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i am soooo happy...
thank you thank you thank you jennifer...
i LOVE you... : ) |
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for You...
dreams shatter as falling tears...
fantasies lie under broken hearts...
vows of eternity dead within the silence of screams...
nite paints distance the depth of blackness...
begging for the strength of security...
walls of distance built upon tears...
shadows standing as one struggles for one last touch...
do we hold time...
does this heart bleed for one last time...
do pieces ever fit back into the puzzle...
do they tumble through the abyss...
who catches them...
do we cry out in this pain...
do dreams hold our words once more...
will the fantasy breathe life once more...
how long do we stand on this broken path...
hidden within this waiting box...
forever You slave... |
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little divas desires of wanton fantasies... |
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for You...
two breaths yearn to be one...
words of misunderstanding stands alone...
silence offering quiet tears...
dreams dance on threads of uncertainty...
time the security of absence...
within arms of power and strength...
insecurities and doubt hidden in blindness...
tears cease behind silent screams...
forever You slave... |
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one word falls in mourning...
now silent...
now blackened...
spoken behind the veil...
dancing upon Your fingers...
catching a breeze...
falling...
floating...
grasping each whisper...
are they heard...
are they spoken...
each felt...
each silent...
forever You slave... |
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quite whispers within each touch...
anticipation of fantasies...
each line of gentleness...
a kaleidoscope of each breath...
is life this red-headed guy of mine... |
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i got a new one...
is so beautiful... |
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little divas ephemeral fantasies of forgotten whispers... |
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~just the musings of a slave...~
i knew it was coming...
i just didn't realize it was going to be this difficult...
i never thought i would feel my heart pulled from me...
tears scalding my breasts...
tumbling into an abyss of blackness...
never grasping the hand that once was reaching for me...
memories burn into my soul...
no longer are they held to my heart...
once You drifted upon the nite's breeze...
was You that once held my beating heart...
once You felt my kisses in slumber...
once walls of desire consumed passions...
once there was the ecstasy of lust...
now is the ephemeral mists of love...
will these tears of mine bathe me in loneliness...
do they cleanse You of my heartache...
have they built the silence You hear...
once i sought solace in Your embrace...
now luna holds my tears...
how often does one wait...
once... a thousand times...
how long does one wait...
a second or perhaps years...
how can You desire a broken slave when she did not exists...
how can You take the blank canvas and shred it with blackened
tears...
the first hello...
the last tear...
the promise Sir no longer there...
~Anshi
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i have had it...?? i was going to rant...?? just take a few minutes to get the bad taste out of my mouth...? but then what is the use...? i am tired of so called masters thinking they have the upper hand...? that they are twisting the poor stupid salve to their will...? make her dance like a puppet...? i wonder can they possibly be this stupid... ? we all classify ourselves with labels...? i am this...? i do not do that....? i will or i won't...? no other person can give us a label...? is what we do to ourselves...? so why is it that someone who does not know me judge me...? how can they take a few moments in a letter and tell me what i need to do...? what i should not do...? how can someone who does not know me write and ask me to 'piss in his face'...? i could go on and on...? let me clarify this...? this is my playground...? you are welcome to play with me...? however do not insult me...? do not ASSUME anything with me...? chances are you will be wrong...? being here on cm i have found there are some horrible people...? i am shocked at some...? i have found some that are honest and true individuals...? i have found some that have given completely and honestly of themselves and most importantly of their heart...? i have found some who feel that they are superior to all...? i have found some who absolutely sicken me...? i have found some to whom i have given my heart...? i Love You...? i despise slaves and submissives that write me assuming i am dominate...? get a clue...? read my profile...? i cannot stand it that a dominate man writes me and takes a few minutes and then think they 'know' me...? know what is best...? i cannot understand why profiles are not read...? why would someone think without actual thought...? my profile states i am a woman...? i live in california...? my age...? and that i am a slave...? does not give any likes or dislikes...? fantasies or nightmares...? does not claim i am seeking...? so no i say this...? do not come into my playground and piss all over...? all i ask is common courtesy...? mutual respect... ? and no assumptions...? i guess this turned into a rant after all...? but who really cares...? the ones for which this rant was written would not take time to read it...??
oh Sir...?
forever You slave...
