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Many of my friends have always commented on my resilience. So this entry is a good one and does NOT warrent being on the same page as the other trash.

I had a real date because I am dating I never put it out there that I was or was'nt. But as previously stated in the prior entry, no one called me with an offer of exclusivity in this situatuion! There is no one that I am serious with but again by definition of dating a form of courtship consisting of social activities done by two persons with the aim of each assessing the other's suitability as a partner in an intimate relationship. That is what I may be starting to do.

There are 2 contenders a lovely young man on here that I am hoping to meet. We have not touched based but I am looking forward to meeting him  when I go to the http://chi.exxxoticaexpo.com/ in chicago in July! So I am looking forward to that. Then there is the following gentleman.

You know what I find amazing is that the older I get the harder it is to find "men" using that word so very loosely that are around my age that know what they want. The young guys are making you all look bad! I must say that I am a very much an equal oppertunity lover and my preferences are mixed men or Italians, Greeks, French or real EUROPEANS FROM EUROPE OF ANY RACE and usually my Jewish men love me go figure. Before you jump down my throat (obvious group that I left out) just know that historically I just get along with these groups better. SORRY AND ITS MY CHOICE.

I had an amazing date this weekend with a realllllll gentleman. I met him for the 1st time Sat after consistant texting and some telephone calls. We both seemed impressed lol. Hes young but boy is he together Harvard grad, officer in the military, very accomplished for such a young age. Beautifulllllll car, yes car, LUXURY CAR that matches mine! European car, not a pick up truck! He has class and manners well beyond his years. HE wanted to make a good impression, He wanted to meet me. But he was very unassuming and laid back as I am. No pretense hot jeans and his obiligatory Harvard T shirt. Me with my sexy jean shorts, tank and heels! His smile was blinding, perfect white teeth, and you could swim in his big baby blues! We went to his place first, because he wanted to show me where he lived. Then we grabbed a couple of smoothies then guess what we, went for a walk around a park.  WHO DOES THAT ANYMORE!?! Did I say perfect first date? This is the kind of MAN that actually thinks about how I see him and wants to make a nice impression. So after our walk. We then went for Sushi and later a movie. XMEN WAS GOOD FOLKS! At the end of our day he made mention that with a first date that maybe we shouldnt spend the night together. So as wet as I may have been we parted ways and ended an amazing first date! He was beat so I never called or textd to say I got home ok. But first thing this morning we texted. Im ok, made it home, and i am tired lol.

Now I bet you all think he's all vanilla. Well here's the deal. He has the STRONGEST ASS FETISH EVERRRRR and even gets into something I am not really into but would play his game if he were mine. LOL. And dare I say it, hes even dom if I had to classify it. And trust me he doesnt act like it. YOUNG AND DOM. Which is a flat out no no for me.  But as I explained to him on our walk that in order for me to submit to a young boy I have to respect you. I could see myself submitting to him (POSSIBILY) because of his entire persona. He's more mature an knows what he wants and could easilyyyyyy fit into my life with no issues. He's obviously been very well raised and sees no color. NICE JOB mom and dad!

OK so folks actually READ MY JOURNAL. EVEN THOSE THAT I AM WRITING ABOUT. AND TO SAY THEY ARE SORRY AND TO COMMENT on how I must really hate being here! Well duh WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WEE!

NOW THAT IS RICH. To be honest and clear, I only wrote about one person. So other asshole here's your 15mins.

This idiot approached me and we talked for a while until he determined that there was no way his bigoted parents would not accept me. So now time has passed and he mans up with a call to me. Once bitten twice shy, but I really want to belive in people that they grow and learn. So HE decides he wants to be happy regardless of what his parents think. (keep in mind this is a 40+ yo man, I determined that he must be fully cut out off or out of the will if he marries black), Anywho, HE wants to get with me, you know start a relationship,  HE put the call in to me. Well as he is learning me all over again I was told to "not come on too strong" and mind you I am JUST BEING ME. I cannot help if, my personality is strong, dont be so fucking weak. I AM LOVING, I WANT AND DESERVE A LOVING RELATIONSHIP with someone that can handle it. I am an asset to any man that I am with. I am domesticated, I cook, clean, love fucking and would fully support you from running your practice daily to maintaining the home when you are on the road and with a twist of kink. I enjoy getting to know someone talking to them being around them, BEING CONSISTANT IS MANDATORY ESPECIALLY IF WE DONT LIVE IN THE SAME CITY. (AND WE ALL KNOW THEY WILL NOT BE LIVING IN NC!) HOW IN THE HELL DO U EXPECT THE RELATIONSHIP TO GROW. Unless you know from the start that you are playing games. BUT YOU CAN TELL ME hell,  I may want to play your game but would appreciate the honesty more without you wasting my time.

