AmbiguousBliss

Vanilla life

General

I'm a child of the 80's. Being big on retro computers, Electronic music, Hair Metal, Visual Kei, guitar virtuosos and "New Romantic" music & style. I write, do spirit work and sing. I am fascinated by puppets, Automata and dolls. Ancient cultures are a passion of mine, especially ancient Egypt and Rome.

My 4 legged pets are my life. I live with a beautiful Shar Pei, named Rory and two guinea pigs named George & Ringo.

"Vintage" make up and hair (specially 1920s, 40s) is a source of utter delight for Me and I collect red lipstick (currently have about 20 of them) However, I'm like a magpie for make up, all and any kind. My Style (girly) idols are Diana Dors, Jean Harlow and Ginger Rodgers.

I love the movies, but hate action, "rom com" or anything cookie cutter. It's my dream to write a screen play.

Movies: (In no order)

The Crying Game
Repo: The Genetic Opera!
Hedwig & The Angry Inch
Interview With A Vampire
Stargate
The Aristocats
BaCKBeAT
A Clockwork Orange
The Hunger
Electric Dreams
Labyrinth
Mary Poppins
Equilibrium
300
Breakfast on Pluto
Nell
Sarafina!
Dracula
Vampire Circus
Leon
V for Vendetta
If..
Dark City
The Crow
Immortal Beloved
Amadeus
Faranelli
The Dark Knight
Chasing Amy
An American In Paris
On The Town
Peter Pan - Not the cartoon!
Legend
Purple Rain
Paris When it Sizzles
The Karate Kid 1&2
Fame
Iron Man
Tron
Tron Legacy
still more..and always more..

TV:

Bones
House
TNA: Impact
Big Bang Theory
Casualty
Holby City
Top Gear
The Good Life
Jeeves & Wooster
The House Of Elliot
Poirot
All Creatures Great & Small
MASH

Music: (in order of Style/preference)

The Silver Beetles
The Beatles
The Rutles
John Lennon

Beethoven

The Quireboys
Poison
Extreme
Pretty Boy Floyd
Danger Danger
Warrant (RIP Janie Lane}
Tuff
Enuff'z Enuff
Apocalyptica
Disturbed

Steve Vai
Joe Satriani
Yngwie Malmsteen
Doro Pesch <3333
Colin James
Brian Wilson

Juka
Xover
Moi Dix Mois
D
Spiv States
Gackt
Puffy Amiyumi

Michael Jackson
Prince
Madonna
Shalamar
Janet Jackson
Five Star

Flock of Seagulls
Adam Ant
Ultravox
Visage
Howard Jones
Tesla Boy
Daft Punk
Kraftwerk

My kinky curiosities (An ever evolving list)

This list was originally part of My profile, but I decided it needed it's own journal. It will probably grow and change over time

Being a nanny

I could be 'Mary Poppins' for the right sub. Which means being a loving and strict nanny figure. To an adult who likes to be talked down to, in a soft tender way. Made to complete daily tasks, held, petted, comforted and even "breastfed" . I believe in being fun and helping you grow with pleasure, gentle control and the odd spank if you are a naughty boy. However, Dressing you in rubber panties, frills and nappies is abhorrent to Me. So I would not suit an adult baby.

Furries|Human Pets

Again, it comes down to wanting a lap pet. If you like to curl up, share tender sweet whispers, be treated like a prize adored pet and even trained with treats, as I would My real dog. Then message Me.

Blindfolds

I see these having an application when beginning voice submission. Blocking the vision would help a sub focus on My voice and relax. Also, make any pleasure rewards so much more intense and unexpected.

Sensory Toys

When used with blindfolds, toys such as: Velvet paddles, Vampire gloves, Ticklers and Pinwheels could be used to deliver sensation without pain. Something I find fascinating.

CFNM

A new term for dressing Your sub as you desire or keeping him undressed? Yes please... I know there is more to this (such as tea parties? Anyone care to illuminate Me?) but I LOVE that it has a name.

Polyfidelity

This interests me greatly and I'm thrilled that this distinction is becoming more commonplace in the Poly community. Polyfi is a closed relationship between three or more people, who often live together. No outside sexual contact is permitted. Everyone loves equally and it creates some wonderfully close intense bonds.

[Poem]Is it weakness for a Domme:

To admit she is unhappy?
To find She often feels lost within Herself?
To admit that only SHE can fix the above?
To gaze in the mirror, and not always like what glances back at Her?
To admit that only SHE can fix the above?
To wonder if what She seeks in a sub, is even realistic?
To find peace with Herself as a borderline BBW
To admit that only SHE can fix the above?
To wonder - Do pretty goth boys with long hair, even look at women like Her?
To occasionally long to have a cock. Rather than this sensitive, stubborn Cunt?

To other Dom/mes

If You're polite, pleasant, loving and supportive towards me, so will I be to You.

Being a Dom/me doesn't give You the right to belittle EVERYONE. Some of You would do well to remember -You don't own Me, nor do You have the right to bitch at Me or snicker at My plans/comments/writings/life experiences or anything else I chose to share here on CM

Too many Dom/mes are VILE to each other within the Online kinky community. For no valid reason other than to show off how "hardcore and straight talking" they are. It smacks of playground silliness and makes these Dom/mes appear as bratish as the subs they own, IMO.

 Of course, I value O/others thoughts, input, ideas and helpful criticism. The purpose of being here, is to learn and grow happily into my role as a Domina. I want CM to be my safe place to vent and explore, while hopefully helping others to do the same.

 I look forward to becoming a valued and active member here, and hope for some amazing insights, friendships and fun!

Thank you for reading