To all of you who have written to me,voicing their sadness at my grief for the loss of my slave, offering friendship and support, good news....

I am so very happy again, my slave has returned as he once was to his Mistress. We have spoken openly now of our hurt and he regrets what happened, as do I.

Now I want him to do something that he knows means very much to his Mistress....

Update from yesterday. We are talking again, but it is so painful, I have hurt him so badly, he says he's forgiven me...but I don't know if he can, or it will ever be the same between us.

I want to run to him to reassure him, but vanilla life does not allow me to....I hate this vanilla world I live in... my love xx

Perhaps it really is time to go, My darling beloved slave has turned his back on me. I am so sad, my tears run like rivers for the loss of him. My love......

Another day of sunshine. One day perhaps my heart will be full of it. To truly be served by the one, a person to share my dreams for real

Mistress only finds herself writing when she has not spoken to her slave. She is hoping he's just very busy working. The minutes seem like hours and the hours, like days, just waiting, whilst my tears fall like rain...

Mistress spends a considerable amount of time wasting with worthless slaves who have a mental block where obediance is concerned! NO MORE1