i'm not like the girls that you've known but i believe i'm worth coming home to.
No One can intimidate you without your permission.
Eleanor Roosevelt
so there.
sometimes people will tear you up, diss you, analyze and tell you that everything fails because of who you are. Just because they can't bear to look at who they really are. He sure was an asshole.
In this song, the leather is an analogy for a tough second skin to protect her.
sometimes you miss your mom. even when your life is well past your youth, you're a mom yourself, your life is busy, you're set in your ways. i can talk to her a couple times a week, everything is now, but every once in a while you sink back into a memory of who you both were when she was teaching you everything you know.
go go go go now out of the nest it's time go go go now circus girl without a safety net here here here now don't cry you raised your hand for the assignment tuck those ribbons under your helmet be a good soldier first my left foot then my right behind the other
bread crumbs lost in the snow.....
This new additional button on the sidebar (Recent Journals) is proving to be quite entertaining and enlightening. 99% of the posts are people unhappy with the other people that they find here. woman upset that the men are seemingly insincere and only here for a quicky whether it in the form of online via yahoo on webcam or even more bold they will invest a cup of coffee and discuss your sexual preferences and where (as they check their watch) you can go to enjoy a nice scene together so they can give you the release they are sure you came to collar me for.
The men on the other hand, are totally offended that most of these gals are not receptive to their approach and rather than fess up that their caveman mentality didn't work out, decide that the only possible reason the gals shut them down is because they are fake! lol, as if they behave so authentically.
Is anyone learning anything here?
Does every man on this site live by the euphemism "why buy the cow if you can get the milk for free?"
What am i looking for in Dom?
Everything.
:)
a Man that knows what He wants and sets out to get it. Tall, handsome, single. maybe a little younger.(this is not a requirement, just my mind thinking outloud) of course other factors are more important, particularly the strongest factor, being, when a person catches your eye, then captures your heart, all the small details that your mind imagined He would be, are usually far different than planned and reality is all that matters. Suddenly, what you thought you were looking for doesn't matter at all and what you see before you is exactly what you wanted.
Good sense of humor. The ability to make me laugh often, especially when i am worried, upset, or just feeling like i am not good enough to breathe. Ability to Lead. Good moral foundation. Enjoys His work, manages money well. Wisdom and insight to fully comprehend His responsibility for another life. The ability to listen, with insight to unlock my secrets and remember those secrets years down the road. The ability to reveal things inside Himself, that he may not even share with his friends. A dirty mind, but surprised, a little taken back, and finds it a turn on at how dirty mine is :) Experience in Domination and well read on the subject. Not just in a 'scene', In life.
Romantic. Sensitive. Dedicated. Determined. Inner Strength that may come from a higher power. Secure in all aspects of who He is. Secure in who i am to Him and able to relay that to me.
Even if only expressed as a 'knowing look', when our eyes meet from across the room. A sincere interest and developed ability in knowing me better than i know myself, even if His motivations are, at times, self serving.
Honest. Trustworthy. Compassionate Humble if need be. Open and able to communicate His needs. Open and having the desire to know and fulfill all of my needs. In need of a soul mate. Aware of how precious she is once found. Willing to implement the patience needed to progress slowly so as not to miss important details along the way. SomeOne who understands that although He may not be all these things to others, He will be seen through my eyes as being all of this and more ,and rely on this unfaltering devotion from me.
Someone who has read all of this and is thinking, "That sounds like Me."
sincerely, åmbient§park
Top 10 reasons You may not be the Dom for me.
10. Before asking What I do for a living, what my life consists of, or what I do to pass the time when not here at collar me, You open correspondence with ?What are you in to?? ?What are your limits???Do you have nude photos?? or ?Hi my name is Al. Do you have yahoo? It?s just easier for me.? If this venue is too hard for you, go find subbies on yahoo.
9. You refuse to share a photo. Come on. This is the Internet. Yes, You could send me a picture of your handsome cousin if You?re really that insecure, but keep in mind, I am heading toward an in person meeting within a reasonable amount of time. If what you are looking for is an email buddy or online romance, don?t tell me you are looking for the same thing I am looking for, I will eventually require a phone number as well as other detailed information that normal people entering a new friendship share with one another. This all falls under honesty. So telling me after our third meeting for coffee, that you don?t feel comfy telling me where you live or what you do for a living, is as we all know, telling me in secret code, that you are married and scared shitless of getting caught. Please, there is nothing Domly about wimps. Grow a spine and let your mind to tell your fingers to type the truth about who You are. I may not pursue a relationship beyond friendship with a married man, but the alternative is having me find out the truth after you have toyed with my affections, in which case I will have my 2 brothers (one is a biker and the other a police investigator) track your ISP and make it their business to ?toy? with You.
