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I'm a submissive?mother.
I'm looking for good friends, nothing more.
I'm focusing on getting my life in order right now.??The most important thing is that my sons will always come first.
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I am having serious misgivings about living here. I miss my family, I miss my friends, and I miss the lifestyle.
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I will be moving in one week. I am moving in with my BF. NC here I come. I hope this works out.
I worry that it may not be enough for me. A painslut with a "vanilla" man.
Still, my inner voice says "Give it an honest effort." So that's what I'm going to do. |
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There is a face that follows me wherever I go. A beautiful crooked smile that could only be mischievous. I know this face as though I had memorized every inch of it in painful detail in another life, and yet I don't know how I could possibly know this face so well. I saw him, here, and was instantly inthralled. Not only by his eloquent words, but by a face I have known in my dreams. A face so hauntingly familiar. I am tormented by the knowledge that I know that face, and yet I have no recollection of having seen it before. I tried to stay away, but could not. I am ensorcelled. |
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Do I really want the impossible? Is it so hard to achieve something so simple? I just want someone who wants a longterm monogomous relationship, possibly marriage at some point, possibly more kids in the future, and I want that someone to also want to tie me up and beat me senseless. It is imperative that He also respect my limits. Is that so much to ask? |
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A lot of changes yet again. I really should check back here more often.
I left my spouse. So technically I am single now.
I had my baby, and he's amazing.
I am still in a relationship of sorts with the baby's father, but he doesn't really want a relationship. He refers to us as "lovers." That is fine for now. I just have to wonder if he sees us ever having a future together. I'd like to hope so, but at this point, I'd rather not hold my breath. |
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It's been a while since I've updated on here. I feel like my whole world is changing around me, and part of me fears it will collapse.
I am pregnant. This has caused some problems. I'm doing the best I can.
I don't know if I'm going to go to school next semester or not. A kid is a lot of work, and expensive.
I'm a lot more insecure lately. Unfortunately, this only serves to annoy the people around me. That, in turn, makes me want to disappear. |
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Work vs. School.
I am finding the more overtime I have at work, and the harder the day I have at work, the worse I do in school. I am utterly behind in one class, and struggling in the other. I have missed classes simply from beng too tired to go. This poses a major problem. I can do the best I can and survive for now, but what about fall when I transfer to a 4 year college? I plan on attending full time then, and taking my classes more seriously than I already do. I will need the money from work, but, I don't know if I can handle both. I'm tired of the full tme job while in school thing, but I don't know how to fix it. Money, alas, does not grow on trees, and us poor college students have just as many bills as the rest of the world, sometimes more.
I guess I'm just getting my thoughts together and out there on the subject. Advice from anyone who has been there would be appreciated. Unfortunately, finding a job with more pay and fewer hours is not an option.
Too bad I can't get a free ride in college. The grades are there, but,that is never enough. I'm a big girl, and I've paid my own way so far. Just need to figure out how to not burn out. I don't like it when my grades suffer from my own weakness. |
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I seem to be making a few friends Yay :)
I should friend Sir on here. I know he has a profile.
I need to take new pictures. The ones I have are almost a year old. Not that I really look different, but it would still be nice. |
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I think I may be an "English Snob." For some reason, it really irritates me when someone says they are a "dominate" or that they have a "dominate". You do not have a dominate, you are not dominate...the word is Dominant. A dominant is one who dominates. Dominate is a verb, dominant is a noun.
Ok, now I'm done being bitchy, really :D
I don't know why that bothers me so much, but it does. |
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My first journal entry. I'm a bit nervous. I'm usually more shy than this. Perhaps being with Sir has helped me feel more confident?
I've had a really good couple of days which has me feeling more confident too.
I hope to meet some friends on here who understand my unique relationship dynamic. I am finding it harder and harder to maintain vanilla friendships and have just started smiling and saying everything is fine and not discussing my personal life at all. I'm sick of the judgemental attitude. |
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| Age: 26 |
| Los angeles,
California |
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