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AllisonSophia2

AllisonSophia2

I want to relocate out of Georgia, I don't care where as long as it isn't Oklahoma. I'm willing to rent a room and split the bills. I am so tired of this state be have already had my fill of Oklahoma.. if you have a room to rent, know of a low rent house or someone who has a toon for rent. Message me. Doesn't have to be any kind of relationship or a BDSM criteria. I just want to get out of this state. There are so many bottoms on here that claim that they would do anything for without mgiving a fuss, but I would prove it to them wrong every time. I can honestly say that (hard limits notwithstanding) I would bend over backwards for the right Owner. Just haven't found one that would allow me the chance to prove it. I am redoing my profile. I'm looking for a Mistress anywhere in Illinois. Someone who'll except me for who and what I am. That being a m2f lesbian transgender. I'm 54 (55 on October 16th).im about at the point of desperation. I've been looking for so long, but I refuse to give up. Somebody out there wants me. To train me and myself led me to their specifications. Someone that won't abuse me and accept all I have to off. I'm tire of being alone, being useless, not being used to my full potential. Please, if there is someone in Illinois that wants a real submissive, a domestic servant, a lesbian struggling to break free of the bonds that entrap me. Please let me know. I don't care if You're a lesbian or not, in fact, I prefer a lesbian because that solves all the sex issues. I am not in this lifestyle for sex, that can be found everywhere. At least a lesbian wouldn't have to worry about me wanting to have sex with them. I'll save that for after my surgery. And since I don't even watch porn, or even touching "THAT EVIL THING MEN ARE CURSED WITH) chucking would be a waste of time and effort. I'd probably fall asleep any way. Sex bores me.
Two more and I'll be completely alone for a week. I don't know what I plan to do with or to myself, but I know there's a couple of people I'll miss the most. Spent the last hour counting and recording every pill I have access to. Deciding on just what to do with them all and what order I may take them all or what order I'll take them will take me a couple of days. Good think my burial is already paid for. Regardless what most if You may think of me, some of a You might actually miss me when I'm gone.
Should I live or should I give up? Should suicide be legalized? Why remain when so many turn their back on my when I came out to thrm as a m2f lesbian transgender? Why keep tearing myself apart for people who don't give a shit about me?
I always see ads saying 'no this' or 'no that. Well I can do that too NO STINKY FEET NO SMELLY ASSES NO PREJUDICE PEOPLE AGAINST TRANSGENDERS NO PREJUDICE PEOPLE PERIOD NO BITCHY DOMMES NO 'PAY AS YOU GO' HOOKER TYPES ( GET A REGULAR JOB AND STOP LIVING OFF OF OTHER PEOPLES HARD EARNED MONEY NO FAKE DOMMES ( THERE'S ALOT OF THEM ON THIS SITE) FOR ME...NO MEN AT ALL...PERIOD. AND FINALLY...NO DOMMES WHO TRY TO PAWN OFF SUBS TO MASTERS WHO SAY THEY CAN TURN ME INTO A REAL WOMAN. I DONT FUCK MEN, MUCH LESS LET THEM TOUCH ME IN ANY WAY. I DON'T EVEN SHAKE HANDS WITH THEM. THEY NEED TO STAY AT LEAST FIVE FEET AWAY FROM ME MINIMUM, FIRTHER IT YOU THINK YOU'RE GODS GIFT TO WOMEN. Have I made myself clear or do I need to use smaller words or picture signs? I don't care how much you wash your feet or ass, I'm not going anywhere near them, which brings me to my next point MY ASS IS OFF LIMITS AND NO...I WON'T SUCK COCKS, VIBRATORS, DILDOS OR ANYTHING REMOTELY SHAPED LIKE THEM. GET THE PICTURE?
I'd like to make a couple of things perfectly clear. First: not only do I hate me, I don't trust them. Besides sports and alcohol, they only have one other thing on their minds, and that's sex. This girl isn't going to let any man o take my pride, dignity and my last virginity. Second: men ar filthy beasts that think they're better than everyone else. All male messages go to bulk mail where they. Elong. Lastly, I identify as a woman...not just any woman...I identify as a lesbian. If you don't like that than you know what you can do and where you can go. If you won't respect me as a lesbian woman, why should I respect you? Doesn't matter if you're Dominant or submissive.. I'm tired of being treated like trailer trash.
I've decided, in order to save money and get out from under my father-in-law's thumb.?i'going to pack up what little I have and go live on the streets. It's not like I'm having any luck here.n I'm just being used here and not in a good way. Let him have my SSI/Death benefits from my wife's SSI. Let him have it all. I'm sure I can find some abandoned building to live in.
I'm looking for a powerful hypnotist that can takeaway all my thoughts and reprogram me to be a lesbian nympho slut. I want to be able to go through with the gender confirmation surgery. After that I don't want to know anything, except that my name will remain AllisonSophia. Is there such a person here?
I envy so many of the transgender women on here. I hope I can look half as good as them.
This may very well be my last entry as I've since found out my insurance company, Medicare, nor Medicaid will pay for my gender reassignment surgery. Not much reason to go on if I'm stuck in this body with no hope for change.
