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So time to do a much better about me section if I really want to experience anything outside the fantasy realm. So I will break it down into three sections Physical , Who I am , and Fantasies.
Physical
I am 610 Near 500lbs ( working on changing that could really use some discipline and help) That being said I am mostly proportional and not weak or and invalid because of it. I am not well endowed, one of the factors in despite my size I am very much a girly boi. As of April 2018 Negative on all STI tests. 420 user for anxiety depression.
Who I am , What I want
I need to be dominated.
I am a Pansexual Sissy Faggot. I dont measure up as a man and could never be a real woman. I spent a long time repressing the fact that I really like dick. I spent even longer repressing that I like being dressed as and treated like a girl. I am incredibly submissive so long as my brain either doesnt have the time or ability to over think , or to doubt the domination. My ideal relationship would be a poly family with at least one male and one female or anyone in between. I would like to be submissive to all in the group but still loved and cared for only degraded, humiliated, or ified during play time. I am not and will not be out of the closet to my family (I think they suspect but the fact that I do currently have a girlfriend,( who is fully aware and supportive of my expanding my horizons as nothing will break our love of the friendship and partnership we have (we may separate romantically but not emotionally))helps them stay in the dark ). So with not being fully out even if i were to find a situation where I was a live in sissy maid (swoon) I would need to be able to put on the straight mask once a year for the holidays. But since I think that relationship is in the future yet and I have a lot of learning to do right now I also just want to be treated like a sissy slut even if not a long term thing. I want to be punished for being naughty and rewarded with cum for being good. I want to be ked , tied up, and the normal gamut of submissive kinks. I am incredibly orally fixated and love eating pussy almost as much as sucking dick, really want to eat a creampie especially if that means I have been cuckolded. I wantneed to be locked in chastity and only let out when I have met all of my goals. In a longer term relationship tied into chores, diet, and exercise as well as general behaviour. Below is BDSMtest results which showed a higher level of wanting age play than I had expected and has started making me wonder if I also fit the little mentality. This would make sense even though that is more often seen in women since really I think that part of my personality would have been the same as well as my submissiveness even if I had been born female.
Results from bdsmtest.org
100 Non-monogamist
94 Submissive
90 Rope bunny
90 Degradee
89 Masochist
82 BoyGirl
79 Slave
79 Primal (Prey)
78 Experimentalist
70 Voyeur
70 Ageplayer
59 Exhibitionist
51 Brat
45 Pet
29 DaddyMommy
25 Switch
23 Degrader
21 Rigger
13 Vanilla
4 Primal (Hunter)
4 Dominant
3 Brat tamer
1 Sadist
1 MasterMistress
1 Owner
Fantasies
Cuckold, feminized sissy, chastity, gang bang , bukake, slut, Sissy Maid, Creampie, king, bondage, wax play, bound gagged and blindfolded, Tied to a horse or St Andrews cross , Caned , paddled, whipped. Tattooed or branded as a sissy or as property of , Losing decision making abilties. Humiliation. Submitting even to other sissies and slaves.
Limits
Scat.
Other then that I have spent too much time in fantasy which has led to some depraved thoughts so I need to figure out where my limits are but I also want to push past them and exist be molded into what my dominant wants. Safewording only in extreme circumstances so long as there is the ability to discuss afterwards being a full slave is not the fantasy but I might beable to work towards that if i am allowed to think.
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