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Male Submissive, 48, oklahoma city, Oklahoma
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Female Submissive, 32, WPB, Florida
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Dominant Couple, 41, The Colony, Texas
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About alwyssub
I think I am a very strong woman but also can be very soft at times. I am a very sexual person by nature and crave sex and crave to be owned,used,dominated,controlled,and most of all loved.I guess Im looking and trying to find it all the whole package.I would love to find someone with much experience in this life who has patience but knows when to push my limits right over the edge.I am a very honest and caring person and would expect the same from you.If you think that is you please lets talk...I am adding this since I notice men don't seem to want to read my journal entries lol....I am looking for and want and like and prefer Older men much older I will talk to men 40 and above but like much older.Men in there 50's are my first choice but like I said I will read emails from younger. |
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On my way to bed now for a few hours...I saw something tonight that I had to disagree with. This lady who claimed to be so smart so many degrees (in what who knows) and she said ALL women dislike porn! Ummm,well that just isn't so. She said those who say they do like it are only trying to fit in or please a man. I totally disagree with her and those like her plus her ideas that porn degrades women I don't agree with either.I think women who get into porn do it for all different reasons sure and some decide its not for them but women in the industry make more money and get to choose who they will work with and generally can do quite well if they keep a good head on their shoulders.I also am a woman who loves porn and anything having to do with porn.And I assure that woman that is has nothing to do with any man I've met before. I love looking through magazies and the dirtier and kinkier the better in my opinion.And yes I do read the articles too!! (lol) I love watching porn and as with mags the hotter and kinkier the better!! I cant seem to get very far into any one movie though I just have no idea why...(lol) I seem to loose all concentration way to fast! And toys,toys,and more toys bring them on...I love toys!!! I think I will start my own website lori's toys and see how many toys I can get sent to me in one yr?? (kidding) But sounds nice...I did have an amazing collection tons of money but my soon to be ex decided to walk out the door and hide them god knows where and I don't think I will go into court to fight for my toys (lol)....So I will be left with the few that I had stored in my drawers that he didnt think to look for. I think I will miss those toys more than him!! But back to my original topic I think this woman was wrong I think some women do enjoy porn just as much as any man does.I don't think all women do but I don't think all men like porn either.I have known men who thought it was just not very interesting then others that couldn't get enough...I don't care as long as he lets me enjoy my porn!! (lol) Off to sleep maybe to dream of my old toys I once loved so dear! |
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It rained once again here for several hours.But they said tonight we are done with the bad weather for a while now.Guess we will see. I have to say I have gotten some great emails from some great guys lately. Must be a run on good men...(lol) I am currently talking to two men on and off that have definately peeked more than just my curiosity!!!...Let's just say I am enjoying my time talking with others on here and am very glad I found this site!...I then get this rediculous and rude email last night. All it said is why would anyone take the time to read such rediculous crap you write? My instincts were to strike back but knew not to allow someone to get to me like that.I chose to simply delete the email.He was eleven yrs. older than me you would think he would be a little bit more mature to write such a thing to someone but I guess some people have NO respect or were not raised like I was. If I see something or read something I dont like I choose to move on not take the extra minutes of my day to tell them.Guess thats just me! I am not pulling anyone's arm and leg to read anything I write and I would not hold it against someone if they chose to NOT read my journal. I will however if they don't read my profile at least. I am NOT writing crap as he called it to get others to like me. I am doing it more so for me. I find writing and sharing even helps me move forward and let go of the past.I know it has helped me and to know that someone did take the time to read some of it or all of it makes me feel good.I would think that a guy on here real and truly looking to meet someone would be happy to see a woman being so open and raw on here taking the time to write so much so often.I would think it would make them feel that I am for real.I guess he was looking for the xrated journals...(lol) Off to bed for me for about two good hours before I am up and hoping I get through another day on so little sleep. |
