7/4/2010 3:51:51 PM

It's about time I said to myself the other day.  I've been alone so long and now, it would seem that will be no longer.  While looking I had the opportunity to get to know someone truly know them and well we discovered we are in love with each other.  For those that think this was fast, it was not at all it was something that started over 20 years ago and has only now been brought into my attention.  It is extremely intense, white hot, and very emotionally charged. It all started with a passion for music and moved onward from there.  A TRUE gentleman, I had thought there were none of them left. I have met so many strictly sarcastic men, who quite frankly do not possess the listening skills required of this lifestyle.   All they've cared about is what they can get not what they can give to a relationship and I have become quite sick of it really.  They say when you stop looking you'll find it, and it found me.  As I had said, quite unexpected, however also quite a welcome change. I never cared for being treated like crap, or being objectified, I never really cared for flippant conversation and being ignored either, I don't do to many of the "normal" things that people do, I do not like bruises or scars and such however it would seem that is all I had found in the past years.  No longer will I have to pour through profiles and e-mails to try and figure out if someone is a crazy person or if they are lying (happens more often than not).  There are those that will be upset over my choices however, I will simply remind them, it is my life, it is my choice, and I owe no one anything.  I don't feel the need to justify my heart to anyone.  Therefore whether they get over it or not is inconsequential to me.  That is their problem not mine. I bid everyone an happy independence day.

3/30/2010 7:01:52 PM

Never really understood why people un-send messages I just end up blocking them, as is my paranoid nature. Both that I had received I am sure are from people I no longer speak with or am on good terms with.   If one "un-sends" something it looks like they said something undesirable in which case I do not wish to correspond anyhow.  Aside from that, why do people start corresponding and say silly things or not bother to give any information?  I am very curious about this.  Do men honestly believe that I am interested in them just because they are interested in themselves?  Or because they send me a 4 word e-mail without using whole words such as "u" in place of "you" what in the world?!  It irritates me when people do that on the computer. Immediate demands for my chat name also..HUGE turn off...  If you cannot take the time here, don't bother there.  Not that I'd give it out.  There is a lack of maturity and character that seems to have plagued this lifestyle, I am not sure if it is the whole "TNG" groups influence on everyone or just people are lazy anymore.  Everything is disposable. Not I, I do not buy into that whole mess.  I come from a place where honor and character mean something... Apparently the place is now deserted hahaha. How sad it is that men that allege they are "Masters" who list themselves as a "dominant master"  (which is redundant) get all uppity when caught in a lie.  Why not just admit they misspoke?  Instead make up elaborate lies to cover up some stupid error in grammar then get all mad because someone points it out to HELP them in finding their one.. It is pathetic. When one has learned, to be a Master, they have learned to be a lot of things, one of which is a person of honor.  Again I bring this back around because there is just this rampant running around of people that have truly no concept of what they're doing.  When asked about it they flip out because they cannot simply say hey what do you mean when you say..... Ego will destroy one's reputation and has very little place in a society, a community that is built on learning, and growing.  Poor Poor sad little man that cannot learn....

3/23/2010 12:18:43 PM

Wow, a 40 year old male with virtually no communication skills at all is told I've no interest and feels the need to send back an insult.  Not only cussing, but underlined, and in huge font, and in neon green.  I swear he is just another example of the lack of men out here.  There are PLENTY of boys, not a lot of real men.  Be cautious ladies, those that cannot handle someone not being interested in them who cannot handle themselves or any kind of rejection, are NOT Dominants.  If one cannot control themselves they cannot control anyone else. Yes, I will give any female who asks, his name and copy of the transaction which is literally 5 short mails long.  This includes his less than mature reply. It made me laugh, I reported and summarily blocked his communication.   That is all it takes, simply blocking someone that acts like a petulant child simply because someone does not find him a catch.  What a sadness to the Dominants on CM that is... Poor example of a man let alone a human if he acts like that and an even worse example of a "Dominant".  (that is what he alleges he is).

3/21/2010 9:01:44 PM

I am unsure as to what people have come to understand about correspondence but I am disappointed with most of the mail that I get.  Using letters or numbers instead of words, on a computer, is well, lazy as all heck.  You have a full keyboard at your disposal, you are attempting to have someone find you attractive, and yet you cannot even be bothered to form words?  I am seriously at a loss as to why people cannot be bothered to actually correspond with a modicum of grammar, sentence structure, or even words.  If you wish to ask me something, write a question.  If you wish to have me even remotely interested, you have to be able to communicate.  If you cannot be bothered to write out complete thoughts why should I waste my time on you?  If you are too lazy to bother trying to gain my interest, I will not be bothered to give you a second look. It is pretty simple really. The internet and phone texting has not only made people more accessible but it has taken away basic communication skills and it sickens me.  Am I not worth the time it takes to write me a proper letter?  No? Then do not waste either of our time, as I will only be responding negatively.  If I am not worth the effort of a well written letter and some initial information prior to a barrage of questions, clearly I am not worthy of you and as such I ask you do not bother contacting me at all.  Save your time for someone else less exacting of her standards than I.

3/17/2010 7:40:21 PM

Now that the initial onslaught of e-mail is over I can journal.  I have been on CM before, my old names, both of them, were hijacked..It happens... No big thing.  I've been immersed in the lifestyle for over 10 years, I was formally trained, and have a resounding respect for the codes of conduct that govern this small society of people.  To that end, submissive is not equal to stupid.  Just because you think yourself the best thing since sliced bread, does not mean I will have the same opinion.  Just because you say you're a Dominant, doesn't mean I'd consider you MY Dominant.  If Someone writes me and is rude they are promptly escorted to my trash folder.  Trust me I've all ready seen rude.  If you wish to correspond, please be able to put together an interesting and cohesive greeting and introduction.  If you send me some 4 word mail yes, I will respond, but no I most likely not be interested enough to take it past here.  Please don't send me your personal mail, chat ID or phone number right off. You do not know me, I do not know you, why would you send something like that to someone you do not know who could be anyone online?  Think people think!