parks and any place that has DDR. I'm fascinated by people who have a passion for life and an interest in the greater good.
I have spent my fair share of time in this lifestyle and I've gone through two major phases thus far. One is on the very physical pain side, in which I love that cathartic release and the escapism. The other was on a very mental side of submitting to someone I trusted completely to worry about my growth while I was concerned for their pleasure. Hmm..as I read this back all I can think of is how black and white I was then and I never knew how to play in the gray area. No one is perfect. The ideal Dom and sub aren't out there around the corner. However, there are people that care and intend to be the best that they can be.
I would sum that up to be my bf right now. He is just learning the entire D/s realm and I must say that I was one of those submissive snobs that swore I would never play with a newbie. I won't lie, it is challenging every day for both of us, but I think eventually we will get to a place where we can trust one another in our roles and live in the moment instead of always looking to where we'd like it to be.
We are currently in an open relationship, and although that has been a really hard thing for me to swallow, I think it is ultimately the best for us both. The way I feel when he talks with another woman now is glad that he is getting what he needs that I can't provide. I'd love to actually have another submissive serve him and help her to know just what pleases him.
I am traditionally dominant towards other women but playing with a couple where I would be second is not out of the question. With the right dynamic, I could definitely see myself in that situation.
I always love to get to know new people whether they be Dom, sub, or couples. So, please feel free to message me! Starting off your email with the line, "Attention is only..." is a bonus.
I hope that everyone has an eventful New Year full of promise and excitement!
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So, I love the profiles that say something like I'm a Master from birth...are you freakin kidding me? Thanks for the entertainment. Thanks also to all the real people out there who haven't given up with this site :) |
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Random thoughts...
So, I forgot how much I absolutely love being held. It was almost odd at first because I typically don't allow myself to feel much. I don't like getting used to something just to have it taken away.
The other thing that I'm struggling with is actually expressing myself more than just through music. How the heck do I show someone that I care and want to spend time with them but still let them know that I want them to enjoy their own time and not feel obligated to spend time with me? It's a mystery to me.
It's funny how when I focus on another person and I really take the time to observe and listen, they become a completely different person and not just this idea of who I've always seen them as. It was so refreshing to really see what made a person happy or upset. I guess I have always cared, but it was on a totally different level for me this time. It just made me care for them so much more.
I am much more submissive than normal lately. I think I have just come to the realization and have accepted that this is who I am and who I want to be. I don't think of it as a right to serve but as a privilege. I know what demands come when I am collared and it doesn't even phase me anymore. I know that with His help, I will be able to please Him.
I just sat down one day and challenged myself, that if I really wanted to submit to the level I thought I did, that I had to stop analyzing everything and just do it. There is no one but me holding myself to standards but I know how to not be a brat. I know when I want and crave attention and I just want to go after it in the wrong way, and I made myself the promise to hold back.
Yes, I know I will fail at times, but I know this is who I am...this is what I love and desire. This is my place. To me, it's the most at peace I've ever felt. So, I'm going to go enjoy it :) |
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Hey, it's been a long day. So, if you didn't hear back from me I'm not ignoring you. I'll make sure I respond tomorrow. Thanks and have a great night :)
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| Age: 30 |
| Boonville,
North Carolina |
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