Wow that was something else...
I have been through what is classed as sub frenzy..and thought the feelings could not get better..
I was wrong...My journey as a submissive started a while back..once I had found someone who
would be willing to help me..on this journey to understand what I was going through..
IT is AWSOME.....do we all go through this letting the defences down..
wow!!!!
It is hard to understand that I am learning to become the submissive that I am..I use to think
been a submissive was something not quiet..nice or right...something that would leave a bad taste on my tongue..after I had said it...
But what I am going through at the moment is wonderful..full of emotions which were unknown to me..full of feelings I never knew existed..
Learning to let go to become complete...what I am feeling is something so beautiful..I do not think I can do it justice here with just words.
To try to explain this, if you have never been through it yourself..
I feel as if I would do most things for my friend because she makes me feel this way..I truely believe I was so very very lucky..the day I met her..
It is at times thoughly confusing also mind blowing..wonderful wonderful wonderful..
confusing that I can feel this way about someone..
Confusing because I feel I am getting closer everyday..to giving myself completely..
I now understand how a sub can give him/her self..to someone like this.
how you could hang on every word...how it brings joy into your life a smile on your face, if you are told I am proud of you...
the feelings are so overwhelming..I miss her when she is not there..and enjoy her company so much that it is sometimes painful and very emotional.
I am getting closer to losing myself to her....and to be honest I do not care...She is my dearest friend
she is the person who has helped me..to feel in this way..
I will always be grateful to her no matter where our paths go..I can never forget her..because she was the first person who invested enough time to get to know me and to accept me..
with her I feel special..and very happy..and sad when I do something she does not like..or been called pet..makes me special..inside.
It is just to difficult to explain..to someone who has not been through what I am going through at this present moment in time....i just wish everyone could experience this..really...
Maybe there are submissives out there who will understand.this...and can understand what I am going through..
untill then...be safe.