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Well gotta admit that the last several days haven't been to great! We have been torn up with storms lately. Unbelievable amounts of rain and one storm pounding us after another. I love bad weather but not when it gets to this point. I hate seeing on the t.v all the people having to go by boat leave their homes and at times pets and almost all of their belongings to stay at local shelters set up around town now. I am lucky where I live I don't have to worry about the actual flooding but it still effects me.My parents have been staying in a hotel for the last two days so that my mom can make sure to get to work because where they live is completely flooded but they are so far lucky in that the house is still ok no water getting in as of yet but they are holding their breath gotta admitt I am too for them! Only problem we have had to deal with is loosing electricity on and off for days now which I hate!!! I can deal with candles but don't take my a.c (lol) I love a cold house so when I am sitting in silence and a humid home I tend to get rather grouchy and moody really fast...I think It would help to have someone maybe to get my mind off of it all but NOOOOOOO that is to much to ask for...(lol) I have to also say I am very dissapointed on this site lately.I am still getting lots of mail and enjoying opening all of them well most of them I guess I should say.But I am getting almost all guys that are just not taking the time to read any of my profile.I am not asking you read it all thats just a plus but please take the time to read it. I am not looking for a couple. I am not looking for a Domme. I am not looking for a guy my age or younger.I am not wanting to be taken, have my head shaved and put into a cage and not let out but to be used and only when he wants to use me.Ummmm No not for me...I respect those that are into that and like that but I want to sleep in a bed with you and be held and loved.Now when Im bad well thats a different story...(lol) But you would NOT believe some of the things men tell me in emails.Some are just more than a little abusive.I am still waiting for that one email,that one guy that just jumps out at me.I have met some great guys on here don't get me wrong but it seems as things start to progress I see little changes I am not ok with. I am refusing to give up just yet.I believe anything is possible. |
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First of all I would like to thank everyone who sent me emails on great advice and just wishing me get well emails concerning my back. I am much better still some pain but way better now.I took the advice of one of the emails I received and it did help! I like that men take the time to write give some advice and expect nothing in return.I knew there were some really good guys on here!! (lol) Only problem now is I have had an on going migraine for two straight days now.Something I have had to deal with most all my life.Not fun! I seem to have these headaches the most when I am feeling overwhelmed and stressed and now I guess fits that well.Plus with all of our bad weather we have had lately it blows all the bad stuff in causing my allergies and sinues to act up which causes me headaches too.I dont really know which is worse the back pain I had or now the migraine.Because those of you that have to deal with migraines know just how bad they can get.Sometimes they can keep you from even getting out of the bed,turning on lights or even hearing someone talk the sound of voices hurt. I am lucky I dont get them that bad very often...I went tonight with a male friend who seems to think now that I am sort of single or becoming single I will want to jump in bed with every Tom Dick and Harry...NOT! I can control my sexual urges though its hard at times (lol) I still do!! I feel angered at times that he a good friend feels almost that he can try to take advantage of me like I am lost and needing someone to lean on but instead of talking he wants well you know what he wants...But I did get to go to Chillis another great restaraunt I love to go to! Gotta love the faghita trio yummy...Has anyone else had this?? If not you are really missing out!!!(lol) Night to all who follow my journal! |
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Let me get something out of the way first before I chit chat with myself here in my journal.(lol) I have gotten numerous emails lately since sharing my pain and confusion and anger due to the loss of my grandma and upcoming divorce.I wanted to explain something.Many are writing me saying or asking me it seems I am not over my ex and crying over it dwelling on it.No.I didnt mean for it to come off like that.What I meant was Yes Im sad and upset and even angry with myself for one staying so long feeling like I wasted at least four yrs of my life.I wish I had moved on long ago.I am sad and upset yes but not over loosing him, really just starting over and moving on.I think we all get used to a certain routine and its a safe feeling for us we get used to having that certain someone there to talk to and know your not alone.I now feel I am alone and I feel my whole life is about to be uprooted and yes I feel for the better but at the same time I am scared of change and not knowing what to expect in my future.I am told its normal and with time wont feel these unsure feelings anymore but anyway I just wanted to make sure everyone got this and understood it.I am not sad over him.I am very much over him and very ready to not be with him in a relationship anymore.I have known this and felt this for many yrs.I just finally woke up and decided its now or never.Now on to better things!