AHHHH DATING AROUND. Ok ladies and gents when you date around you are looking for 1 person to date exclusively. OR looking to catch an STD your choice. If you call me with the intention of wanting to be with me. Then please believe I EXPECT YOU TO WANT TO BE WITH ME. I EXPECT YOU TO NOT WANT TO DATE OTHERS, YOU FUCKING CALLED ME. I DID NOT CALL YOU! But to you, I am coming on too strong for EXPECTING THIS. You live in another state I NEVER STOOD A CHANCE while you have the chance to meet others, and "date around", and see them daily and establish a bond with someone OTHER THAN ME. And for such an educated man how do you not get this? What a fucking joke.

Ok get this so you find yourself attracted to me and I ACTUALLY think I like you. I decide to meet you. I EVEN DRIVE TO YOU! (ok enroute to someone where else) Its called killing 2 birds with one stone people, or multi tasking, dont judge me lol. So I get all dolled up to meet you and you have a business emergency. Thats fine always make that money is my moto! So we agree to meet on my way back home from my holiday weekend. Now we have been communicating often, and I gotta say its imparative to talk and touch base with me daily. If you cant do this then you obviously have no intention of getting to know me. So if I ask you to call me and you dont, you are slowing digging your own grave. So now its the day Im driving back and I text you earlyyyyy in the morning just to say hello as i normally will do with someone i am interested in and try to give you a time that we can meet. Did they ever text me back or even callllllll me over the weekend just to acknowledge me let alone on the specific day we decide to meet? NO and I have yet to hear from him.

Do you even know how hard it is to find someone that you actually like and want to talk to? My point is why bother!

NEXT!

I am sloowwwlyy losing it. I am about to become sooooooo fucking ignorant.

WTF. NO PIX OF YOUR FACE NOOOOOOOOO CONVERSATION! Chances are if theres is no pix you are more than likely NOT MY TYPE!

OK I heres the deal. I would like to meet someone that is in the lifestyle on either side of the coin (SUB OR DOM) that I can have a ltr relationship with outside of the bedroom and a full on bdsm lifestyle in the bedroom. If you are someone that I have decide to meet and I HAVE DECIDED TO GET ON A FUCKING PLANE TO VISIT YOU, THEN YOU NEED TO BE SERIOUS BECAUSE I AM. Do not approach me if you are not serious, if you are cheap, if you are bipolar, or full of shit, if you are unattractive,  not well groomed or well dressed (per the occasion), hairy and I mean scruffy like Grizzly Adams (lovely neat beards are fine and always hot) and could careless how you look because I can't do it.  I am sick and tired of nonsense. I have taken this route of meeting someone online because I AM BUSY. Its been successful for many. I do not have the luxury of being "social", and going out. I LIVE IN NC (there is no where to go) FOR WORK ONLYYYY! AND SORRY BUT THESE ARE NOT  "MY TYPE" OF MEN SO WHY BOTHER which is why I look outside my zip code. So again, concluding, if you are here to play and fuck with someone else's time then go elsewhere, hell to be exact! Chances are I DIDN'T APPROACH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE!

Ok here is the deal. DO NOT COME MY WAY IF U R MARRRRRRIEDDDDDDD. I AM SICK OF DEALING WITH BITCH ASS MEN THAT CANT COME OUT AND PLAY! I DO NOT DO NO VERY WELL, NOR DO I LOOK DESPERATE. I just want a fucking play partner is it really that hard to do in this fucked up state! DAMN.

COCK NOW PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO NO ONE IS SPONTANEOUS? NOT IN NEED OF LAST MINUTE SERVICE. NC IS UNREAL!!!!!!

ACHING 4 USE....

AM I NOT USEFUL TO ANYONE TONITE?