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**Updated** This is the hard part... I am new to this lifestyle and so am hoping to do some exploring, make new friends and see what happens. I will not post a face picture due to my need for discretion. However, I have no problem with sending one once we have exchanged an email or two. I have updated my profile.. see below...... ***Who am I? There is no easy answer to this question. I do not like when people try to put a "tag/title" on me and then get me to "fit" into their definition of what they expect or believe a sub/Domme to be. I am me, unlike anyone else. Get to know me and you will see. Do not ask me if I am submissive or dominant. I call myself a "switch" for a reason. I think once I have explored further I will discover which way I might lean more towards. At this time, I will stick with switch. Is it too much to ask for safe, sane and consensual?? I didn't realize how important it was to put that on here. I have many quirks and can be quite an intense and passionate when my fires are stirred..be it by a dominant man/woman or a sub or a switch.... CHEMISTRY is key. Let's be honest, there has to be an attraction, connection, chemistry of some kind and it needs to go both ways for it to work. Also, being trustworthy, honest, patienct are big on my list of necessary traits. The largest sexual organ is the human brain, stimulate mine and see what happens. *wink* I can say that I have no interest in being a slave that is probably the only thing I am absolutely, positively sure about. :) I have a psychology background and find just about anything having to do with the mind extremely exciting as well as intriguing. I will do my best to not analyze you if you will do the honor of not doing so to me. I am still very much learning all sorts of new things here. I have been here a little over a month and already I have discovered things about people that I probably would rather have not known. There is heartache in this life no matter how you live it. It's how you pick yourself up and move on after that makes the difference. What are my kinks, you ask? Take a look at my list (which I reserve the right to change at any given time). There are many curiousities that I would like to explore with the right person at the right time. I am not pushing to make that happen nor am I setting any sort of time limit or expectations as to when. I am open minded, driven, caring, intelligent, witty, sensual, independent as well as needy (at times). So, trying to describe myself within the confines of this little box is not the easiest thing to do. Say hello, you never know what sort of chemistry we might have as well as kinks. :)***


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10/7/2013 6:45:45 PM

The most annoying pet peeve and the quickest way to get me to NOT reply to you or even give you the time of day.... bad grammar and horrid spelling.  Sheesh!!  Major turn off!!  

8/23/2013 7:29:55 PM

Another I wrote awhile ago

 

Raw skin peeled away

exposing all that I am

and am not

acceptance

true caring

deep knowing

wanting,

reaching out

only to find

Sweet nothingness...

absolutely void of feelings

the good ones

as well as the bad

that place

always just out of my reach

tired of being tired

wanting

to just give in

longing

to find that place once again

believing it was all just a dream

a fantasy created in my mind

8/23/2013 7:26:47 PM

I wrote this some time ago but never shared it on here...

 

 

Your eyes slowly, languidly roam over my face then move down my body.  It's as if I can feel warmth wherever your eyes go...as if you were setting me on fire.  You don't have to say anything, your body language reveals to me your thoughts and intentions.  I find myself wanting to just touch you...anywhere, doesn't matter where or how.  I want to roll myself up in your confidence, strength, warmth.  To rub my body against yours, marking myself with your scent.  Such strange thoughts and behaviors for me.   These feelings, desires, thoughts are something I am not used to having.  I had no idea that someone could make me feel this way.  Do I trust you to share such ideas?  Immediately and without thought my heart says yes...then my mind races in and says maybe not....you should be careful...those warnings are just a typical defense mechanism that everyone has.  I can't help but move closer to you, reach out my hand and brush ever so softly against you...waiting for you to tell me it's ok to....

3/21/2013 3:17:52 PM

Shinedown....Shinedown....Shinedown....Shinedown!!!!  Burning Bright...Call Me...If You Only Knew...Sound of Madness...The Crow and the Butterfly...I'll Follow You....Second Chance...The Crow and the Butterfly.... LOVE THEM ALL!!!!

