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I seek real honest good people in this world both inside the realm of kink and out of it and you can never have too many friends--so say hello, I only bite the people I like ;)

Im currently single and offering to teach/train anyone who's interested and who is relatively local to me. (there has been a lot of newbies flooding this site lately...no offense but please dont dive into something uninformed, people do get hurt on occasion from someone whos clueless or abusive) (Ive been meaning to post a lot of educational material for a while, so stay tuned or become a journal subscriber)


Over the years Ive had submissives of the domestic sort and submissives in just the bedroom some were really hard core masochists others were fairly tame.
Ive enjoyed tormenting a few play partners platonically and held a slave girl or two who thought 24/7 was nice in theory but found it a bit much in real life --I can be very demanding. I always try to part as friends if the other person is honorable. --for all of that the longest relationship Ive ever been in was actually vanilla with some old fashioned norms thrown in. --we are people first and foremost, then slaves and masters.

I've had Dark Side/CPA/WMPE/ Society-Space membership cards and occasionally you might see me in a public scene.. though Im more into the relationship aspects of D/s... the ideal of ownership.. of control... of power...than all the SnM toys and bondage gear...I have at the moment a decent sized toy bag with just about everything you could want and about half the edge play tools (my violet wand broke :( -- personally I prefer to use my hands and my cock to inflict pain.
I am a playful sadist...Ill often just pull you onto my lap to smack your ass, wrap my hands around your throat bite you or pinch your nipples...just to enjoy the hiss of your indrawn breath to feel your pulse quicken and to know you're becoming aroused and wet from the pain you let me cause you. Ive been told I can be surprizingly gentle and affectionate in bed...but sex will last for hours unless I can get the intensity of hurting you...sexual sadism is most akin to rough sex or rape play...My cock at 8 inches long and 6.5 around while not the largest is perfectly capable of reaching and tapping your cervix in almost any position I prefer to be able to see the pain in your eyes or hear your whimpers of pain while I pin you to the bed and fuck you brutally the same is true for a blow job unless I can force your head down and feel and hear you gag I really dont get much out of it....enjoyable for sure but no release.

I enjoy forced anal and would give you an enema to make sure you are clean inside and out...its important to know that you wont deny me anything of your body.
My limits are dishonesty, drama, gross immaturity, disloyalty, stealing, cheating, blatant disobedience, smoking and drug use. while Im open minded and very tolerant Im also extremely ethical, and Ill be holding you to my high standards in a relationship

I will expect you to behave yourself...acting like a disobedient bratty child or a poorly trained pet gets you disciplined like one. I usually dont require an honorfic but prefer Daddy to Master....and my name will suffice for the most part with a yes sir to be extracted when I need to make sure you are paying attention.
I am a natural Dominant a bit of a chauvanist and while laid back am very confident in my ability to reign you in, help you out and take over. In public I do in fact act like and old fashioned gentlemen in some things: lending you my coat, lady's first, holding doors, ordering meals, dancing etc. In my eyes you are property to be cherished protected and used as my most valued possession. The taken in hand concept should be acted upon more often. Ideally 24/7 complete slavery is where Id like to take a long term relationship...having control of all aspects of your life taking you shopping so you can model outfits for me, having you turn over your paycheck so I can plan the family budget for us, doing the majority of the driving, making sure your health is kept up diet and exercise, restricting your alcohol consumption if need be. And seeing to your health (when pregnant), when the time comes.