(lol) I am still hurting but much better tonight compared to several days ago thats for sure! I even road with my parents who called to ask me to go out to dinner with them.I got all ready took extra time to look good tonight and go to get in the car when they came over to pick me up and it starts raining and I dont mean just raining I mean skies opening up blackened skies and storms all over.It is still bad weather here and expected to be over the next two days or so and we are still dealing with the floods here.When it rains in the south it rains! Never anything in beteen we get to much or none at all!!! I have to say I love bad weather and love the sound of rain,thunder,and lightning but hate flooding and the many hurricanes and tornadoes we get...So even though I had to get wet and look like an idiot by the time we got to the pizza place I still enjoyed the company and glad to get out tonight...Well hope everyone has a great week...I am off to play an online adult game I like playing with others online!! Ill share some more tomorrow. |
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Did everyone miss me?? lol I havent been around much the last day or so due to a pinched nerve or what I think is a pinched nerve in my back and in beteen my shoulder blades.I am hurting still so bad this morning going on four days now and its really starting to irritate me.I feel like I have to lay down and even that doesnt make it stop hurting just feels better and doesnt make me see stars at least.Im all for pain but this is just not cutting it for me!! lol....I have gotten so many emails and do get back to everyone that I am interested in and see that you have read my profile.If I can tell you have taken the time to read that I will most likely get back to you if I can tell you have taken the time to read my journal then that is a bonus and you get my attention first.That does not mean just the last entry lol...I am overwhelmed with how many emails I get here each day but I am liking the attention so keep it coming!!! I am going to look around some then get some sleep before its time to get up again!Night |
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Another bad day for me.It seems almost that life is passing by so fast at times and I want to yell for it to please slow down.I really thought this year was going to be so much better for me even possibly the greatest yet.Maybe I thought this way because 2006 was so horrible for me all that could go wrong did go wrong.All the bad and heartbreaking things last year all seem to blur into one another.Dates and times and details even.I would never want to relive 2006.So many to even discuss some I dont even want to share but two that will ever be with me will be the death and loss of my grandma on halloween night.She was my best friend and so much more she was more of a mother than the one I have.I loved her with all my heart and soul and I lost her suddenly and unexpectedly due to hosptial negligance.Something You can never quite get out of your head what if you had done this been there not left her saw the signs.So many questions go through my head all the time even months later.Will this pain ever get better I know people tell me with time it will but when? I dont feel in the least less angry and sad.The second loss and most upsetting thing for me is the upcoming divorce.14 yrs I was with this man.I did love him but never seemed to click my mistake in so many ways.Staying with him for so long even marrying him I suppose.Nothing in common.No common interests much less he was more than a little vanilla.I needed so much more craved so much more he just didnt get it couldnt get it will never get it.Doenst mean I dont love him in my own way and I do wish him hapiness someday.Even though I know right now he wishes I would get run over by a large truck lol...I know life can be sad and even cruel at times but for me I want now some fun I want some good times some luck for once.The year is still not up I hope and pray that I can still continue to grow stronger and healthier with my mindset and meet someone who just takes my breath away.Im not looking for perfection just happiness!!! |
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Can't say I am having a good day or good evening and now it's after 4 am and Im still not happy...Have you ever just felt overwhelmingly sad and angry all in one.It's like your angry because your so sad.I guess everyone has these days but I don't like being sad and not enjoying life ya know? I feel the older I get the more I know what I want and need and yet I just cant seem to find it.I know happiness is out there I know someone I can share my life with and give myself over to is just around the corner hell Im willing to look on every corner if that helps...(lol) I refuse to give up on my journey not if it takes forever lol...It didn't help I got eleven emails today and all eleven were two or three words and I could tell some if not all didnt even read the profile...Guys it gives it away when you say things like I would love for you to punish me well duh I need YOU to punish me lol and when you say I love older women and your 55 and Im 30 DUH....I guess my daily little rant is over for now lol I feel some better...NOT!!! |
