andy56

About andy56

My name is Andrzej, and I am 69 years old. I live in Warsaw, the capital of Poland, in a four-bedroom family apartment with my mother and sister. While it is a comfortable place, it does not provide full privacy or freedom. This is, of course, because I do not live alone. I am unmarried and do not have children. Currently, I am not involved with anyone—regardless of gender. I do not share deep family ties with my mother or sister. To me, they are not figures I hold in my heart with warmth, but rather roles they play in my life. I also feel no strong connection to the place where I live. This is my updated profile. It contains the same information as before, but I have chosen to give it a new form and a fresh perspective. Creative Roots & Professional Path Since childhood, I have been drawn to creativity. Whether it was drawing, writing, or playing music—which began when my father bought me a guitar at age ten—art has always been my path. By the age of 18, I began focusing seriously on graphic arts and music. As a graphic designer, I had the honor of designing the first exhibition of Caravaggio and his students at the National Museum in Warsaw. As a satirical cartoonist, my work was exhibited at the Museum of Caricature. I also spent years as a professional jazz musician. In 2005, I moved to England, where I lived and worked for six years. During that time, I discovered a three-year course in addiction therapy. Driven by a lifelong desire to help others, I returned to Poland to complete my training. Since then, I have been helping those affected by alcoholism—drawing from my own experience with the disease and my professional expertise. Today, my artistic pursuits have shifted from a career to a cherished hobby. My Journey to Truth For most of my life, I tried to build "standard" relationships with women—what many call "Vanilla." However, I was always haunted by guilt and remorse because I was living a double life. There were two of me: one struggling to conform to societal standards, and another fueled by the thought of submission. I was terrified to share my desires with partners, fearing rejection as a "perverse" man. So, I lived in silence, suffering and dreaming. I tried to build a life with the stubbornness of a maniac, but the longer I tried, the more my heart froze. I was like Lot’s wife—eventually turning into a pillar of salt. I couldn’t live that way anymore. Finally, everything "burst" with a great bang. Since then, I have reached out to dominant women. I have had several such relationships, but they were often short-lived because our needs didn't quite align. If the differences were minor, I wouldn't be here on Collarspace. Now, I am waiting for a miracle—and not necessarily only from a woman. These experiences have taught me that my capacity for connection goes beyond heterosexuality. I am simply looking for a Dominant person. My Submission I am submissive in heart, mind, and soul. My greatest dream—the deepest need of my heart—is to find a Dominant partner. I know that, given my age, living situation, and appearance, I may not be at the top of many lists. But in my dreams, I have always seen myself as a "male wife" or housekeeper. I would even marry if it meant being with my Dominant. I realize this sounds strange, especially since I do not cross-dress and do not look like a "wife." I don't wish to change my gender. Instead, this is a vision of my ultimate submission: to be shaped and molded by a partner. I am a blank page with no experience, only deep desires and a vivid imagination. I am a sensible man and I don't want to get my hopes too high. There are many more attractive people here. But for the first time in many years, I have dared to speak up. I am ready to surrender myself completely into the right hands. I want to be owned, enslaved, and even "emasculated" in a psychological sense—to give my body, soul, and spirit to someone who will truly own me. I seek: Domination & Permanent Ownership Ultimate Power & Passivity Feminization (as a form of submission) Deep Feelings and Love I may live in Poland and I may be 68 (though I am told I look younger), but I know that if I don’t try now, I will regret it for the rest of my life.