This is not to say I dont want your advice, I will ask what you are thinking and expect you to give me an honest answer, being a dominant does not make one a mind reader. If you seriously hate or want something you need to tell me, good decisions are based on good information. the welfare and well being of my girl is a priority to me....that being said my word is law and will be strictly enforced.
Ideally Id like a submissive thats eager to please me in everything she does and my dissappointment in her punishment enough. You can expect to be kept naked at my request, or bound to the bed on a whim ;) Hygene is a pet peeve of mine and I feel underware and pubic hair are both undesirable on a girl, your skin will be kept smooth, your body hairless, clean and sweet smelling...I love the taste of pussy and I like to have access to your body at all times. I like slutty clothing on a girl as much as I like to see her in classy cloths and know she is my dirty little whore underneath. I am most attracted to petite slender and fit women the tinier the better, A submissive can expect from me that I will help her improve her self on all levels educational, skills, career, fitness, comportment, confidence and self esteem. She can also expect strictness and consistancy of rules. She can expect that with her help I shall assure there is a always a roof over our heads, food on the table and the bills are paid ;) and anything mechanical is fixed. She can count on a good deal of my attention and to be kept in a constant state of arrousal through continual foreplay....this all being said while I wish to increase the value of my property ...we both know you are in fact a useless little whore good for nothing but acting as my cum dumpster ;) As for my career at the moment I am in Medical school and investing and buying rental property on the side.

Orginally trained as scientist, I can teach up to the collegiate level, or free lance as a tutor. Ive considered jobs in finance with AG edwards, as a Patent examiner in DC, and even thought of joining the special forces. Im highly educated and ambitious but not materialistic in the slightest my fortunes may rise and fall but I don't feel the need to worry overly much about it.
To sum it up Im a Man nothing more nothing less...what everyone else calls a dominant is what Ive always thought was what a man was supposed to be...I've never wanted a 50/50 wife I want an obedient loyal and devoted slavegirl I can depend on, with white hot sexual chemistry whose willing to back me 110% in any direction I choose to take our family. --ask me to clarify anything I may have missed. -- oh if youre interested in me as potential mate/Dom etc...please send me a picture I like to have a face and a name to match the chat. Just some quotes to think about To laugh often and much; To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived, This is to have succeeded. Whoso would be a man must be a nonconformist. Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood. The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friendship. Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs. Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them. Conservatism makes no poetry, breathes no prayer, has no invention; it is all memory. Reform has no gratitude, no prudence, no husbandry. It was a high counsel that I once heard given to a young person, ‘Always do what you are afraid to do.’ That which we persist in doing becomes easier for us to do; not that the nature of the thing itself is changed, but that our power to do is increased. A chief event of life is the day in which we have encountered a mind that startled us. When Nature has work to be done, she creates a genius to do it. The only way to have a friend is to be one. The only reward of virtue is virtue What lies behind us and What lies before us Are small matters Compared to What lies Within us. Become Love In Action
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I've been growing and exploring kink since I was 18. However, I am still learning and will post educational essays, poems and stories from time to time for your viewing pleasure.


I expect to be busy with Medical school but I am always open to making new friends and teaching you what I know of this world; please feel free to say hello.


Ad Veritas Sine Misericordia --
Towards Truth Without Mercy

The motto above reflects my desire to understand the inner workings of the world and of human nature; irregardless of how uncomfortable those truths might be.

speaking of truth, here is a little of my own.

History:
I grew up poor and rough, and bounced around between family as a kid. While I started school with welfare lunch tokens, I finished from a private boarding school and then went on to obtain a BS in Biotechnology after a stint working in a hospital that effected me greatly. I worked my way through college as a personal fitness instructor, an athletic trainer and as a tutor.

Money however has always been tight, I took a year off to work and teach before being accepted into a PhD program for Cancer research and Nanotechnology. Only to decide 4 four years later it was the wrong path to take, all the work has been done but the thesis dissertation still remains to be written.

I've tried my hand at entrepreneurship three times thus far, first in refurbished lab equipment, then starting an independent record label, and most recently in land development and sustainable construction. The last is still slowly moving forward and Ive become quite the expert on eco living and alternative energy over the years.



12/11/2006 9:16:15 AM

Daddy Stories--
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The Sun beats down on your tanned flesh. A pair of over sized shades your only clothing. Passing by its hard to take my eyes off the scenery; the grass green, the sky blue, the blanket white and made of some sort of big fluffy towel material, and completing the portrait, your skin nut brown and hairless. Lying back on the blanket you look like some sort of Hindu goddess your sex offered up to the solar gaze and to mine as well.

