"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness.

I want a man lying over me, always over me....I don't mind working, holding my own ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh god, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don't mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling -- all that I am capable of doing.

But I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a man at his time, his bidding."

- Anais Nin


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What do I say about myself on my current journey into all this?


To begin with, I would definitely not categorize myself as merely
"A Submissive". Labels are all too limiting; none of us are single dimensional beings. Rather, I would say that I have submissive aspects to my nature, personality and character which is mainly determined by the right situation and authoritative partner.


I am a journeymaker seeking to flourish from being consistently mentored and taught within this lifestyle. I seek an intelligent, healthy (in both body & mind), sentient soul who can genuinely lead me -- for I so wish to be led.


That said, I am not in a mad rush to find a Dominant and clamp on a collar. Surprised?
I am also NOT seeking a 24/7 partner, but more of a Disciplinarian, a Mentor, play partner that I can safely venture into D/s exploration with.


First and foremost, I crave genuine authority. I seek someone whom I can truly respect and please to discipline, mentor and guide me. Lest this request sound overly simple, I am not speaking to those who have mistaken blustering and alpha male posturing for genuine authority.


Beyond discipline and authority, I am very interested in exploring the true essence of submission but have precious little use for some of the practices and formalities that go along with the lifestyle. For example, it is high hilarity to expect me to speak in the third person vernacular and I am woefully lacking in ability to blindly kneel and worship at another's feet.


You must be intelligent, kind at heart, ethical and trustworthy. You must be someone who understands the multi-layered aspects of this lifestyle -- in whatever form and context.


Bluntly, You must be more than a mere master in the bedroom to interest me; being a master in life is much more impressive and deserving of respect. You must be someone who isn't threatened by that statement. There seem to be an inordinate number of "Dominants" online who are impotent when it comes to being master of their own lives but weakly disguise that sad fact by attempting to control another. Simply, a good indicator of genuine authority is a well-rounded and active life in addition to your lifestyle interests.


In summation, if you've managed to read all the way to this point concluding my unfocused musings, I think that
quality interactions, friendships, and explorations are worth pursuing purposefully.
Time being an immeasurable luxury, it does not interest me to waste it.


I look forward to hearing from other likeminded sentient souls....



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ani