Why must a man obtain a woman to have a sense of achievement? After all, she may leave, it seems folly to me. It would best that he possess himself, for that achievement will make her want to stay.

FYI: If the number 69, or the phrase "Shades Of Grey"/ "50 Shades" is in your user name, we probably won't get along that well.

I am a Dom, and not just kinky. I have a backbone, strength, perseverance, and self worth.

The first time you make a woman cum by slapping her pussy, she never looks at you the same way again. ;)

Jealousy, fear, anxiety, all things we have encountered and overcome in the past, yet each time it happens, it's so easy to forget how we survived the unknown before. And as I write this, because we were only together for two weeks, I find myself surprised at how much it bothers me to have had to release my new pet today.

I'm disappointed at both girls - with kitty acting out on several occasions when blossom and I spent time alone together. kitty was always happy and content when it was the three of us together, or when it was the two girls alone time, but when it was blossoms time alone with me, kitty would get jealous, needy, and act out - as if she was being ignored. No matter how much blossom and I talked with kitty, giving her reassurance and attention, it was never good enough once blossom and I were alone.

I'm also disappointed with blossom,  because she told both kitty and I that she would spend some alone time with kitty on Thursday, but she just didn't call, or show up.  And then finally texts kitty with excuses. This lead kitty to believe that blossom is more into me than her, but blossom states otherwise. However actions speak louder than words, and there wasn't anything stopping blossom from coming here to be with her "sister".

Earlier today, I released blossom because it is what she wanted. Being new to bdsm / the concept of ownership, getting involved in a poly relationship, (having to tell friends and family), and to consciously make the decision to give up "old ways", boy toys, etc was a lot for her to handle. And then on top of that, I'm certain kitty's temper tantrums that she was pulling, when it was blossom's turn to be with me alone, (our time time to connect, bond, and for bdsm guidance) was a  major red flag, that made blossom "run away".

Now, that's not to excuse blossom's behavior, standing up / blowing off her sis when they had set plan for alone time. But I do understand how kitty's behavior had something to do with this not working out - not all, but some. Besides blossom also had her issues she was dealing with, such as transitioning from primarily vanilla relationships / lifestyle, into a bdsm, TPE relationship, furthermore, a poly triad relationship. I understand that is a lot to handle all at once, and kitty's selfish jealousy fits were not conducive to what we were attempting. However, I feel the way blossom handled herself, and the situation was equally selfish, and immature.

As far as I'm concerned they both messed this up. kitty should have had better self control instead of acting out - almost every night. And blossom should have put more effort into connecting, bonding and spending alone time with her sister, so that kitty wouldn't have continued getting all upset when blossom was spending time with me.

Well, it is what it is, and maybe it is for the best after all. Yes I miss blossom, even though we we only together for two weeks, but if she felt she needed to be released then that is what I had to do.

**Ok so many hours later into the night, blossom says to me, "she just wants to be at my feet". She knows where I can be found, and there wasn't anything stopping her from coming here not just on Thursday - when she blew off kitty, but tonight too - to try to connect with kitty, and then come to me to kneel at my feet.

I can't help but wonder if blossom wants us both equally, or if she is mostly into me. That, or if blossom was into kitty, until kitty started throwing temper tantrums, which in a way, pushed blossom away, making it difficult for them to bond.  I know they both needed more time alone together, to bond, and connect as best friends. Going out places, doing things together (besides in the bedroom), developing a personal connection.

However both girls worked during the day, and both girls wanted my attention at night, which was understandable. So I would spend time with the two of them during the evening and when kitty got tired (early like usual), blossom would stay up and spend time alone together. This was the time when kitty would start acting out. As if she needed me/ or my attention, because wasn't getting enough, even though kitty lives with me and got WAY more time with me than blossom did.

On top of that, kitty would always say she wanted to spend time with blossom too, because they get very little time together, ok understandable. kitty wanted a relationship with blossom - a girl friend, best friend, lover, etc, that she could share me and her love with, this would require time spent together, but I imagine the way kitty was acting out at night - even after several talks - really made blossom hesitant.