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oh Sir...
little divas golden ruby fantasies...
forever You slave...
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where do i go..
follow the faded light...
forever feeling the ripples of silence...
are whispers still heard...
touches still felt...
strangling fragmented time...
so open...
so vulnerable...
so exposed...
forever You slave...
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dreams fulfill the blossoms of tomorrow...
the pain as each petal falls...?
yesterday was the seed of hope...
today i stand and gaze at the beauty before me...
oh i am so happy...
they are so beautiful...
to touch is still pain...
but is worth each ouch...
forever You slave...
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is the fantasy of confusion...
or the contentment of disorder...
holding dreams of broken tears...
gentle breezes not forgotten...
blackened colors of sunlight...
seeking solace in the torment of silence...
forever You slave...
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oh Sir...
little divas on the wings of midnite's ecstasy...
forever You slave...
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it is with anticipation that i cast
my eyes upwards and see perfection...
it is with adoration that i admire
the Man who sits in quiet solitude...
the One who listens with beauty...
the One who seeks with imagination...
Your needs great...
Your desires surging...
Your cravings fulfilled...
i beg of You Sir...
take what is offered...
the passion of me...
forever You slave...
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webs of uncertainty... ?
tears written upon a shredded heart...
words given in trust...
who ponders these dancing tears...
hands grasping a beating heart...
is You heart...
is mine...
our soul we share...
one soul...
one heart...
blackening clouds steal my breath... ?
confusion stops...? ?
desires float upon a heavy whisper... ?
do mere words dance with lust...
do we stand with our back to the nite...
silken threads of moon lite embracing unquenchable needs...
safely held with each beat of You heart...
You take away these cold dark places... ?
each dreams is Yours...
contentment sailing upon tranquility... ?
will You hold it all in the palms of You hands... ?
will You kiss each tear as it falls...
is it today...
was it yesterday...
will it be tomorrow...
how ever far...
how ever near...
is You heart...
You touch...
You glance...
is You love...
forever You slave...
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come take me as Yours...
hold my hand to Your
heart as we
tumble into the abyss of slumber...
gather my tears of loneliness and
see the purity of love...
take my kisses and
follow each as
the innocence of a butterfly's
flight...
allow me to come into You heart...
allow me to bow before You with honour and devotion...
when i said yes Sir it was forever...
no looking back as what was...
only this moment as i gaze up into perfection...
is the moment as Master and His slave are one...
not for the game...
not for the thrills...
as each tear is felt...
as each gentle touch is fire...
as i am Yours...
You are mine...
forever Master and His slave...
forever You slave...
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selene holds within her alabaster hands my Devotion...?
my Honour...
my Love...
forever You slave...
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is just a rant...
it boggles the imagination that someone would approach another with a long drawn out note that is sent to others...? i am not interested in reading a note that you have pulled from you file that you send to everyone you write...? if you are so interested in saying hi then say hi...? but if i may be so bold as to suggest...? READ my profile before you contact me...? do not send me a note that is sent just because i am a woman...? treat me with respect...? i do not want to read how you want a toilet slut or a pig whore...? i don't want to hear how you will shower me with romance and lilies...? oh i don't know...? for some reason i really cannot even imagine myself getting overly excited by anyone who would tell me in the first note hey i want to s**t on you...? i want to hear you oink as i pass your whore a** around...? i find it vulgar and inappropriate...? also plying me with romance and lilies is also inappropriate...? with as much as we all see and hear and experience on a daily basis a note can be sent that says hi how are you where do you live what is it that you seek...? i do not? want some simple minded fool telling me they want to fall to their knees and worship me...? give me devoted love and loyalty...? HELLO...? take a moment to read my profile...? i am a SLAVE...? seriously...? please read profiles if you even consider writing someone here...? it takes a moment or two...? they contain a wealth of information...? whether detailed or scant...? they explain all...? and while i am on this rant what is it with notes that say just hi...? just a two letter word...? what in the name of heaven is anyone to do with that...? is a greeting you give to a stranger as you pass on a street corner...? hi is a great opening but a bit more but would pique interests and imaginations... ? and while i sit here with my little rant...? i am no cam whore...? i am no internet slut...? i will not shake my tits for you...? i will not open my legs for you...? i do not take toys and perform like a trained animal...? i am not a door mat you wipe you feet on...? i do not appreciate being spat upon...? i am a woman...? i give myself to You as You slave...? with Love...? with Honour...? with Obedience...? with Devotion...?
