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| It's time for a little editing here.
Things about me you should know:
For the most part, I'm a semi-normal 'vanilla' guy. I don't wear leather, pvc, or vinyl. I'm intelligent (Mensa member - geeks > *), somewhat gregarious (among friends, or in the right environment), honest (we're as honest as we can afford to be. anyone who says differently is a dirty liar), not humble in the slightest (!), a bit arrogant, a bit cocky, confident, charismatic. Those who are close to me would say I'm incredibly loyal and am the kind of person to give you the shirt off of my back, so to speak. In reality, it was probably cold, and you were hopefully a cute female, so my efforts were twofold; chivalry is not dead, it is simply overlooked. My social circle has not shifted dramatically in quite a number of years. I have a lot of interest in the strange and macabre and am a polymath with bipolar disorder, so I tend to go off on tangents that I can become very passionate about. I am infrequently interested in things which I have no passion for; I do enjoy gathering factoids and applicable knowledge on biology, sociology, psychology, human interaction, primate behavior, and all sorts of technical or geeky things.
If we were sitting at a coffee place called (insert name here. I don't care. No brand preference, other than Peet's is better.), and I started chuckling to myself about something, it's likely because I've noticed or remarked to myself about some behavior I find comical. I think many people can identify with this. If it's uproarious laughter, then it was something hilarious. This is one of my behaviors that people frequently find very entertaining. I keep it for select occasions. At the same time, I may just go Benedict Cumberbatch-Sherlock Holmes on you. Yes, I can do that, not quite as well as one rehearsing from a , but you'd be surprised just how much information I can pick up and understand from my observations. It's a hell of a party trick.
I pride myself on having a lot of layers. One of those is doing bad impersonations. I will probably say something along the lines of, 'ogres are not like cakes.'
I love South Park. I find it hilarious.
What I'm searching for:
this is a lot to attempt to put onto HTML, so I'll instead capture a few ideas around some central focuses.
Physically: I don't really have a type; I dated a girl who was 6', I dated a girl who was 4'10. Sexually, I was more attracted to the girl who was 4'10. The shape usually doesn't vary too greatly - I love the curves of the female body, thighs, hips, breasts and butt. Hourglass? Wonderful. Big hourglass? Wonderful. Top heavy? That would be my preference and certainly has extra points assigned, but is not a requirement. I would hope you have fair skin, and light hair, although this isn't a requirement. I have no particular penchants for skin tones nor hair color, though I am usually found in company of those with lighter hair and porcelain skin. I prefer long hair to short, so that I have something to wrap my hands in and to smell. Oh, gods, the smell. I am hyper, hyper sensitive to pheromones. Want me to be hands all over you? Wear a perfume I love with pheromones. Mmm. Want to turn me off? Be grammatically incorrect with your usage of homophones.
Mentally: This one is a bit harder. Need to have a sense of humor, a sense of wonder. Hopefully, you're intelligent, self supporting (meaning you can do everything you need by yourself, you just happen to want someone to share in it with you), not necessarily independent, honest, and obedient. I really enjoy obedience, which is largely where D/s comes into play for me. Most especially where it comes to the sexual aspect, there's no bigger turn on for me. If I don't have the connection with someone, their obedience means nothing, and I'll excuse myself quickly.
Emotionally: Stable. Not going to knife me in my sleep. Mostly 'vanilla', except that you're weird or yooneque. I really enjoy yooneque people. I have hopes that you'll have a good relationship with your family, especially your parents. Maybe not your father. Just being honest.
BDSM: Complicated. Hopefully you're submissive or switch with submissive tendencies towards men, or something similar to that. The whole 'slave' deal... that's another thing in and of itself. If the relationship lent itself to that level of dedication, perhaps. Lot of responsibility on both sides. I like service oriented, courteous, respectful. Most of D/s to me is mental and emotional, and not physical. Not to say that it is absent, just that it is not as large a part for me. Kink wise, it's mostly sexual. That being said, as far as Lifestyle, I'd consider myself to be a 'daddy dom'. Not in the realm of age play, but that I frequently guide / mentor / help people on their life paths in various different ways. This is not new behavior for me, nor is it limited to BDSM, hence why I say lifestyle. My ideal partner would have some desire of where they want to be in this crazy life, and I might help them get there. A play partner may just be very excited at the idea of me making them orgasm as many times as possible and to push the limits and boundaries of what is sexual and enjoyable and what simply makes you cum your fucking face off. :) Cuz I like doing that, so.