So both girls need to take responsibility for their actions.

I now have a new pet, and she makes me very happy. It also pleases me to see my two girls getting along so well. It's only been a week, and it has been great, I'm looking forward for this to become many years of shared love.

I'm curious as to how many people ACTUALLY read profiles or just look at pictures, and kink interests...(?) The same goes for the journals too... If one has interest in someone, why wouldn't one want to use everything offered to get to know the person they are pursuing?

And speaking of pursuing someone, paying attention matters. Doesn't anybody woo, or court anymore? Yes I know, very old fashioned words. However, the idea, the concept is still the same. If one wants another, show sincere interest in the other person beyond their body - be it looks, cock size, and/or any other meaningless attraction.

What about who the person is, to his or her core? How he/she will have an impact on your life and help you grow, how he/she will mold you, shape you give you guidance, and make you feel about yourself unlike no other person ever could. D/s is so much more than just kink, sex, and toys. There are much greater things about the lifestyle - like the connection a Dom/Master has with his sub/slave.

Rope bound ankles, knees bent - tied tight - not unlike a hogtie. However, this time, I tied her hands to her sides, and fastened the ropes from her legs to the ropes her hands were tied to.  Having her bound this way, exposed her ass to me, which the traditional hogtie doesn't...

 As I take my time and look at my "art" I realize she is too still, and quiet... The canvas is blank and color is required to make my pet squirm. I slowly open the toys drawer, and pull out the paintbrush - one of my favorite toys of pleasure and torture. To start, I run the soft bristles over her body, slowly teasing the ticklish spots, and along her lower back to her ass..

As as she starts to fade off, I give her a quick whack with the brush, and she jumps - this makes me smile -  and then as I continue to run the brush along her body. Eventually, I switch to my hands and finger tips and give a firm squeeze of her ass, as I lead into a warm up spanking...

After a few minutes of warming her up and getting a light color over her ass, I move into the wooden paddle - her favorite toy. From there, once nice and red, I switch to candle wax, and this is where the real fun began...

She wiggled and let out moans of both pain and pleasure like I've never heard before, and my pet has been waxed before, but this time - this time something was different for her, and for that, I liked it all the more, the sadist in me came out and the more she squealed, and squirmed against the ropes the more I wanted to wax her...

 When I was all done playing with the wax, I took out the mini flogger and slowly began to whip off the wax. As I built up pace to try to take off the wax, I could tell I was going to have to hit harder with the whip to make it work, but I could tell my girl was tired and spent. So I decided to use my hands instead.

So  massaged her as I felt out the wax and took care of her. While inspecting her body I spread her ass, legs lips and be sure no wax got stuck to her or inside her. This inspection lead to the shower and that is where I will leave this entry.

I am not into drama or head games, know this before you contact me.

In many moons past, I said to myself I don't need to find  my pet, she will find me - and that she did, almost 5 years ago. And then some weeks ago, I told my kitty we don't need to find her sister, she will find us - and once again she did. This new pet, reminds me so much of my kitty when she was 21 - in need of guidance and training. I wonder if this old man is ready to start training a new pet again?

I wonder why so many males - both straight and gay, and both Dom and sub view my profile? I just don't understand... I mean, I don't view other male Dom or sub profiles, but yet men are always viewing me. Perhaps I'm missing something and I should be viewing males profiles as well?

A good friend and Dominant Mentor of mine passed away, he was the only person I was submissive for. He was proud when I embraced my Dominance - what he felt I needed to do all along. I feel empty...

There is so much more to the lifestyle than just kink, but it seems to me that kink is most people's drive on CM.... Don't get me wrong, the kink is great, but for me, the lifestyle IS who I am as a whole, not just lace, leather, whips, chains, and toys.

After reading John and Libby's "The Loving Dominant", I no longer consider myself to be a sadist. I am a Dom/Top/Master, that enjoys consensual power exchange.