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oh Sir...
little divas forbidden fantasy...
forever You slave...
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i write words to You..
they come from my heart...
do they reach You soul...
do You feel me...
do You seek solace in the torment of silence...
do embraces of blackness mark me as Yours...?
i tumble through the darken abyss...?
i fight to grasp outreached hands...?
You hands that soothe...
You hands that love...?
when You need You thoughts...
i will let You think...?
when You need You silence...
i will hold You silence...?
when You reach out...?
i will forever be there...?
forever You slave...
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oh Sir...
is peek-a-boo blue...
just for You...
forever You slave...
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to what depth do we fall...
stepping from the ledge...
screams are silent...
lying in this comfort of warmth...
whispering each goodbye...
forever You slave...
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little divas midnite fantasy...
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within You arms of strength and power...
lying with insecurities and doubts...
tears cease...
a heart still lies tattered within the palms of You hands...
each gentle smile hides behind silent screams...
forever You slave...
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i got another one...
is so cute...
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tonite...
?my guilty pleasure...
forever You slave...
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fantasies sought through blindness...
gentle rains cry tormented tears...
reaching through this abyss of darkness...
silence screams one last kiss...
forever You slave...
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little divas...
ohhhh so candy applelicious...
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our space in time a touch away...
mounting wanton greed to be sated...
alluring lust to be shared...
desires to dream...
cravings to fulfill...
demanding needs...
the beauty of play...
sparks of imagination...
words which speak silence...
teasing fingers...
ride the ephemeral dreams of ecstasy...
touching limpid pools of sweetness...
embracing the crashing crescendo of moonlight...
will this dance be sated...
forever reaching through this wisping mists...
grasping once more the tendrils of lust...
forever You slave...
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fantasies fall with uncertain dreams...
hope lingers on kisses of tomorrow...
fleeting moments of whispers...
unquenchable desires...
unfulfilled cravings...
tormented tears of seduction...
bewitching desires to please...
forever You slave...
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i find You words written in starlight...
hearing You whispers at dawn...
You make me wait...
will i feel You breath upon my lips...
daylight bringing the magic that i have been denied...
You are forever the darkening midnight mist...
forever You haunt my dreams...
You hands reaching out for mine...
i keep grasping at waves as they leave the shore...
is it You that stands behind me...
or me behind the wall...
come lay with me...
held in this elusive embrace...
forever one...
take these tears...
just for today, love me as i Love You...
lingering sunlight dances upon my breasts...
as shadows fall will You kisses find mine...
will You seek hidden treasures meant only for You...
love me for the very first time as we did before...
tonight's breeze brings the heat of You desires...
You kisses are burning embers of starlight...
forever entwined as one...
fingers grasped in Love...
kisses that never cease...
needs as urgent as raindrops on the window pane...
as demanding as a thunderous roar...
as ephemeral as the rainbow...
i cry out as the music ends...
I Love You...
come back to me...
taste kisses forever Yours...
feel me for one last time...
our dreams haunt my days...
our tears, my nights...
forever You slave...
