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littledeka
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| I feel that, at the moment, my wants will best describe my profile.
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I have a wife. I have a "little girl".
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What I am missing is a complex mix of the following things: a faerie who sings and dances with the music that I write, an intellectual who combines the studies of history/literature/chivalric code/cinematography/spirituality/magic/religion/etc into one coherent discussion, a lover who wishes to deeply philosophize while being slowly and deeply penetrated, an adveturess who wants to role play inside/outside/in private/in public/at clubs/for personal enjoyment/with toys/with ideas/with energy.
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I need to lavish attention, so she must not be put out by multiple texts a day... just to read some bit of entertaining thought I have discovered. No reply is necessary. I just want to share my insights with someone who might enjoy the strange sense of humor I hold.
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I desire to desire, so she must not be upset when I occasionally (or more than occasionally) wish to hold her hand and whisper naughty things into her ear, or even simply breathe in the aroma of her hair.
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I want to talk, discuss, debate... but not argue.
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I am looking for a submissive, longterm lover. There seem to be so few left.
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Does that describe who I am well enough?
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It's been a while, and I've spent it doing a lot of introspection and observation on the whole dynamic of the Daddy/daughter thing. I have come to some very interesting conclusions about my own desires, with the knowledge that many will disagree with me.
I find the D/d relationship one that revolves around a completely different set of desires than can usually be found in the standard Dom/sub or Sado/maso relationship. My want is to try and overwhelm and drown my partner in romance and love. It is her desire to allow herself to be drown in those emotions. It is scarier than being in a purely physically submissive role, because the heart of both partners are the catalyst, rather than the flesh.
This does not require a slave mentality, a humiliation factor, or any sort of pain/punishment... although some do include those portions. The D/d aspect is that of giving each other complete trust of emotion and getting lost in that trust. Dominance only in the viewpoint of protectiveness. Submissive only in the context of submerging emotionally.
And with this definition, I realize why it is so difficult to find a little girl. Flesh is easy. The very soul of romance... that is a frightening situation to allow oneself to be subject to. Especially in this very untrustworthy world.
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I've finally done it! I've registered a domain name and even worked on
the temporary files to make it... well... interesting. Please, visit
and tell me if it's working. I've hidden two songs underneath some
photos for your enjoyment. If I get enough fan mail, I'll continue to
load more thoughts, stories, songs. etc. for you to peruse. http://www.jonniebard.com
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I won't be updating the journal entries very often. I'm not good at it. This is one of the many reasons why I need to find another submissive personal assistant, preferably one who can sing or plays an instrument. But, let me continue... I'm 14 weeks away from my Master's Degree in English Composition and African-American Literature. Yes, I'm going to be a professor (but be warned, not all English majors become teachers). Over the next two weeks the deadlines for apply for jobs throughout America come due. This means that I have such a CHORE ahead of me: gathering letters of recommendation, making lists of what and where, collecting my transcripts, making cover letters, etc. I realize that it's easier for a woman to find a playmate in this world. I simply wish my timing were a bit better in being without my little girl.
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| Age: 41 |
| Hickory,
North Carolina |
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