More to be added later. Probably. Did you tldr this?
Questions? I'm open to constructive criticism. Hoping this is a better picture, and we can go over kink later. ^_^
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Update:
Santa must give presents to the naughty this year, because my wishes have been answered.
So happy to know you. You know who you are.
-D |
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I left alone.
My mind was blank.
I needed time to think.
To get the memories from my mind.
*/ true story.
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I need a few recommendations for some good reads. My mind is hungry to be taken to new lands of adventure and excitement, in a literary (though true for physical as well) sense.
I am nearly limitless in my appetite for knowledge. I love classics as well as new, sci fi/fantasy as well as true crime.
About the only things I won't read are things that usually populate the NY Times bestsellers, because honestly, I have no fucking desire to eat the applesauce. Those books are popular because of mindless masses.
No, I want the treasure, written in obscure Latin with too many references to collocate in any sensible manner.
Fire away. |
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Ugh. Commuting. Anyone care to point me at anything fantastic in the city fidi? So far lunch is a disappointment, and in a city such as this, that shouldn't be. Need locals input. |
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My, how time flies. It looks like I have approximately 6 years of journals on here. Remarkable that I've wasted that much time. I'm able to look back now and recall places and times in my life thanks to this; I never would've thought an online journal on a bdsm website would mean anything. Ah well.
I really, really enjoyed this quote. I know, it's lame quoting others and not yourself, but why reinvent the wheel? And I'm not so arrogant and well known (ok, or published) that I can quote myself and anyone will know what it is. Then again, most people don't understand my quotes anyway.
Those who are too lazy and comfortable to think for themselves and be their own judges obey the laws. Others sense their own laws within them.
Fuck yeah. Every time I see something like, "No turn on red," I think to myself, clearly this sign is not indicating that it has fooled the laws of physics. And then I drive however I want to anyway. Know what? I can always turn.
If I was in DnD I think I'd be chaotic good. But maybe chaotic neutral. Who knows.
The gates are open again for a new friend. Feel free to say hi. ^_^ |
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You know what pisses me off?
When x / y / z / etc says, "I'm a dominant" and they're looking for _____... why does it include "dominants"? I realize this is a pretty lame classification, but when I have filters setup that say, "show me submissive women that want dominant men", I don't want to see some chick who's saying she wants to use me as a toilet. Not going to happen, nor would I use anyone else as a toilet. Not my thing.
Too much blanket advertising here. Bah. |
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Ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Jobs is dead! The war is over! Ahahahaha. Proof positive that all the money in the world can't help you if you're a fucking douche. |
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Oh look.
Two months down the road and I'm ready again. yes, that's correct, the carnival of slave ass is ready to begin anew. If you think we might be a good fit, and you like what you've read, send me a message, and I'll take it from there. I can't possibly snake out all the possibilities. Give me a hand, no? |
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Ahhh yes.
The silly, silly people here.
Much thanks to a random profile I just saw, princesstraining, a rather fetid looking blond in one photo, and oh my, what an impressive stack of dollars! Oh wait.. they're all singles... yeah.. Stripper? or your tribute only comes in single dollars?
Ah well, 35 dollars never looked so attractive before. Hah.
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Attention bay are women who happen to love cleaning:
I need an NSA housework bitch for ~ 4 hours a week. Light cleaning, dusting, vacuuming, etc. Serious people only - obviously you aren't going to get anywhere near my house until I know you are trustworthy, since I won't be around all the time.
This is temporary, as the one that would usually be doing all of this is on the mend. Also, I have seen plenty of this on Craigslist, it simply won't do for me. CM should do nicely.
edit: also, if you happen to be attractive to us, there's a possibility for you to serve my pet and I as well, for more than just a little bit of housework.
Again, serious inquiries only. Pictures of both of us available upon reasonable request. |
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London & Brugge were a good time, but all good things must come to an end.
And, most good things end before we're ready for them. I have had a great time, met some new friends, and even met a new family member.
So, soon enough, I'll be back to the regular grind... c'est la vie, no?
There are a few good things... A newborn friend to meet! And my pet to see, among other things. New job. New house. All sorts of new things on the horizon.