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i seem to be in a pissy mood lately...
why is it that men here claim they want a slave...
they claim they do not want a door mat...
they want a woman with intelligence...
they seek and they find...
she is no door mat...
she has intelligence...
can form a complete sentence...
but does not agree with him on an actor...
on a movie...
on music...
so.....
she is an unintelligent sloth...
it boggles my imagination...
i liked avatar...
i thought it was a great movie...
does not mean i have only a grade school education...
i love kd lang...
love james cagney...
hate brad pitt...
we all have our personal taste...
does not mean i deserve to be insulted and degraded...
this is what makes us all unique...
now...
why in the f**k would i even consider you as someone worthy of my devotion and honour, respect and above all love after your display to the one you claim you want bowed at you feet...
i hate to disappoint you...
but until you claim me...
i hold the keys...
no one owns me...
no one has the right to tell me to shut up...
tell me what i like...
what i do not like...
what i can wear...
what i cannot wear...
it is my life until i turn it over to You...
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please take note...
i am a slave...
i do not do sex chat online...
i do not do phone sex talk...
i am no cam whore...
i am no internet slut...
i am defiant...
i am mouthy...
i do not take orders...
so to all who think just because you say hi and you claim to be a master or a mistress or a dom or a domme...
you do not own ME...
i will speak my mind...
i will be mouthy...
i will be defiant...
i will be respectful to you...
i will honor and value and treasure my relationship with you...
do not tell what i can and cannot do...
what i can and cannot say or think...
i will not spread my legs for you...
i will not shake my? tits for you...
i am so angry and sick of pseudo masters and doms who demand when they have no right...
if you want sex call 800 numbers...
go to sex chatlines...
go to internet sex pay sites...
i am a slave...
give me the respect that is due ME...
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words of misunderstanding stand alone...
silence offering quiet tears...
dreams dance on threads of uncertainty...
time the security of absence...
memories of how it use to be...
now it seems there is nothing...
forever You slave...
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i remember You kisses upon my lips...??
the shadowed glow of You smile...??
You praises which bathed me in the gentleness of rain drops...??
You scoldings i long for...??
You guidance of my failures...??
You whispers of a heartbeat...??
we loved to the symphony of a breeze...??
within the abyss of daylight i am marked by You feverish kisses...??
i stand in the darkest, deepest, depths of blackness...??
will You look into my eyes and hear whispers through the emptiness of time...??
You lingering touch has left me vulnerable...
embers of lust now just lie within the confines of tears...
oh Sir i Love You...
forever You slave...
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uncertainty claims silent movements...
waiting and not finding...
seeking and not grasping...
dreams speak of tears...
love standing alone...
kisses not felt...
shadows dancing upon a shredded heart...
oh Sir...
please only close You eyes...
once again feel...
forever You slave...
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within the arms of strength and power??
lies insecurities and doubts??
tears cease yet shred the heart??
gentle smiles hide behind silent screams??
for You gentle heart??
a soul so pure??
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blackening clouds float upon heavy whispers
webs of uncertainty tightens the pen
tears write upon darkened dust
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is peek-a-boo blue...
just for You...
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You promised me...
You broke You promise...
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uncertainty is all that lingers??
an open heart awaits ?
i cannot reach out to touch You??
You've taken my breath away??
You've entered my soul??
i have pleaded an eternity for the softness of Your touch??
for Your fragrance upon me??
and all i hold are fleeting moments of whispers
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do You feel each thought ?
do You watch as my hair fall through You fingers
do You feel the searing heat of my fingertips as they gently lay upon You thighs
do You taste my total surrender to You ?
know that i forever bow to You ??
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i come here today to cry??
to stomp my feet??
to say i don't like You?
my tears fall to my breasts and shred my heart??
the heated scars they leave on my cheeks ?
i am You slave ?
i have rules that must be followed ?
and this is the area of my troubles ?
i blame You also Sir ?
one moment You come to me as the dominate Master ?
rules that must be adhered to ?
but then You come to me with such gentleness and compassion ?