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What a day...Another day with thunderstorms and flooding all around me. Going on one week or so that we have had rains coming down non stop it seems..Totally ruined all holiday plans! I did however go out tonight to Fridays,you know TGIF the restaraunt...Yummy lol It was delicious and then went out for a little shopping in the rain then back home to get some things done around the house before taking a short nap then off to shower.Not to much of a productive day I guess you could say but not a total waste.Now its closing in on 4 am and I am looking through profiles and journals just for fun then off to bed. |
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I am on my way out the door and had some time to spare so I checked my email here at CM I see I have four emails from others that did not read my profile.I am making a quick note on here before I leave for the day.I am looking for MEN not women,not couples,and no men who are more into switching roles.NO,Nope,not happening with me...I love women and nothing wrong with couples either but not what I am here looking for.I am looking for OLDER men who are dominant not just in a bedroom just naturally who they are.So please if you are not this keep on looking you too will find who you are looking for! I will write back to couples only and only if you grab my attention but I will no longer respond to women on here.Sorry...Also I check how long you have been on CM I wont write to anyone who has been here for a week or two.I just have my reasons.So all you older guys I'm waiting on ya!!! |
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Well I have missed several days of putting down my thoughts in this journal...Its now either very late or very early one of the two or maybe both lol six am wow I need to sleep before I have to start my day but who needs more than two or three hours of sleep??lol...Weather here has been horrible...Heavy rains,storms one after another it seems for days and days now, and still dealing with the bad weather but now we have flooding all over the city which is a pain in the ass for all!! Its officially the fourth of july I'm sure all fun things will be cancelled here due to the weather but just as well hate going with friends truthfully to any of these things would much rather be with a man not just any man but the one I picture in my head to sweep me off my feet and give me all I need not material things but so much more...I know someday in my heart this will happen I am miss positive this morning lol...I just love men even the bad irratating things about them lol...I got a very rude email tonight from some guy 22 yrs old telling me he has now sent me more than three emails and got no response so tonight he got rude with me...Look I am a pretty honest person I at least try to be 99% of the time I guess at times I try to not hurt others feelings so I tell a little white lie but I do try to be upfront and honest and I have tried to get back to most who do write me but if you send me as Ive said one or two lines in your email you did NOT read my profile so why should I take the time to read yours or answer you back why?...If you write me and your rude or say lets have sex call me why should I even respond to that? Say sure meet me at motel 6 whats your name by the way?? NO NO NO...I respect all kinks and having one night stands with strangers also but it doesnt mean I have to like it...I am going to say here now: I prefer men who are very dominant just comes natural for them but they also like to do very vanilla things....I prefer a man who is older much older than me I prefer men starting in there 40's and anything older than that is just a bonus for me lol...What can I say Im a sucker for older men???(lol) Well gotta go get a few hours of sleep in before I gotta drag myself back out of the bed... |
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Well Its well after 5:00 am here now and Im sitting awake like a dumbass lol...I haven't written in my journal in many days now sort of forgot lol...I do come onto CM every night at some point at least to check emails gotta to see whos writing me,whos checking me out and whos worth getting to know!!!! I see so many on here talking about fakes and liars on this site and even though I do agree to some point that yes there are I'm sure lots of liars on here that goes with any site or even with someone you meet while taking a walk so its no different.And I have been on so many different sites and I have to say so far I have had better luck with this one just meaning that the men seem to be somewhat more honest and upfront and at least take the time to write me an intelligent email. I get so many especially lately saying wanna talk? Or call me heres my number or IM me heres my name on yahoo or whatever damn thing you have stop it right now lol...It's a waste of your time and fingers dont bother me please with that.If you really want to talk to me and get to know me more please READ my profile so you can see what I am into and PLEASE take some time to write me more than two lines Im not saying the first email should be a small book but come on people show me you chose me to email not sent the same email to 25 chosen girls each night...I feel like a lot of men do that on these sites they have a certain email they sat down wrote and then each night send that email out to a certain amount of women say did a search of all women sub living in Tx under 35 you know?? I hate that!!! Its really obvious when I get an email (which I have) saying love your pic on your profile you are so pretty lets get to know one another more.Well ummmm no because you didnt even bother to notice I have NO pic!!!! lol Anyway I guess Im rambling now Im tired and well getting sleepy too now and need to go night night!!!!Talk with you guys tomorrow... |
