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One thing I can tell you is I am not a slave..that was abolished a long time ago.
And if you want to leash someone and have them go on all fours while u walk them...go get a dog..that is not what a woman was put on this earth to do!..Among other things!
"Soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you".

Looking for a committed long term relationship and maybe one that may lead to marriage...the last true love of my life.
A few things I am looking for...

1. LTR...a must...if you are not down to earth pass me by.
2. Intelligence..in order for me to fully accept my Dom is making the best decisions for me.
3. Passion...not just lust
4. Patience
5. I hope to find someone who can lead in a positive and caring way.
6. I tend to like taller men..but guess it would depend on everything else....and who am I to judge anyone.
7. I will not accept sharing my partner.
8. Honesty and open communication are essential.
9. I am NOT into torture, chains or much pain, animals, blood, scat or anything else I may find offensive.
10. ONCE COMMITTED I am willing to explore and try things with only my partner and that we both agree upon.
11.Must have a sense of humor...just because we are on this site doesn't mean we can't laugh..everyone seems to be way too serious..relax, laugh, and be happy life is way too short.
12. Must love your family, pets and be spiritual
13. Hope you like music for I love music ..a variety of.
14.I am straight and you must be also...no bi ladies or men..sorry.
I am hoping to move out of Illinois unless I find someone who lives here.


7/27/2011 8:13:25 PM

...why do we label ourselfs..dom, sub or whatever...it starts to seem so ridiculous...i have so many reasons why I believe it is a bunch of garbage....leaving this entry up before I close my account.

2/20/2011 2:46:30 PM

 

 

 

To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

2/7/2011 2:37:51 PM

 

 

"Yesterday is but a dream, and tomorrow is only a vision.  But a today well-lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope."

 

 

1/30/2011 11:00:22 AM
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.
1/2/2011 8:24:55 AM

The New Year is here and this quote  pretty much sums up how I feel.......

 "What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

1/1/2011 11:49:12 PM

I believe this has happened to most of us once in our lifetime:

 You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart, you're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why.
Far too many times we fall in love with someone who doesn't love us back. And as much as you love & care for them, there is nothing you can do to change the way they feel. There is no greater hurt then the one of rejection. You put your heart and soul on the line only to have it torn apart. It is a hurt that only time can heal.

11/6/2010 3:59:04 PM


The happiest people don't have the best of everything.
They just make the best of everything that they have!!
Live simply . . . Love generously . . . Care deeply . . .Speak kindly . . .
The richest person is not the one who has the most, but the one who needs the least.

11/3/2010 10:38:34 AM

Trust your own instinct. Your mistakes might as well be your own, instead of someone else's. 


When I hear somebody sigh that Life is hard, I am always tempted to ask, Compared to what?





10/30/2010 8:02:33 AM

It's a new day... "This is the beginning of a new day. You have been given this day to use as you will. You can waste it or use it for good. What you do today is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it. When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever; in its place is something that you have left behind...let it be something good." 

9/19/2010 10:53:28 PM

I watched the movie "The Notebook" (again) and was wondering if anyone on this site has seen it?
I only know of one Dom so far.....I am curious.
If so...what are your true feelings about it?

5/8/2010 10:05:07 PM

l have been writing someone for quite sometime now and must be sure before taking the next step to meet...therefore I am still leaving the doors open since I have not made any commitments.

5/1/2010 6:44:13 PM
I am a hopless romantic--- I seem to let my heart get the best of me...and time to start using my head more!! Sometimes the writing is on the wall but we close our eyes to the real facts and dream instead....but reality soon comes into play....and we must move forward.
4/28/2010 12:38:37 AM
I guess a few that have read my journal entries feel I should probably NOT be on this site..but who r they to tell me this..just because I don't write about SEX..well to each his own...and yes I love sex..especially with the right person..it is the closeness that two people share two bodies as one. Maybe I am just a romantic fool and not a bdsm person.
I thought giving to one..body mind and soul is submission .
I like to think of it as love-making rather than sex---you can have sex with anyone ...and not give yourself totally..only your body which is not total submission..but I guess everyone looks at these things in  their own way.
4/28/2010 12:17:14 AM
 I love music...and I would love to meet someone who plays the piano...but that is wishful thinking but why not write what we like or feel.
4/25/2010 10:30:30 AM