You heart so full of love ?
and then for some unknown reason You become a pit bull chewing my ankles ?
so i f**k up
then tell me ?
but i don't understand hours and hours of bitching and complaining about how worthless i am ?
what a moron i am ?
that i am an idiot like none You have ever seen?
i beg You Sir ?
i don't know ?
i am so hurt ?
i know You are not the type of Master who gains pleasure out of seeing me in complete pain
but i do believe that You get fixated on a point and then it all blows up ?
when i said yes to You it was because i saw the gentle heart that beats within Your chest ?
i saw the compassion within You soul ?
i am no animal slave ?
i live in no cage ?
i am You slave
honoured and proud to be so ?
let me continue Loving You?
i do not want to fear You ?
to dislike You
then hate You ?
i beg You Sir ?
allow my heart to sit in You hands ?
allow my tears to cleanse You feet ?
allow my kisses to follow You dreams
allow my Love for You Sir?
i am because of You ?
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for all to know ? ?
my name is Anshi????
i am a proud slave
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for you??
on the dreams of today ?
the rejections of tomorrow??
and the desires of yesterday??
will silence reach for uncertainty??
do cravings call to wisping whispers??
will ephemeral kisses keep me locked
forever to your heart
~Anshi
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he breathes life ?
and i live in pain??
for a day??
a week??
i don't know??
but with each breath he takes he is no longer the fantasy of one??
the desires of two??
but the life of three as we are one??
i smile and is real not pasted??
i touch and feel the life beating within??
how selfish i am to crave his breath??
his strength??
his power??
his love??
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went to the ballgame ?
we won??
YEA??
well that said and out of my system i want to write You Sir??
tell You how i feel??
this is the only outlet i have to do it??
being with You is the greatest reward and honor??
last night being with You was so nice??
sharing what has been kept away for much too long??
thank You Sir for allowing me the opportunity to be completely open and honest??
You asked if i was happy and content??
i am Sir??
as i said it is the denial of my feelings that hurt the most??
You know Sir that my feelings are the deepest part of me??
when You deny them Sir You claim i am nothing??
i am void?
but being Your slave Sir i can never be nothing??
i am You??
all that You are??
the fantasies of You dreams??
the silence of You days??
the cravings of You soul??
i am it all???
i am You??
i give all to You
i was happy with the first hello??
when i accepted??
and forever Sir??
i tell You the deepest feeling Sir??
i Love You??
is the greatest honor to bow before You Master??
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i have had an opportunity to settle down and think after our LAST conversation ?
it always surprises me that when someone does not get their way they piss and moan and have the unmitigated gall to stand on door steps and hurl shit??
who gave them that right??
does that mean they have the self appointed duty to degrade and insult??
how is it that they are so lofty??
who awarded them this position ?
i sit here and i catch myself seething??
i refuse to allow an insignificant individual to do this to me??
one thing i tell you??
through the onslaught of you insults and degradation i will be happy??
i am content with me??
i suggest you look into the mirror??
see what you are??
nothing more than a man with ugly spewing from you mouth
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congratulations brazil ?
so sorry usa??
there was hope??
my fingers crossed?
yet we lost??
wonderful game played??
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i wonder when we said hello ?
did we both know?
was it just me? ?
i always said that i was forever Yours??
no matter where our paths may take us??
but i wonder now why me??
what was it about this stone in the path of so many??
what was it that made me unique??
i cannot tell You why i said hello to You??
why i even said yes??
i just knew that it was meant to be??
even in the times that i hurt so deep??
when each tear burns into my cheeks??
as each fall to my breasts??
i am still Yours?
i ask You why is it that i am always being punished??
why is it that i seem to anger You at every turn??
You tell me it is my lack of retention??
my apparent need for regression as opposed to progression??
You tell my that You do not want to know my feelings??
yet they are Your feelings??
