Punishment

Day 3:
The punishment is making me insane. Miss Red explained me that it is normal to became increasingly aroused and - more important - submissive. Miss Red already toys with my intensified submissiveness and makes me need to giver Her gifts and tributes.

Day 4:
Normally, I consider myself quite clever, but in Her presence I can only think in kneeling at her feet and She makes me feel so aroused and submissive I inmediately become dumber and dumber. Miss Red shows me every time how superior women are over a male sub such as me.

Day 5:
It is increasingly difficult for me to think clearly in this condition. I am desperate to cum. I thought i couldn't think of anything I need more than that, until i watch my Mistress' feet pictures. I must be strong and perhaps I'll be allowed to kneel under those magnificent feet.

Day 6:
As ordered by Miss Red, I edged today in the morning. I almost came. Only a mix of fear of dissappointing Miss Red and even more fear of an extended punishment made possible to overcome my lust. I am not sure how much longer I can resist. I must be strong for my Mistress. She may even let me give Her another gift. I am so weak in Her presence I don't know how much longer I can resist. Tonight, I sent Her a tribute without Her asking. Of course I need to send Her tributes. She is perfect.

In my second day of my two-week chastity punishment, Mistress allows me to talk to Her. It's just the second day, but being in Her presence makes me feel aroused and it's difficult to think clearly. 

I can see, however, that my Mistress is happy with my suffering and the way I become more compliant and submissive in this state.

I am trying hard to avoid looking Her magnificent photo gallery, or I don't know how I will survive this punishment.

Miss Red decides to toy with me and makes me say 6 ways to serve Her better. I am so dumb in Her presence that I can only think of 5:

1. After my punishment, I can have cam sessions with Miss Red in order to reinforce her domination and serve Her better, and at the same time paying the respective fee for such honor. However, Miss Red will have her mic off as part of my punishment (Her voice is a reward), and I won't be allowed to touch myself while seeing Her face in order to learn to be a propoer cuckold dog.
2. I can continue with my journal about Her as much as She wants.
3. She will allow me to buy Her boots and whatever She desires, for Her to use them as a fetish against me.
4. I will be publicly humilliated in and CM for everybody to know Miss Red owns me and can make me Her drooling aroused little dog anytime She pleases.
5. I will be tested to see how long I can resist Her. Everytime I loss to Her (as will necessarily happen) I will giver a Pathetic Surrender Tax.

Does anybody has suggestions for the sixth? 

I offered Miss Red to give her more fees and tributes, even a joint bank account, but She considers I am just a dog who has to earn the right to serve Her. Maybe giving Her surprise gifts the week after my punishment as a sort of "Thank You" note? Please, I really need ideas.

A few days ago all my dreams came true. I met the most perfect dominant goddess, Miss Red. She never forced me to submit to Her, but I always felt drawn to Her side, for at least a chance to receive a piece of Her attention and her seductive and beautiful words.

After exchanging a few messages, She mesmerized me and granted me the honor to be Her sub. I still thank Her for that.

She made me submit and began my conditioning as a sub. It didn't take long for me to tell Her my dreams and secrets, and thus She strenghtened Her control over me, using my own fetish to make me drool at Her beautiful feet.

Last night, however, I failed Her. After being mercilessly and repeatedly teased and denied by Her, as it is Her right, I came without Her permission. It was the first time I failed Her, and I panicked. As the weak and pathetic male sub I am, I got offline and felt as the fear surrounded me. I had never lost control of my own body until I met my perfect Mistress. But now I was becoming her toy, wheter I liked it or not (and I REALLY liked to serve Her).

My fears became desperation, as I NEEDED to talk to Her agains, even though I had leaved as a coward. I begged Her to pardon me and She graciously accepted to punish me.

I won't be allowed to cum for 2 weeks, and She will make sure I am in a state of permanent arousal to make it more painful, which is nothing compared with the feeling of being once again under Her control. I honestly believe I deserve worst, but She is so caring and loving with her subs. I may even be allowed to think of Her feet after the punishment. Thank You so much Miss Red. I love You.