3/13/2013 2:50:00 PM

Deep desire, lust unfullfilled ...a very intense and raw soul burning desire to just be with you.Not knowing the true reasons for this desire and truly not caring because it feels so incredibly good.  What exactly is it that drives me to want you with such intensity? Feeling afraid of the unknown...No promises have been made.  Believing that your wants and desires are matched to fit mine. Am I that transparent, that you can see that part of me that no one else does?  I  haven't felt like this in a very long time...if ever. In a truly basic, animalistic nature.....I want you. I haven't even had a taste of you..yet.  I am torn inside, my body and soul scream out for me to take that step, have that taste...my heart and mind are locked away somewhere deep inside at war with one another...if only they could become one.  The fire has been lit, like a beautiful bright red flame within my mind.  I have become a woman in a fog...walking around, doing the things I normally do but somehow I am not the same.  I am changed.  I don't know if I can take the pain of quenching this desire to only be denied more or the pain of never knowing just how good we would be together.  Trust....such a powerful and profound word.  It is an essential key to unlocking that hidden door to my heart and mind....     

3/12/2013 9:42:47 AM

This is one of my most favorite songs ever.  Aaron Lewis's voice is also one of my favorites though.  :)  If you haven't heard it, go to YouTube and watch the video.  

 


"Tangled Up In You"

You're my world
The shelter from the rain
You're the pills
Then take away my pain
You're the light
That helps me find my way
You're the words
When I have nothing to say

In this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I'm Still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you

You're the fire
That warms me when I'm cold
You're the hand I have to hold
as I grow old.
You're the shore
When I am lost at sea
You're the only thing
That I like about me.

In this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
I'm still tangled up in you
Tangled up in you

How long has it been
Since this storyline began
And I hope it never ends
And goes like this forever

In this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
Tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
 
3/10/2013 7:47:02 PM
"I watched you cry bathed in sunlight by the bathroom door... you said you wished you did not love me anymore." " Obsessed depresed at the same time, I cant even walk in a straight line.." Just a feeling by Maroon 5.
3/10/2013 7:43:13 PM
Hmm my profile sems to be drawing a bit of attention lately. Wonder why that is. :)
9/22/2011 7:40:55 PM

Whispers

 

Whisper to me                               
Your desires made clear                
No room for doubts                         
Whisper to me                           
Your intentions defined               

  
Breathe Your power onto me      
Shivers deep in my soul               
Words excite, entice                        
Promises made without being said 
Walls crumble                              

 
Your hands in my hair                    
Teeth on my skin                            
Marking me as Yours                  
Looking into Your eyes                
Home my heart whispers to me   

 
Electric currents of lust                  
Shared between                              
The line between 2 beings blurs    
No longer divided                          
Becoming one                             

 
Whisper to me                               
Your desires are mine                   


7/11/2011 2:15:59 PM

Am considering backing off a bit on CM...my brain is just on overdrive and sometimes dealing with emotional crap wears you out so much more than the physical stuff.  Soooo please don't take offense if I do not reply to messages right away as I just need to..........Ooooo I don't know....

5/14/2011 10:51:39 AM

I haven't posted anything in awhile due to so many things going on in my life, my head, my heart.  I am learning a very tough lesson...seems to be one of those life lessons that never does quite stick..which is this: Never make someone a priority in your life if they only make you an option.  Easy to say, harder to actually follow through on.  For so many reasons...we all need to feel accepted, loved, cared for, liked etc and so those feelings tend to cloud our judgement on others and how we see them.  We accept their reasons which really all they are in reality is bs excuses.  I find that there is a huge difference between a valid reason and an excuse.  *sigh*  Where am I going with this??  Who knows... right now, I just know that I'm tired of caring for people who can't and/or don't give me the same level of care back.... I'm not a toy and treating someone's feelings as if they don't matter or are less than yours is unacceptable to me.  Well as for the toy comment... I wouldn't mind being someone's "toy" for play..that's different.  LOL  Just making myself clear that I wasn't referring to kink.  *smiles*   Am stepping down from my soapbox now.... 

4/15/2011 5:37:21 AM

I hate making sweeping generalizations..however.. I am finding that there are A LOT of selfish people on here.  It doesn't seem to matter if they are Dom or sub.  Now there is a difference in the depth and "type" of selfishness it seems.   My true nature is that of a giver and so I am not sure if I am projecting that and then in turn drawing people to me who just take and take and take... Something to think about. 

