ADaddyMaster

just a quick word

i'm not  living on CM

i'm living life in the real world

well it has been just over a month now since....my incident....tonight i am going out.....i am going to enjoy myself....i have to begin to find my way back...

OK...since when does 40 mins of chat time ....mean you own me?

I don't think so!

RESPECT me

Get to KNOW me

a lifetime won't be built on 40 mins.

Well that didn't last long or go well at all!

If you are a Daddy/Master/Dom/Owner and do NOT understand when a submissive states that she is a "novice" KEEP YOUR HANDS AND YOUR IDEAS TO YOURSELF!!!!!!

Do you know that you can cause real physical harm and even real emotional harm when things go wrong and you're not there to help? Then when you feel slighted.....and deceide that you feel she's a fake,simply becuse she can't explain to you the fact that a "session" went wrong and she has been left with physical injuries.....ones that should have required at the very least to be seen by a doctor....Your way to handle it is to tell her good luck in her search........that you feel like she was just interested in online play.....after everything she told you?

 I'm not perfect

but i have feelings

and my body is now scared for life most likely

my emotions are scared for sure......i just have to see if i can rise above this "learning experence"

last night was the first night of training.......i think it went well

I am very proud to make this anouncement:

     I am now "Under Consideration"

I have found not just a wonderful friend,but I believe everything I have been looking for in a DaddyMaster.

Thank you to all that have taken the time to message me....talk and yes in a way grow to where I belong. I never would have made it here without my Mentor/Teacher....and even tho i have many lessons to still learn....I go forward with excitement on the turn this path has lead me to.

Best of luck to all the Doms/Master/Daddies who still search for their one.....

June 8th:

Well my birthday has come...and gone...again

Patience...Patience...Patience

This journey has proven harder than i ever imagined

i will need patience

I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship. I am not weak, or stupid.I am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life. I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.I l will look to my loving Master for guid...ance and protection, for never am I more complete than when he is with me. I know that he will protect my body, my mind, and my soul with his strength and wisdom. He is everything to me, as I am everything to him. His touch awakens me and his thoughts free me. Only in serving him do I find complete freedom and joy. His punishments are harsh, but I accept them thankfully, knowing that he has my best interests always foremost in his mind. If he desires my body for pleasure,I shall joyfully give it to him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that I have brought him happiness. However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship. The love, the trust and sharing,the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship. My body will be his, and if he says I am beautiful,then I am. No matter what I look like to others, I am beautiful in his eyes, and because of that I hold my head high... for who can tell me that my Master is wrong in seeing the beauty in me? If he says I am his princess, then I am that...regal and graceful. And if I see laughter at me in the eyes of others, I do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Master wrong? If he says I am his toy, his slut,his tramp, then I am that...as wanton and dirty as he wants me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my Master. My mind is his, to expand, to explore,to know as only he can. I have no secrets from him...for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly his. Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself...and I do not want walls. His lessons are not always ones I would seek on my own, but they are lessons he has decided I need, and so I learn from him. My soul is his, as bare to his touch as ever my skin could be when I kneel naked at his feet. Never a moment goes by when I do not feel his presence, be he miles away or standing over me. If I were to ever displease him, his displeasure would be a blow to my soul, worse punishment than any lashes could be. The anguish of my soul that I feel when I disappoint him is harder to bear than the physical anguish I feel when his belt caresses me with fire. I spend my days knowing that the energy and thought he puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for his, and look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that we do together. His part is much harder than mine,and I know this and am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend his time and energy so freely on me. I have the easier job to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything to him. I am his pleasure and his responsibility, and he takes both seriously. I am a submissive woman. I am proud to call myself that. My submission is a gift that I do not give lightly, and can only be given to one who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold. Only to he who has that strength will I give myself fully,because I am strong and proud.I am a submissive woman.

this is also me