Your tears??
do You hold them in You hands??
do You feel them in You heart??
i beseech You Sir??
how do i turn them off??
how do i stop feeling??
i know Sir that it cannot be off and on??
like the nite's street lamps??
this i know??
i beg of You??
mold me to fit into the cradle of You hands??
create You dream Sir
i bow to You my Master
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i am really excited ?
usa and brazil are in the final ?
guess who my fingers are crossed for ?
good game between south africa and brazil ?
brazil took it? 1-0?
congratulations brazil??
i am sorry south africa??
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i thought it time that i come back and write ?
lots has happened and then nothing has happened??
it boggles my imagination how i am courted he takes time to talk ?
takes a few moments to know i live here??
he lives there??
that there is a possibility??
we laugh??
we enjoy?
then comes the real test??
how submissive are you??
can you be mine for 24/7??
i don't know??
i don't know him??
how do i know
can i say yes to a life long commitment without the benefit of knowing you ?
i am an intelligent woman??
by choice i am a slave??
a bit defiant ?
but a slave??
i am not some flighty young woman who wants to dabble into the unknown??
i am educated??
i own my own home??
i pay my own bills??
i own my own business ?
?i have another job??
i am a slave ?
i am proud to bow and humble myself ?
i resent any man claiming this needs to be taken to real time??
claiming that there cannot be a true relationship online?
well i beg to differ??
hello---we are all online here??
this is the beginning??
it is going to be online??
and then progress from there??
but much of the beginning stages will be online??
i don't know maybe i just ramble??
but i find my patience pushed to the limits??
men who claim i want you to be mine?
yet cannot and will not find out about the slave he courts??
i am a slave
but i wonder do you as master care what my favorite colour is
do you care what my favorite foods are?
do you care if i favor showers or hot bubble baths??
do you care if i like coldplay or bach??
to have a successful relationship with this slave these are the important things?
you see if you take a few moments to know me as the person you will find that i will be so much more inclined to serve
also in my life i have developed friendships with both men and women?
most i know and communicate with??
some as long as 46 years??
when a master is courting it is very bad choice to tell this slave she is no longer allowed to have her friends??
men or women??
you see if you truly wanted to have me as yours you would find out who my friends are?
why they are my friends??
i do not take relationships lightly??
i believe in the long haul??
when i was going through deepest and darkest times my friends where there to hold my tears??
i know that being a slave i have no rights??
except one??
i have the final say??
i am a grown woman??
i am a slave by choice??
i just as soon live my life quietly than live it with someone who does not nor are they willing to get to know me??
i know you are master and i am slave??
man and woman??
we both are different??
you are master??
i am slave??
i am no cage slave??
i will not be chained like an animal??
i will be your playmate
your baby??
your whore??
i will do things and be pushed to limits?
i will be the woman to stand next to you??
i will give you all your desires??
cravings??
i accept you i give you all of me??
we are one??
from the first hello??
?the first tear drop that fell??
i bow to You the first hello??
i bow to You until the day i die??
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well the big girl panties are on ? ?
i am happy with me????
with my life????
now Sir for You????
no matter where we were yesterday????
what we did today????
or where we will go tomorrow???
i am always Yours???
i was from the first hello ? ?
You needed what i could not give You????
i needed what You could not give me????
i am Anshi Your proud slave????
i Love You forever Sir
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sometimes it boggles the imagination????
that when we need the person who claims ownership they are not there????
they piss and moan????
well big freakin deal????
sometimes we all need down time????
time to crawl into ourselves????
find out why????
sometimes a moment????
a day????
an eternity????
those who claim ownership need to stop standing on boxes?
stop beating chest and claiming i am the all mighty????
slave or no slave????
master or no master ?
we are humans ??
with real emotions ?? real lives ? ? i am a slave ? ? i am a proud slave ? ? but i also am a woman who owns a home ? has a yard ? ? goes to work daily ? others depending on me? i still care ? ? i will still cry ? ? but i understand ? ? i am sick of saying i understand ? i don't understand ? ? i am tired of crying ? i am tired of the pain my heart feels ? oh what the f**k ? ? time to put on the big girl panties ?? ?