4/11/2011 7:22:27 AM

Someone brought up the "safe and sane" part of my profile.  I did forget to mention CONSENSUAL ...took that one for granted I suppose.  Anyway, this person said something along the lines of "is what they do safe and sane"? This person went on to mention some of the things they do with their consenting partners.   I mean from a vanilla perspective, none of the things stated would be considered anything close to safe or sane.  However, (repeating self...sorry)  I am a big believer in to each his own and don't believe in casting labels on people.  Also being a psychology major, I don't even know if I believe there is such a thing as "normal"...each person brings his or her own beliefs, ideals, desires, dreams, pasts to the table whenever we meet someone.  It's all a matter of relativity and how each person relates to others as well as how they feel about themselves.  PERSPECTIVE is key... just because I see something as "unsafe" doesn't mean the next person will.  Hence having limits... right?  Soft limits, hard llimits...communication, trust etc are what make a D/s, M/s or bdsm relationships work and feeling safe and secure is probably the most important element.  So I stand corrrected in my statement of expecting safe and sane AND consensual.... not just expect...demand.  =)

4/5/2011 6:10:58 PM

Ok, so I know I have stated that I am drawn to "strong" men.  My tastes do vary however I can honestly say for the most part I like a man who is a "man" and not real feminine.  I like women and so I get the femininity part from them.  Make sense?  Women who are a bit curvy and more "mature"..over the age of 25ish get my attention on first glance.  However it is important to get beyond that.  I find women who are intelligent, witty, have a sense of humor, who are comfy in their own skin, sensual, caring, independent and driven to be the one's who will keep my interest.  It's beyond what's on the outside for me with a man or a woman...what's on the outside might get my attention in the beginning..but that fades very quickly.  I can't stand overbearing, overconfident, cocky, egotistical, self absorbed people..male or female.  If you truly believe you are all that and have no faults then please, please, PLEASE pass me right on by!  It will save us both the time and trouble later on.  LOL  Also, can you please be a bit imaginative enough to send more than a one liner... such as..hey, you look sexy... or hi there..your eyes are beautiful.  Not that I don't appreciate compliments I do.  I mean come on, who doesn't like them?  Just try to be original...tell me something I haven't already heard a million and one times.  If you can...=)

4/3/2011 6:03:55 PM

I suppose it's a good thing to feel like I need to add more and more to my "journal/profile" that means that I am still learning, growing and open to seeing other's point(s) of view. I have stated my feelings on not bowing down or immediately giving someone my total respect/trust etc. I feel those things come with time, patience and much open communication. Someone recently shared with me their p.o.v. and I listened and eventhough I did not agree I understood where they were coming from.  Do not mistake my straightforwardness for pure stubbornness, it's not. I am open to hearing other's opinions and as well as open to having my views swayed/changed. We are all here for a vast array of reasons and no one's is better, more important, bigger or whatever...they are just what they are. If you come to me and give courtesy and/or respect I will most give it back. If you however come to me expecting me to immediately change my ideas, views for you... well then I will probably not even bother responding. I am not one of those people who will ignore messages, even if I am not interested or believe that we are not compatible I will respond and let you know. Please keep in mind that just because i have read your message doesn't mean that I am always able to reply right away. I will reply when I am able...

3/25/2011 9:47:18 AM

Well I felt the need to add some more thoughts and instead of changing my profile all around I figured it would be just as good to put them in a journal entry.

 

First off...I have to say I am not a doormat.... if you are a Dom/Domme I must tell you now I will not just bow down before You.  I respect myself enough and know that I am worth more than just dropping at someone's feet and begging for attention.  Attention comes and goes as well as people in our lives.  I will not give up those important pieces of ME for anyone.  Also, I do have a college degree and can manage to think for myself and well sometimes I actually give my opinion and speak my mind.  If that is something you don't like or tolerate then I am not the one for you. 