I have come to realize I am a hopeless romantic..and maybe this or any other site I have joined is not for me.  I believe in fate
just like my Mother & Dad when they met. So I must have the faith that what is meant to be shall be.
We who use the term "sub" to describe ourselves is just a word..if you trully love someone you don't have to use any name.. for one can give their all without any attached to them it will come from love not from a name used to describe one. It is a feeling deep within. Feelings are emotions, and sensations, and they are different from thoughts, beliefs, interpretations, and convictions. These are just my thoughts and not inteneded to devalue anyone.

4/23/2010 8:55:41 PM
I would like to thank all my friends for their notes and letters of sympathy for the passing of my Mother.


I also would like to take a min. to thank those who have so aggressively emailed me and inviting me out for luch, dinners etc...and I put many off..and didn't mean to lead anyone on..I have too much going on...emotionally mainly..I thought it best to be honest and say thank you...I have come across many that seem very sincere---especially here in the Chicago area...please accept my apologies.
I also must be very truthful and say..I finally realize there was one who I was and am still very much interested in...I am the type of pweson that once I think I found him...how can anyone else replace him...even if he doesn't know how much I care.
Maybe time....but then our time is so short here...I guess I am just an emotional heartfelt fool. 
4/1/2010 7:09:27 PM
I have been asked quite a bit why I am on other dating sites that r the so called "vanilla" sites..

yes I am on some... and find that many men I have communicated with are or claim to be or have  an "Alpha" type personality with traits of a Dom type man. 

And by the way---it comes to my attention...how would one know if I were on them unless they themselves are on or browsing..hmmm
4/1/2010 5:42:20 PM
Too far...
Too long...
Too far away
For too long
The silence is clear
I waited too long.
3/28/2010 5:56:58 AM

THIS HEARTFELT WRITING WAS SENT TO ME .. AND AS I READ ..I THINK.. IF ONLY!!!
 
~The Olive Tree~
A confused sub came before a wise Master who adored her. She felt that to submit to Him would mean she would open her heart to unbearable pain should He ever leave her. She hungered for Him and needed Him, but was ready to walk away in a panic. The gentle Master knelt her before Him and started a tale of love and devotion. As she looked up at Him His arms began to widen and open like a large tree stretches its branches to the sky. At that moment the Master appeared rooted to the floor and His impressive size towered above her like a giant tree. Then He began to speak........
 
I'm here for you, now and always no matter how far time and space takes us. Whether you walk away from Me today or you stay and serve Me I will not turn from you. I am as patient as time itself. I will take not from you unless you give freely and completely of yourself. But I give onto you regardless, for My love is unconditional. Like the olive tree that can both feed you and shade you I am there seemingly eternal to your short life on this earth. If you need My fruit to feed your hunger I will give you all the fruit you need. If your skin grows dry and loses its luster, the oil from My fruit will restore it and make it glisten. When you need comfort My leaves will gently caress your face with the slightest breeze.
When you need discipline My branches will correct you when the wind blows strong. If you just need My shade to protect you from the sun, My branches will shade and protect you. If you need warmth at night My fallen branches will fuel the fire to keep you warm and safe. If you need a refreshing breeze My leaves will fan and cool you. You are My gardener. When you submit to Me you tend that which keeps Me vibrant and full of life. When you kneel under Me and till the soil you give breath to My roots. When you water Me, My sap flows strong through Me and raises My limping branches.