But bleh, I don't want to go today. |
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Day 4 of London. Very neat town. I've enjoyed some fun times, fun people, and the like.
I am surprised there's ANY bdsm influence in this town... Most of these people are so freakin' stodgy it's ridiculous.
Can't wait to get back to the states and whip some slutpet ass. =) |
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Well, thanks for everyone who threw their hat in the ring this round. As always, there can be only one.
Pretty sure I found what I'm looking for. No other applicants necessary.
Peace. |
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Ah, I impress myself so much at times. Looking through this old journal, and it's marvelous really. I enjoy reading my own words, especially after I've forgotten them - it's like discourse with an old friend, makes you feel right.
Anywho, I do have a reason; I know exactly what I want.
There've been times in my life that I have lacked the desire to shape an outcome towards my ends, and that time has passed. I have a few simple wants.
I want a nice ass to slap and paddle and whip.
I want a nice mouth attached to it to fuck and slap.
I want a tight cunt to fuck and drip wax on and tease and extort for my own enjoyment and amusement.
I want a female desiring to be all to please me (It isn't that hard, after all...)
Also, I want someone to laugh with. I want someone to go to the movies with. I want someone to stay in with. I want a best friend, fuck toy, submissive, maybe even a lover.
I think, if you read my profile and my 'journal', you can get an idea of a large part of my personality. I am thoughtful, observant, and fairly intelligent.
More importantly, a lot of people just say, "I want to be happy". I've been working at it for years, and I have a few tricks; the best of which is to understand who you are, where you've been, and where you're going.
The right girl, I know where she's been... now if I could only figure out where she is, and direct her to go towards me.
If you're brave enough, I'll teach you some of my special tricks. |
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Zwan -The Number of the Beast
I love metal as much as the next guy (or, possibly much much more), but this song sure did it for me.
It's the holiday season again, and I feel as though it's just been Mabon. I feel a new season, new energy awakened inside of me. It's like coming awake from a dream, and only truly seeing now, for the first time.
I am so happy in the place I am at, and the situation at hand. No, things aren't perfect, and things rarely are, but I'm happy, and that's a commodity that I'd like to keep on hand.
Hope everyone out there is safe and has a good time.
I'll have the fire
I'll have the force
I'll have the power to make my evil take its course
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LOLZ.
"mistressautumnla"
I HAVE THE POWER OF THE ELEMENTS!
lolz.
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Fuckit.
From here on out, I'm looking for someone to kill.
How submissive are you? can I end your life?
--edit--
"Peter! What are you doing here?"
"I came here to murder you."
(From a comedy; Forgetting Sarah Marshall.)
Have you noticed, in nearly every TV commercial or film, if a computer is shown, it's an Apple computer ? Macbooks and iMacs the lot over, I swear. Even in this movie.
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Gods.
The more I troll through this site, the more pathetic losers I find.
"My name is Mistress Catharnia and I'm a 8732823742 lbs BBW. you will sit at My fat feet and lick toad guts from between My toes. you will wear a petticoat and stick your toothbrush up your ass to tickle your prostate and then you will brush your teeth with it in front of Me."
These fucking people are so arrogant and so god damned pathetic.
Dude, there's a real life out there, outside your little narcissistic superiority-complexed bubble. Seriously. Develop a personality and go find it. Or you might not live through it.
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******
Yes, I have a footlong cock. Please stop asking.
******
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Oh man, some of the people here crack me up.
femdoms especially, but check out 'bossmandee'. All this stupid capitalization shit is laughable anyway, but this just emphasizes it. Read it! it's hilarious!
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I use this journal for a variety of things. I use it to vent, to say things I may not otherwise say, and to capture my thoughts. I feel like I'm very much at a loss; I read through all of these profiles, submissives, looking for someone to belong to, someone to please. I myself am looking to find one to lavish my attention and ravishings on. Do you slaves and submissives feel as I do? Personally, I hate ever having to admit that I need someone, or something, but this is something I need. It's gone past want, or desire. A piece of me is missing, and it will take another to fill it. I anxiously await the submissive who will be my slave, and my slut. Open to any of the pain or discomfort I will give her. Appreciative of the spankings, the restraints, the lessons to be learned. Appreciative of the chance to please me, the unique person that I am; the unique dominant, master, what have you, that is inside of me. I'm waiting for the one that will crawl on all fours to retrieve her paddle, will drop it at my feet from carrying it in her mouth, and will ask for my guidance and my punishment. she will count and thank me for every swat, every flog, every slap, every fuck, every torture and every thing that I give to her. I will take her, and reshape her, reforge her in my own fires, create an extension of myself in her, both physically and mentally. In my arms, you find happiness, comfort, security. Under my hand, you find discipline, pain, guidance. Under my sex, you find orgasm, control, release, manipulation. Under me, you find submission to me, to serve me, my kinks, my wants, my painful pleasures and desires. I'm still waiting. Hopefully, you come along at some point. Don't keep me waiting too long.