 

I believe that there is a huge power exchange and connection to be made when two people get each other and allow each other to be themselves, mutual respect, trust, communication, friendship are all keys to having such a wonderful thing with someone.  Finding it though is like finding a needle in a haystack or even the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow....  if you should be so lucky as to find it...recognize it...care for it...nurture it... and live each day basking in the glow.  :) 

 

 

I still do not have any R/L experience but am learning all sorts of new things about myself and others via online.  Being that my nature is to be very open minded, kind, courteous and respectful to most who initiate contact with me it seems that there are many who seem to think this an open invitation to be rude, inconsiderate, pushy and an all around PITA.  I am going to restate that I am in no way interested in being a slave to anyone..male or female.  So if you think you can change my mind, please move on.   I am not the one you seek.  I am also not a pain slut, so pain is not at the top of my list of things I desire... that being said a spanking by someone I am connected with and trust once in awhile will flip my switch.  Once again, please don't try to label me within your confines of your definitions... I am who I am.  I am an extremely erotic, sensual woman and I enjoy nothing more than giving pleasure to someone I connect with, trust and have chemistry.  I tend to be drawn to strong men (not just physically)..men who are comfortable in their own skin, know who they are, what they want (me..hehe) and go after it.  Men who can be open and honest about what they truly desire from me and they can also admit that I may not be "it".  I can take rejection and know most of the time it's nothing personal.  We all have our own ideas of what we like, desire, want etc in a partner.  Yes, I am bisexual but I seem to be struggling with that side of me on this site as far as finding a woman who has the same kinks as me.  Now I understand a man's perspective and what he must go through on here trying to find that "fit".  :) 

 

So pheww that was longwinded and I am sure I left out some things but it will have to do for now. 

 

If you have made it this far...thanks for taking the time to actually find out a bit more about me.  :) 


3/15/2011 6:46:51 PM

Found this gem and fell in love...

 

"His lap"- author unknown...

 

his lap was her home

no matter the day or the hour

no matter their exhaustion

this was the only place she felt safe

and loved and warm and wanted

it was the one place she could be whatever girl she was inside

in the soft to feverish rush

of the mega-rainbow’d hue that sparkled within her

some days she simply needed to curl up into him

and burrow into his skin, clinging to his loving embrace

like a shivering koala to her favorite tree trunk

in a powerful thunder and lightning storm

sometimes, she’d taunt him coquettishly with her rolling hips

while plying his mouth with the most innocent kisses

and little girl giggling stories of her day

and some seductive moments caused her to plant herself there brazenly

and dig and pinch at his trigger laced body

setting his blast timer ticking

and readying herself for the fiercest liftoff

where she’d be thrown over his shoulder

or pinned and splayed across a hard wall

bent forcefully over their huge oaken table

slammed into the floor

or even paddled over his knee

and taken right there

her face driven hard into his favorite chair



today, he needed her more than he knew

he was weary from a long flight

and a marathon of half-sleepless nights

dinner was on and readying itself

she shed her favorite shirt of his

and straddled his lap with kitten kisses

letting him know in a soft whisper

it was her turn to take care of him

rubbing her feline curves against his skin

plying him with  nuzzling trailed hair

honeyed nipping kisses across his clavicle

light licks upon his nipples and a soft hand  across his belly

she meant only to get his blood flowing

until he replenished and they retired to their bed

but she felt the rock of his desire

pressing at the lock of his jeans

she freed and petted it

slid below and suckled it to radiant swollen perfection

peeled aside her soaking thong

and swallowed his fiery pole inside her velvety sopping walls

and rocked and kissed and rolled them both

to their mounting comet-tailed bliss

and when he exploded into her

it was with such force

that it made her shudder and gasp and fly off with him

and they soared longer and higher than she could ever remember before

she saw a soft tear in his eye

as she slowly alit and wriggled on his still sparking, sighing form

he gripped her like she was about to float away

and he whispered with a deep intensity

“I missed you….”

and once more, she melted into the nest of his lap

letting the cream of their bond soak them to the core

and once more, she curled into him

nearly unable to speak her purring joy

not wanting to move from this home

ever

3/8/2011 7:32:04 PM

Wow, I haven't been on here but a little over a month and am beginning to wonder if you can ever believe most of what people say here.  Feeling like I need to maybe take a step back...

2/15/2011 11:17:57 AM

Wow, asking for money?!?  I really couldn't believe that I read a profile where someone requested money and/ or gifts.   Who does that?  I am not judging..just a bit shocked at the umm nerve? gall? self inflated ego?  Things that make me go...hmmm