When you soil yourself collecting fertilizer with your bare
hands you strengthen Me and humble Me with your devotion. Although My life will go on, life would not be the same without you. Your dedication and unconditional care for Me keeps Me vibrant and nutures My very core. The sustenance and protection I give you seems little reward for your servitude. Still the gardener serves the tree from her heart and the tree gives to her heart all that He can! I am planted firmly on the ground and cannot follow you if you walk away from Me. But be assured I will survive. One hundred years later and two of your lifetimes I will still be there waiting for you in the same spot to offer you all that I do now.
Stay with Me and be My gardener. You cannot get lost in Me for we are complemetary to each other. I am your devotion, and you give meaning to My existence. Apart we live life and survive, together we bloom eternally! As the Master finished His last words the sub cried herself to sleep at His feet. That night He stood planted there like 'The Olive Tree' offering her His unconditional love and protection as she would tend to Him with her devotion the next day and everyday thereafter.
 

3/26/2010 7:09:49 AM
Things don't always go the way we dreamed or wished they had but i am still grateful for many things.

3/23/2010 7:35:13 AM
"Whatever Happened to Old-Fashioned Love?"

People have thrown it away or traded it for something new and valueless.


Whatever happened to old fashioned love The kind that would see you through
The kind of love my Mom and Dad knew The kind that would last through the years
Through the trials
Through the smiles
Through the tears

I'm old fashioned
I love the moonlight
The sound of rain
Upon a window pane
Holding Hands, etc.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vamUTxS2uaA
3/17/2010 7:30:35 AM
MY MOTHER PASSED AWAY YESTERDAY...NO WORDS CAN SAY HOW ONE FEELS WHEN LOOSING A LOVED ONE...I WILL MISS HER MORE THAN WORDS CAN DESCRIBE.dhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jDXFrCQnNlU
2/18/2010 7:48:16 PM
My heart is fragile ...contrary to what one may think. It has been broken and I have kept it under lock and key..I will give you the key of my heart And it will be the opening
To our eternal love.
9/12/2009 2:09:00 PM
Hopefully one day soon I shall be able to say "I found him" and believe in this creed below...but not so far.


Submissive’s Creed

I Am a Submissive Woman.

I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship.

I am not weak, or stupid. I am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life.

I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.

I look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am I more complete than when he is with me.

I know that he will protect my body, my mind, and my soul with his strength and wisdom.

He is everything to me, as I am everything to him. His touch awakens me and his thoughts free me.

Only in serving him do I find complete freedom and joy.

His punishments are harsh, but I accept them thankfully, knowing that he has my best interests always foremost in his mind.

If he desires my body for pleasure, I shall joyfully give it to him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that I have brought him happiness.

However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship.

The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship.

My body is his, and if he says I am beautiful, then I am.

No matter what I look like to others, I am beautiful in his eyes, and because of that I hold my head high… …for who can tell me that my Master is wrong in seeing the beauty in me?

If he says I am his princess, then I am that…regal and graceful.

And if I see laughter at me in the eyes of others, I do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Master wrong?

If he says I am his toy, his slut, his tramp, then I am that…as wanton and dirty as he wants me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my Master.

My mind is his, to expand, to explore, to know as only he can. I have
no secrets from him…for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly his.

Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself…and I do not want walls.

His lessons are not always ones I would seek on my own, but they are lessons he has decided I need, and so I learn from him.

My soul is his, as bare to his touch as ever my skin could be when I kneel naked at his feet.

Never a moment goes by when I do not feel his presence, be he miles away or standing over me.

If I were to ever displease him, his displeasure would be a blow to my soul, worse punishment than any lashes could be.

The anguish of my soul that I feel when I disappoint him is harder to bear than the physical anguish I feel when his belt caresses me with fire.

I spend my days knowing that the energy and thought he puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for his, and look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that we do together.

His part is much harder than mine, and I know this and am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend his time and energy so freely on me.

I have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything to him.

I am his pleasure and his responsibility, and he takes both seriously. I am a submissive woman. I am proud to call myself that.

My submission is a gift that I do not give lightly, and can only be given to one who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.

Only to he who has that strength will I give myself fully, because I am strong and proud.

I am a submissive woman.

~~Author Unknown~~

rhean2loveu
 
 Age: 36
 Remington, Indiana