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I am a married, Asian-American female. Since I joined this site, my marriage has evolved from a vanilla one to one in which I submit to my husband as my Dom in all things sexual or sexually related. Since that change, I am much happier. Recently he has begun to share me on a limited basis with his best friend, and has said he intends to share me with other men in the future, including some of his friends and our neighbors, but only he can decide who they will be. He told me that he has already shown some of the erotic pics he has taken of me to several of them. Knowing that makes me embarrassed and humiliated when I talk to them, not knowing which of them has seen the pics.
My Dom-husband knows how much those feelings arouse me, and I think that is why he does it. I do have his permission play with other Doms, but he has restricted that to purely online text-based exchanges, such as chat or email, and only when it does not detract from my time with him. That rule also precludes any voice or cam.
Although i am highly independent in the rest of my life, i have a deep seated submissive steak with regard to anything sexual. What turns me on is much less important to me than what gives a Dominant pleasure. I get much of my own pleasure from serving a Dominant and fulfilling his desires, so other than the limits I mentioned above, I have few. My Dom-husband has told me he might allow me to share some of the pictures he has taken of me with an online Dominant, but I must first ask permission, and he will decide which of them I can share. For the right online Dominant, I also have permission to per offline tasks and report back to him on them in detail, as long as they can be accomplished without posing an unreasonable risk.
My submissive nature is strong, and at times I can not resist it calling to me so strongly that I can not ignore it. Perhaps such online relationships of that nature will help me to fulfill at least a portion of those needs that churn frustratingly inside me when my Dom-husband is not available... the needs to serve, to be used for the pleasure of another, to be controlled, and to please.
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