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aislinnmarie

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Hello *smiles*

i will not be looking for anything more than friendship until 06/01/10...this gives me 6 months to develop and work on the things that i need to, and in turn become a better person for when i do start looking for an actual relationship.

i'm posting my blog mostly because i write in it frequently and it would give you a tad bit more incite into who i am, and what i'm trying to be and do.
http://aislinnssanctuary.blogspot.com/
http://.com/users/53900

Well, I?ve been sitting here trying to think of what to say and how to say it?but thinking about it isn?t going to get it on here so here goes.

First off, I?m not really ?looking? for anything right now. I need to find myself and my feet a bit first. When I am ready, I?ll move forward with things. Right now, I?m just looking for friendship.

If you are looking for a slave?just keep on going. There is only one I?ve ever trusted enough to take on that level of commitment to and I don?t see me doing it again. I am submissive, and I enjoy bottoming for others. I?m new really to my maso side and it?s just developing. This is an area that?s going to continue in slow development as I enjoy it and have no plans on having any backslides. I grew up in a very violent house so I tread carefully in this area.

I am a single parent and that means I have my kids 99% of the time. If you aren?t willing to bring me and them into your life?keep going. This means that the majority of ?adult playtime? happens on the rare times they are gone, and when they are asleep. It means that many times outings aren?t just the two of us, but they come along as well.?My favorite color is green.?This could entail trips to the beach, zoo, and park. I will expect to be included in your life, as you are included in mine. I except to be involved in your life, and I would expect you to be involved in mine.

I?m intelligent, silly and loving. I am ruled by my heart, it?s given perhaps too freely and broken just as easily. I enjoy snuggling up on the couch and watching movies, I love having friends just drop by the house. I?m very social and love to talk to people.

PS. somewhere in this profile i have said my favorite color, if you would like a response from me...please include what my favorite color is in your message. *smiles brightly and winks*

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1/6/2010 10:15:46 AM
There was a time when images such as this image= http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_F4NphL3hoZw/S0NKCN3Y32I/AAAAAAAAAGE/Htt3fQyjGS8/s1600-h/bound-and-spanked.jpg used to scare the crap out of me; now however, they intrigue me and turn me on. The images have infiltrated my dreams and waking fantasies. At first they were just mild fantasies wondering what it would feel like, what it would be like trusting someone to do that. When they first started, they were very disturbing to me and my curiosity and my head would fight over the common sense of it all. i just couldnt let go of my fear enough to really delve into it. But as curiosity does most of the time...it finallly won. Finally, i was relaxed enough to actually experience a spanking/paddling/flogging. Wow, it was wonderful, intense, and still scary all at the same time. But even then, i was still holding back, still not letting myself completely give up that control that i had over myself; however, that desire and longing to push and be pushed over that edge is always there. That desire burns and grows in a way i wish i could explain...the best i can come up with is those that go skydrive and how once they have done it...it's an addiction and they cant wait to do it again. My second experience added a blindfold to the mix, and i loved it. It allowed me to float and let go more, although still not all the way. But it's just made that desire all the more strong, to truly be helpless even from myself. The desire to be driven over that edge...i've peered at it...looked over but havent crossed it...not yet. But i want to, need to, and have to soon. It's taken me awhile to come to terms with my fear about those desires, and the fears of the past that those desires may bring up...but as with most things, my head was my worst enemy. i've come to terms with those desires and needs, now it's finding a way to satisfy that need and balance out the rest of my life. One day, i will go over that edge...i know it. i just need to find someone that i trust enough to catch me when i get down to that bottom and help me back to the top. Course, it always helps if they want to help take you there too.

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MissChelsea
 
 Age: 24
  North Carolina