I often have this dream, strange, penetrating Of a woman unkown whom i love, who loves me And who's never, each time, the same exactly Nor, exactly, different: and knows me, is loving
Oh how she knows me, and my heart, growing Clear for her, alone, is no longer a problem. For her alone, she alone understands, then How to cool the sweat of my brow with her weeping
Is she dark, blonde, or auburn? - I've no idea. Her name? I remember it's vibrant and dear, As those of the loved that life has exiled
Her eyes are the same as statue's eyes And in her voice, distant, serious, mild The tone of dear voices, those that have died
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Beatrice
In a burned-over land, where not a blade or leaf
Showed green, through a charred world, whetting my ancient grief
Slowly upon my heart, and making sad lament
To Nature, at broad noon, not knowing where I went,
I walked... and saw above me a big cloud — which at first
I took to be a storm — blacken, and swell and burst,
And pour upon my head instead of rain a rout
Of demons, dwarfed and cruel, which ringed me all about.
As passersby, no matter upon what errands bent,
Will always stop and stare with cold astonishment
At some poor man gone mad, then bait him wittily,
Just so they gaped and nudged, and jeered aloud at me.
— "Come! Have a look at this! What is it, should you say?
The shade of Hamlet — why, of course! — look at the way
He stands! — that undecided eye! — the wild hair, too!
Come here! Do look! Oh, wouldn't it wring a tear from you!
This shabby bon-vivant, this pompous tramp, this ham-
Actor out of a job, thinking that he can cram,
By ranting, stale gesticulations, crocodile-tears,
His tragic fate into the ears of crickets, into the ears
Of eagles! — yes, who knows? — along with brooks and flowers
Forgetting we invented these tricks, even into ours!"
But for one thing — no mountain is taller than my pride;
No demon horde can scale me — I could have turned aside
My sovereign thought, and stood alone... had I not seen
Suddenly, amongst this loathsome troupe, her, my heart's queen —
And the sun did not reel, it stood unmoved above! —
Her of the pure deep gaze, my life, my peerless love,
Mocking and pointing, laughing at my acute distress;
Or fondling some foul dwarf in an obscene caress.
— Edna St. Vincent Millay, Flowers of Evil (NY: Harper and Brothers, 1936)