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ATTN: you know who... If you change your mind.. I'll be waiting for you.
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Best quote ever, Ed Sanders, back in '68 or so.
"I like to engage in astral perversion, and my fondness is to be sucked
off by ring-tailed fruit bats while engaging in oral/erotic
relationships with homosexual aardvarks in bathtubs full of luke-warm
jello in late-nite motel Plate Job slurp-circles and jello orgies."
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'Femdoms' . . .
stop messaging me. you're not my type, I'm not into you, I don't buy into 'female supremecy', and I personally think 'femdoms' are bullshit; that's just my personal opinion. I know there are those who will kneel at your feet and beg for whatever it is that you want. That's not me; been in the situation with a gorgeous girl, and though it was hot for her to take initiative, I'm not one to play that way. Maybe if she had prodded me enough, it'd be different, but as it stands, I'm happy in my ways. you won't be converting me, I won't be messaging you back, blah blah blah. Yes, I know I'm just oh-so hot and sexy, but give it a rest. ;)
Cheers.
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Fakers!<P>
What's the point?<P>
check out 'youngnicole' . . . . <P>
that is not a real user, that's next door nikki! you can tell by the paw tattoo on her ass.<P>
I don't understand people.<P>
* Amended / edited. *<P>
More fakers:<br>
Mistress2you<br>
thai2use4u<br>
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more to be added. :)
<P> oh look, I seem to have jibed ms fake thai. how wonderful!
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blah. So far, several of these people don't even have the kindness to return a quick email. Are you so busy? Why read it?
Irritating. I toil onward.
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Ideology. . . .
If the world went the way I liked, here is the way things would go.
I would have found myself a submissive or a slave, experienced or nonexperienced; it doesn't matter to me. She would be dedicated. She would enjoy humiliation, breath play, orgasm denial, deprivation, and control. She would submit to me enough to be hypnotized, which I use to enhance my control.
She would submit her body to my slut training, and possibly body modification -- piercings.
Naturally, she would please me, and only me. She would benefit from reward and punishment. She would grow under my care. I would make her a more complete person, sub/slave, just as she would make me a more complete person and dominant/master.
I absolutely hate the fact that I NEED anything. This is something I need. I will not be satiated until I find one to serve me.
Food for thought:
If you've never passed a 3 minute orgasm, nor 15 in one session, nor had full body orgasms, you should speak with me.
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For anyone viewing my profile who has an opinion, I'd like to hear it.
A lot of people on this site are under the idea that a submissive submits, a dominant imposes their will over another, and that's all.
I do not see things this way. I see respect as being both ways, different sides of the coin. Not quite separate but equal, but something similar to that; it is a symbiosis.
I believe the act of domination and submission to be symbiotic, but I personally believe that there is more power to the submissve -- I have a reasoning for this.
For me, being a dominant, master, whatever you want to call it, I feel lost without having anyone to shape or serve me. I glean part of my identity from others, just like every human being does. I know from personal experience that I am a better person when I have a slave; taking ownership of another forces you to deal with everything in a more proactive manner. Taking someone's control, accepting someone's submission, means a lot; you must be able to stand on your own if you are to take someone else, and it becomes immensely easier for me in my own life when I have that reflective point.
For me, being a dominant brings clarity to my own life, and simplifies things, as I think it should be. I believe that a sub is able to function more without a master than a master is to function without a sub, but perhaps that is only me personally.
Don't get me wrong; I'm picky. I will not accept everyone, though I will give everyone a chance.
So I say again unto you, a task for you, should you choose to accept it. Tell me your thoughts on me, no bullshit, no lies. I'll be honest with you as well.
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| Age: 29 |
| Forest Hills,
New York |
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