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	aBBWbabygirl Female Submissive, 31, Kitsap, Washington

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	About ABBWbitchslave My profile explains it all. Looking for " A Big Beautiful Woman who desires an african american bitch slave. Length of relationship will be determined by the Lady in charge. My original profile above is valid. Below are this are addition thoughts about myself for Your information. Currently, a submissive, i am still a human being but i am a firm believer in Female Supremacy or i wouldn't be here in the first place. i believe in respect and i have self respect, but i AM NOT A DOMINANT BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN'S EQUAL. Nevertheless, i am not a slave. A slave is owned and cherished. At the moment, i do not have such status. i also know that this does not happen in an instant. So i am learning what it takes to be valuable enough to become BBW's slave. So i am working on myself. i am asking questions. i am looking and weighing perspectives. Trying to move pass the 'want to be a slave' request based upon my desires and needs to serve BBW and into a phase where the Lady that wants and values me as a slave individually or as apart of Her treasured stable. Also, i write journal entries about my thoughts as well. Thank You for reading my profile.

On Thursday, June 20, 2013 I had officially became a slave to FalltoDarkness. As Her slave, Falltodarkness has decided to change my name here on Collarme from abbwbitchslave to a more appropriate moniker that reflects Her Ownership as FallsbitchN. Furthermore, my contact on Collarme has been restricted to my journal entries only here for the moment until my journals entries continue as FallsbitchN there. So if you want to keep up with me, everyone is invited there to continue to read my journal. However, if anyone wishes to contact me, please note that now FalltoDarkness own all of my rights and therefore speaks for me in any private correspondence, Please direct any comments, requests etc to my Owner, FalltoDarkness here on Collarme. She will decide what I will rececive if any. Last item, i want to thank everyone here for reading and commenting to me here as abbwbitchslave. Thank you so much!

Working too hard in real time. But dreaming of Her all the time!

She does not only want to see me cry, She expects it.

Been awhile. Missing living in my Lady's world. It's cold. So cold out here. But I have to endure because life finds a way to challenge. But that is why life is isn't it. But I must remain positive. I know there is a glowing, warm, and wonderful world waiting for me because She says so:-)

Spending the weekend running errands, doing housework, and cooking crappy food. No I am not a good cook.

I will never be worthy. But I will be here nonetheless. A bitch!

The Owner. The begging. The collar. The leash. The riding crop. The beating! The agony! The pain! The weeping! The submission! The subjugation! The worship! The bitch! me.

i have been ill but i do not ever want to burden You. But Yes Mistress, i would gladly be Your beast of burden. :-D

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

I want to express my feelings tonight. So I began to tear up because I desire to have the freedom and strength to do so. One day...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

In the future i will look forward to being defined not by myself, but by Her. A moment, i will treasure for a lifetime.

Begging. So is this where one starts to further my submission to a Big Beautiful Dominant Woman? Yes or no. Part of me says Yes because it is a sign of both respect and submission. On the other hand, it's no, because It would be disrespectful and arrogant of me without Her permission? Or is it somewhere in-between?

i am now under orders to continue to provide my ideas, musings and thoughts on this journal. Was i surprised? Yes!

So have a great Sunday E/everyone.

Am I allowed to express my desire anymore?

i am all thumbs! Not exactly the proudest moment in my life.

HAPPY COLUMBUS DAY LADIES! i have to admit, i have been re energized and exited to be back. Of course, I do not know how long that will last, but hopefully it will be a long, long time. So I hope all are having a great day and had a great weekend!

It's been along time since i have been on collar me. Reviewing some of earlier journals and doing a bit of browsing, i am still fascinated by many of the Dominant BIg Beautiful Ladies here. Their photos only enhance the magnificent beauty of each Lady not only individually but collectively as well. Thank You! Many of the journals simply put mine to shame. Many have great breath and depth of conviction that i could not ever match. Their powerful words and intelligent insights continue to challenge and inspire. Even though i am woefully inadequate, my desire to kneel, to beg and to submit to these Curvy and Sexy Women is my flame, my passion. However, the Ladies owe me nothing. So i grovel to be beaten, crushed, and whipped at the hands of these LOVELY LADIES. i weep and pray just for the opportunity to cower before THEM. Nevertheless, Enslavement and Worship of the Dominant Big Beautful Woman is a mere pittance of what is offered to these Sublime Ladies of Substance by myself and every other submissive male out there. THE LADIES ARE OWED SO MUCH MORE. Thank You Ladies!

Happiness is freedom lost!

There can so be so many reasons why W/we do not simply pair off and live O/our lives as the people W/we want to be. But do W/we ask ourselves why this just does not happen to O/ourselves?

i have been thinking about this myself alot lately. i had recieved a note a week or so ago from a Dominant Woman who wanted to know a it more about me. So i wrote her back about myself and what i am seeking in exchange for
servititude to Her.

Now i do not lie about these things nor do i post my personal desires for all to read either. Sometimes and i know this to be true, sometimes i will not be your cup of tea as far as a relationship goes. i apologized before i had even written about my desires and thanked Her for making the inquiry.

What happened? Well, i wasn't what She is looking for in a sub is what happened. i didn't even get a "Thanks but no thanks" reply to the return message that i had sent to Her. i guess i scared Her off. Its ok though. Not angry at all. i know that what i am looking for isn't going to be for everyone and i want E/everyone to know that i appreciate every message sent to me. Thank Y/you Ladies!

i haven't written a journal entry for awhile so here goes. i guess most of us subs/slaves write a literal laundry list about our fantasies but should we have our feet firmly no i take that back, our knees planted firmly into the floor and maybe explain thoroughly our fantasies and how this relates this for the benefit of our future Dominants?

Been wondering if i am even good enough to belong to another recently. i hope i can develop the kind of mental discipline. Still i am a jumble of fantasies and desires which don't mean squat.

my New Year's resolution for 2006 is to focus on the special people in my life rather than upon myself. Since i am not capable of serving a special Dominant Woman in the manner that She deserves this year, instead i will be focusing my energies upon the special people, family and friends, that are in my life so that the people around me are a little bit better off than before.

Happy New Year!

Maybe i can't serve right now but i can at least i can honor the very special Ladies on collarme by wishing them all a Happy New Year! My hope for each and everyone of You is to be happy and to meet that special someone that knows thier place is beneath You!

As of today, this bitch is not ready to serve a Dominant Woman because of other personal issues which would not allow me to commit, serve, and worship a Lady properly. However, i have become an admirer of a very lovely Lady who i wish only the best for today and into the future. Mistress, thank You!

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