It's really sad to know that, on this ste, the submissive is responsible to buy the Mistress and not the other way around. In an auction, is it the Dominant up on the pedestal for submissives to bid on.? No, it's the submissive up om the auction black waiting for dome one to bid on them. I'm just saying, what's wrong with this picture?
I am desperate to find a Mistress who won't screw me areound and actually find interest in me and train me to He specifications. No men period. Preferably in either Georgia or Illinois.
If you think I'm a fake My cell number is 706-366-6565
I'm an emotional wreck
Does anyone really care if I live or die? Does it really matter? Do "I" even matter? I try not to let my depression get out. It only serves to alienate others from me. I can't find an owner who'll even think of taking me in. I'm damaged goods, broken beyond repair. Will anyone cry for me when I Gone? Will anyone even attend the funeral? I don't think so. The funeral expenses only came out to just over six grand. I won't even be embalmed, my choice. I've even told them even want any religious bullshit either. I don't believe in that shit.no sermons. No preachers. No crosses. Nothing. Graveside at best.
Admittedly. Am currently male, but I'm working on changing that. I identify as lesbian and I'm tired of people still treating me as something I'm or. Too many people here are so disrespectful. You know You're being discriminated against. Do you discriminate against others here like me?
Another night of tears and sorrow. I am so tired going through this night after night.
I'm getting really tired of all the hit and runs, lies, games, the promise makers/breakers and the bullshit. Isn't there anyone real on here anymore?
I'm looking for someone in the Columbus, Georgia are that would be willing to teach my how to apply makeup and slow me the proper way to put my wig on. We don't have to be friends or Domme and sub. I don't know anyone here that will help. I also hope to find some the bra shopping partner. I'm just beginning my gender reassignment journey and am at a loss as to what to do.
There's nobody alive that will ever fuck me in the ass or make me suck any phallic shaped object. It also seems that I can't be hypnotized or brainwashed even though I want it very badly. To have most of my memory erased and be reprogrammed. A Lastly, there's no way in hell that I could be forced to have sex with a man. You might as well put a gun to my head and pull the trigger, that's the only way any man will ever fuck me.
I need to be tied down and beaten mercilessly.
Maybe I can youtube my own death
My life is meaningless and I have nothing left to live for
How far would you go to save a life without outside help? Do you have the power alone...do you even care?
After thinking it over, I've come to the conclusion that, if a Dominant wishes to own someone, shouldn't the Dominant be the one to pay/purchase the submissive/slave and not the other easy around? It makes no senses for the submissive/slave to buy the Dominant.
Okay, I have to state that, although I am a submissive and seek to be owned, I also am on low income and can't afford to go to another site and pay for a membership. That's why I am here on CS. I can't afford tribute either. This doesn't make me less of a submissive, it simply means I'm poor.
I'm so messed up today, I cant think straight. I need help learning who and what I am.
HELP WANTED: Domestic servant up for adoption. Follows orders we'll, cook, cleans, makes beds, cleans toilets and even does window. Makes sure meals are served at appointed times, bath ran at proper temperature, bed folded down, pillows fluffed, even a mint on the pillow at night. Wake up calls promptly announced when requested. Breakfast survived in bed prepared to ownser specification. Clothes of the day washed, pressed folded and laid out as instructed. Errands ran as directed. Guests treated with respect and dinner parties prepared as specified. Willing to relocate (except to Oklahoma or Georgia).
Why is it that, when I mention that I'm trans that automatically people believe that 'they' are the ones making me dress up in women's clothes? Hell, I haven't been brave enough to go behind wear bras and panties...and yes I did wear wig in public the other day. For me, it's not the clothes, it's how I feel inside. Yes, I'm going through with the surgery, but the year required to live as female is going to the hardest time of my life. I'd be just as happy living in female heads, shirts and sneakers. If they would let me life that way, I'd be a happy camper. I have one dress because I believe that they'll require me wear at least on. Hell, I can't even get used to the idea of makeup. If everyone believes that clothes make the woman, then everyone's wrong. Does a woman wearing men's clothes make them a man? I have feelings, you know.
I need an owner who will treat me well, not expect sex from me and will accept me as I am...or soon to be.does one exist?
I have received help with my profile, all got naught. I could stand in front of all the Mistresses that seek what I have to offer in a tutu, ballet shoes and a flaming baton but won't still fall short.. I could clean their houses in the nude, mow three yard , tend the garden and wash the care and still not get an ounce of recognition from them. I could run their errands, shop for groceries and prepaid a meal that the chefs on the Food Network would drool over. I could even go as far as make their entire house sparkle and not even get a simple pat on the head. What is wrong with me? I've met the criteria of overa hundred Dominants on this site and would do all those things without asking for anything in return. Is it because I don't offer any of them sex? Could it be the prejudices because I'm a trans m2f lesbian? Am I too tall, too shorty, to ugly? Someone please tell me why I'm so repulsive to not find an owner I would cherish for life?
Male chastity devices are pointed in the wrong direction. I could never wear one.