Over the years I have noticed a few things about life. I only really started figuring it out recently. Most of it however has been going on for a long time.
First of all typical romance and love doesn't exist. As soon as I get to that point things fall apart. This teaches me that the idea of typical love is worthless. It's best to ignore that emotional connection to just use and abuse the person your with.
Second the more I loose myself and get carried away emotionally in something the more I end up regretting it. Things always seem to go wrong some way or another. Don't get me wrong, I can enjoy a good book, movie or what ever. I just can't get the emotional attachment so to speak. What goes wrong doesn't even have to be related to what I am enjoying. As long as I am content with what I am doing, I am fine.
Third Is trust. The more you trust someone, the more you regret it. People turn on each other so easily these days. The only real way around it is to totally control the person your with, with legal contracts.
Finally, the more money you spend the more you wish you didn't. My money needs to be my money, and thats it. I need control of the finances. In the end we both would be better off that way.
The result is that I need to totally control the person I am with. I can't see myself ever living with someone unless I have that all powerful complete power of attorney. I need to chain up those I am with while we sleep. Maybe the other person spread full eagle or just chained to the bed or wall like a animal. When your an idiot or forget your place I need to be able to beat the heck out of you to remind you. I need control over your finances so you can't steal from me, and I can create the financial empire and surroundings that I dream of (of course in some ways you would reap the benefits as well). Of course I just want the sex, when I want it. I want to put you in cloths that make me happy. After all isn't that what a real slave exists for? They exist to bring some kind of profit and pleasure to the master?
I have owned peoples souls before. What I would love is to do it again. I find I am missing the benefits gained by owning someone that completely. Only this time have their minds and hearts owned by me in the same way. For all practical intents and purposes you would just become an extension of my own will and desire. Ultimately who you are would cease to exist. Each year these desires get a little stronger.
Oh, I really truly prefer the female body and form. I don't care if it was originally male. I won't however take someone who obviously reminds me they were once male. I won't at the moment pay for the hormones or the surgery.
7/12/2013 12:17:29 PM
When you own a persons soul, I can make them feel what I want when I want. I can feel that person up when ever I want. That person can't stop it.