I am kidding, but it makes you think twice doesn?t it? J
8. You feel compelled to criticize my occasionally over cautious nature. Excuse me, I am submissive by nature, not stupid. I am 5?3? 175 pounds, most men are almost a foot taller and about 50 pounds heavier. Try to understand that I am concerned about protecting myself while I am trying to meet someone that will take on that responsibility. Going out to meet a stranger from the Internet for coffee and ending up in the trunk of a car is not in my plan.
Your prodding me to lighten up, is only telling me that you really wish I would be naïve and trust you too easily, which makes your plan to get me your car to suck you off all the more obvious.
7. We have been emailing for a week and still have nothing to say. (self explanatory)
6. You come Online for 10 minutes a day (before you leave for work at approximately 5:00 a.m), email a one liner or two and disappear until 5 am the next day. This pattern goes on daily, You have 10 minutes to devote to your email while you are simultaneously putting your pants on and tying your shoes, before flying out the door to work for the day. I can have a more intimate relationship with the guy at Speedway, telling him I would like 20 bucks worth of gas on pump #3.
5. You wish to discuss every single detail of my existence in order to surmise whether or not I am the appropriate submissive for you. Over kill is just that. We email, we find some similarities, we conclude that we might get along, we meet in person to find out. This is a fairly easy process. Don't over complicate the whole thing.
4. You only wish to discuss BDSM and nothing else. If you really sleep with your flogger for security, put on your cute lil black leather Dom vest and wear it to work everyday, can?t wait to tell your coworkers about the neat spreader bars you looking at on eBay or feel compelled to strike up a conversation about slave training techniques with your mail lady?.. You are more than likely making an ass of yourself with more people than just myself.
3. You email me, expressing you find me fascinating, yet your profile states that you are looking for a beautiful, young, slim, pain slut with no limits that you expected to move to your farm and live in a cage wearing only the clothes of your choosing, if any, while waiting to be used at Your leisure. This is a dead give away that You either cannot read, or simply could care less what my profile says about me.
2. You are writing me because I seem to be the girl of your dreams and You want to be my Master, yet you live hundreds or even thousands of miles away, and You do not own a private jet for our courtship visits. So sad.
1. Your screen name covers a region or worse, an entire State. I have found that men choosing a screen name with SE or SW (Michigan or any other metropolitan area) chose their screen name as an advertisement that they are available to ?service? that entire area. Call me a square, but I prefer someone who is not planning on meeting every female within a 50 mile radius, just to see if their kinks match up, or finding the vulnerable ones, to pass the time, using, while waiting for that ?hot babe of their dreams? to magically fall into their life. On both counts, it ain?t gonna happen. Move along lil? doggie.
a note of thanks to those who are honest here. They seem to make the best friends and offer seemingly a better chance of finding a truely available Dom with honest intentions through the possibilities of networking.
i would rather be friends with a Dom/Master that may not be my cup of tea personal but offer no hidden agenda, or present themselves as a Wolf in sheeps clothing just to satisfy their itch of meeting, and finding a way to work the locals. We may not be what we seek as our hearts desire, but for those of You who are honest enough to say so and continue to persue a friendship, despite knowing i would never submit to you. i tip my hat to You. There are many good people in this local community. If you take the time to speak to eachother as a person and a friend first. Otherwise you just come off as another small minded fool overly concerned with his labido, looking for an easy lay.
Be good to people. Life is short. å§
my horoscope, how could you pass this up?
CANCER - The Beauty MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer's Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative Person, most are artists and insane, respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An Ultimate Freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most Cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare. Spontaneous. Not a Fighter, But will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to!
Fall Down - Jennifer Knapp
judge me not ye saints for my history may be tainted but i'm sober enough to know blood when i see it
i've borne my share of stones most of them easily thrown
but who's to deny your watershed side leading me home?
what am i supposed to do about it now? past regrets and long laments they find me somehow o, what am i supposed to do about it now? what am i to do but fall down?
to spy from far away may seem that i'm one to betray
but o, how i try the spirit to guide the promise you made
hold me up never let me go love me when i am broken and speak to me
A Little More - Jennifer Knapp
Turn Your eyes from on this way
i have proved to live a dastardly day
i hid my face from the saints and the angels
Who sing of Your glory
What You had in mind
Through my weakness shines
Show me grace
A little more than i can give
A little more than i deserve
Unearth this holiness i can't earn
It's a little more than i can give
A little more than i deserve
For all the sin that lives in me
It took a nail to set me free, still,
What i do i don't want to do
and so goes the story
What You had in mind
What we seek we'll find
Shine, show me grace
With all this motivation i still find a hesitation
Deep in my soul
Despite all my demanding i still find You understanding
Show me grace
Show me grace i know It's a little more than i can give More than i deserve.