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Im back...Close to four am need to sleep but why waste my life away sleeping I was going to say in bed but I could live with that one lol...I am getting overwhelmed and flooded with emails lately and while I have to say I am enjoying I will not reply to all.I know some will say its polite if you simply just send a no or no thank you but I wont even give you that much if you are rude or plain dumb in your email to me...For the most part all the emails I have gotten have been very down to earth and friendly and just get to know emails and I like that but I am telling you I am not going to respond to rude comments and if you send me your # in your first email and say call me I can make you cum so hard or some stupid thing I am going to do nothing more than delete it .I know there are probably a thousand women who would love to call you and cum with you without even any initial contact but I am not wanting that in my life anymore been there done that got it all out of my system...I am not saying however I dont still like to talk to men online and phone as time goes on and whatever happens happens ya know?? lol but do not tell me to call you the first night please please please...I think I met a great guy I have fun I talk then bam he throws up that number and says lets talk on the phone Im so hard now ewwwwww no no no no...stop that lol not that Im not all for hard ones and hearing a man cum but not the same night i found out your name im looking for a serious relationship and serious friendships and if you start out with that what do you have to move on to?? I like taking things slow and looking forward to the next step in getting to know someone and that means sexual stuff too...so if you are wanting a girl to talk to on the phone just to cum and share fantasies with please keep moving I am NOT the girl for you.... |
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Hey guys...did ya miss me?? (lol) kidding!!! Journaling can be addicting is that even a word?? lol...I was looking around on message boards on CM and flipping around through television tonight and came across Atlantic city hookers on the point or something like that..Gotta love that show lol...I think my favorite part is one of the girls (Hookers) says It aint easy being a ho lol...And boy does she mean that!!! And I believe her...lol...See how bored I am discussing television shows now and sort of talking to myself because I dont know if anyone will ever even read any of these journal entries...But if you do read them and email me you will get brownie points with me thats for sure!!!!! lol...Night for now... |
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Hello to anyone who stops by to check out my profile. Again its after four am and I am actually very tired thinking about going to lay down and sleep some!! After all I am lonely and have no one to play with...I had an encounter with a very rude man today you know the types think they already own you. Two minutes into the conversation they are already telling you to say yes sir and no sir and well you get the picture. I am sure some women find this fun but to me thats for online play nothing more.I dont know you so please dont tell me to obey you after a few emails or few words...Ok? Ok...(lol) I think Im too tired to make sense tonight but good news is I have had some good conversations with some too!!! Makes me believe I will find that "one"!!!! |
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Here I sit again in the middle of the night...I am guessing I have a touch of insomnia?? But I love the night so calm and so peaceful.Just wish I had someone here to help pass the time..Wouldn't that be nice??(lol) What a fun night I have had so far: fed my kitties and watched a horror movie (love the scrary movies) lol and well now I am on CM looking around...Only two days I have been on here and already met some great guys and even some females even though I have been warned most females arent really girls...lol I guess that sucks for the men on here...I guess I am being somewhat sarcastic I my night has been anything but fun but cant complain about this site thus far I am enjoying the emails and people on here!!!Keep em coming! |
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Here I sit a little after four a.m and wonder will I ever find that one that can make me smile,laugh and excite me and keep me in line? Its now been 24 hours since finding this site and I have had so many emails in fact so many its overwhelming. But I am enjoying the responses.Most obviously don't even bother to read my profile and find what I am looking for that I am learning quickly.I guess thats a little frustrating but its in no way making me want to give up. I know someday I will find someone that is looking for me!!!I will write some more tomorrow off to shower!!! |
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