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i do not like this??
i want to be able to have this to be my private world??
not the one where You monitor my words??
my actions??
i am grown up and i don't need You to be spying over my shoulder determining what i do and don't do??
You trust me or You don't trust me??
if You don't then we have no relationship ?
i am really tired?
i don't know what else to write ?
i am going to take a candle lit bubble bath ?
some great music???
extremely hot water?
and just enjoy
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i am sick????
i hate being this way????
now i go back to bed????
just let me die????
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i come here tonight wanting to write ?
having this desire to share ?
and what happens ?
nothing ?
i have no idea what to write?
so i won't ?
instead ?
i will play??
and have fun??
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there should never be betrayals ?
honesty sitting in one hand??
lies in the other??
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no matter where our paths lead us??
i am honored to be a part of Your life??
i will forever love You??
and will always share my tears??
hold my heart to Yours ?
i Love You Sir
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i am angry????
this is the only way i can say it????
so Sir please listen????
i am mad at You ? ??
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Master has allowed me the freedom of voice ?
i wonder Sir ?
do You really want this ?
well i am going to take advantage of it ?
Master told me to write and write and write ?
to express my deepest feelings??
express my purpose in life??
the new meaning in my life??
oh Master how wonderful You are ?
allowing this slave the unrestrained voice?? then my writing is not clear enough ?
not understood ?
i am to pinpoint that . .. ...... ?
that . .... .. ... ?
so here goes ?
. .. ..... ?
. .... .. ... ?
.... ... .... .... ?
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okay so they did not win the game ?
but the 4th quarter was great
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cards will take it??
fingers are crossed
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hmmmmmmmmmm ?
have You ever wondered Master
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for You Master it is peek-a-boo blue
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my dream?
to touch You Master
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i am because of You Master??
i no longer exist as a separate entity
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i am humbled by Your acceptance Master
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it is with honor that i stay bowed at Your feet
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did we go further than where we could have gone
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for You Master??
darkness and despair left????
You wipe my tears away ? ?
each hangs in the silence of night ? ?
i am humbled before You ? ?
a slave am i ? ?
bound to You ? ?
belonging to You ? ?
kneeling before You????
i beg for Your strength? ?
strength flows within ? ?
i open my soul ? ?
trusting You ? ?
my devotion to You ? ?
all unconditional ? ?
all unrestrained ? ?
my loving ? ?
my passion ? ?
my lust ? ?
no longer mine ? ?
they are offered to You
locked in eternal love ? ?
tomorrow the sun shall rise ? ?
i will dance stripped of my earthly bonds? i humbly offer my naked surrender ? ?
my desires are Your whispers ? ?
Your fingertips burn into my flesh ? ?
the urgency of Your kisses are my branding ? ?
i long to touch You ? ?
Your passion ignites within me ? ?
this urgency of desire ? ?
of lust ? ?
of pain? ?
all fall upon deafness ? ?
i beg of You ? ?
there is no regrets ? ?
no doubts ? ?
it is You ? ?
You call for me ? ?
i am whole ? ?
i am complete???
i cry ? ?
they are Your tears ? ?
i? hunger ? ?
You eat of me ? ?
i thirst ? ?
You drink of me ? ?
i breathe????
You take each breath ? ?
lost in eternity????
time stops????
silence speaks????
will my kisses fall to Your lips ? ?
i look? to the heavens????
stars caressing one another????
i see only You ? ?
You hold me captive til dawn????
i slumber in Your perfection????
i touch????
You feel????
i speak????
it is Your voice????
i sleep????
they are Your dreams????
my heart ? ??
Your love ? ?
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today i turn my life over to You Master????
today i understood for the first time???
today forever i live my life for You????
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it is when silence is spoken that i come
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?each time Master i am with You??
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how many tears will fall for sadness
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the veil of shadows was lifted ?
this slave forever honors You ?
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it is i that needs You??
?i long to kneel in the shadow of Perfection
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each time You reach for me in Your dreams??
each time You call me as You sleep??
each time i am there??
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i know each time You call me
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