On a whim I decide that I’d like to do more than look---grinning I move stealthy up to you. I crouch down and in one fluid movement wrap an ankle in each hand and spread your slender thighs far apart. I chuckle as you let out a squawk of surprise and indignation. Ignoring your protests and overpowering your feeble resistance, easily muscling your legs into a flat split just the way I want you; open, vulnerable, and helpless.

I breath in your scents; mixed in with your sweet tang, I can smell your sun warmed flesh and some sort of berry and nut tanning oil… Your pussy now glistens bald and mere inches from my gaze…but feasting my eyes on a closer look wasn’t the point of this ---I’ve got feasting of another sort on my mind.

One long slow languorous lick from bottom to top and all thoughts of resistance leave your mind. Your hands come down on my head hoping to keep me at my feast awhile longer, but after a few moments of sucking, nuzzling and licking you’re ready to come and I rise up from my feeding… and from in between your thighs. Freeing your ankles and pinning your wrists up above your head, I lower myself to kiss you as you wrap your legs around me and try unsuccessfully to grind your clit against my hip.

"Oh no you don’t little girl" I chuckle. "Daddieeeee" you whine, "this isn’t fair, I can hardly think straight anymore". I smile "That was the point babygirl." We’ve been at this for nearly two days now, with me keeping your body at a fever pitch of arousal, and your tiny pussy soaked with the need to orgasm.

---This is a game I know well and one you’re just learning. To stop resisting and to learn to yield these are the concepts you’ve yet to truly grasp, but to teach your body and your mind I’m going to have to train you into wanting the same things I want. ---I’m going to have to train you to beg for it, because with Daddy’s oversized cock and his penchant for petite little girls, it's going to hurt no matter what I do…but you knew that when you arrived early Friday evening. What you didn’t know was that you’d be tortured with orgasm denial (smirk) when it comes to control Daddy’s much, much better than you are, he has to be.

"Fuck me, Oh please Fuck Meeee…eeeee please" hahaha your desperation is so amusing. Friday night you’d swore you’d never beg for it… yesterday mornings fun had changed that…and it’s now Sunday afternoon…the tension is building inside of you and it’s almost time. With a twinkle in my eye I say "soon".

You give me one of your almost irresistible pouts "you said that yesterday". "Soon, now lets tan the other side of you", I say as I casually flip you over onto your belly. I squirt some of the tanning oil on my hand and start to rub into your shoulders, back and buttocks spreading your thighs as I go and massaging your anus and so close to your slit you’re starting to squirm again. Thinking "soon" is "now" you reach for me again…

"SMACK" right on the sweet spot… "Owieee, Daddy that stings" but you quickly go back to your tanning position…obedience is another new thing you’re learning, being a spoiled brat your entire life doesn’t help, but it’s something that’s about to change. "Good girl" I say as I continue to rub the oil into the backs of your thighs and massage your calves. "Come inside in 30 minutes". I lightly pat your bottom before standing up to leave you to your tanning.

It may be the beautiful weather, the fresh air or the simply the exhaustion of having a vibrator inside you waking you up every 15 minutes all through last night but for whatever reason you doze off.

And are startled awake when your phone rings next to your ear. You pick it up dreading the fact you’ve failed me. "You overslept and are now five minutes late, come to me now". (click) Scooping up your towel, your oil, and your phone you rush inside, bottom already warming in anticipation of the spanking you know you deserve.

You drop your things on the cushioned whicker chair as you enter the sunroom and turn to your left entering the gym, to be met by a mirror covered wall, exercise equipment and me. "sorry" you meekly began to say…but I cut you off before much more than that comes out… "Put on the heels and come here" I say and you quickly do so approaching in mincing little steps you stand before me. Even with me seated on the weight bench and you standing in the spiked heels before me it is obvious who is in control and who towers over whom. The fact that I’m still dressed in Khakis and white dress shirt and you’re naked might play a factor as well.

I reach out and grab your hair, yanking you to me, throwing you off balance and trapping you in between my legs, I easily bend you over my left thigh and your ass is suddenly up in the air and "very" exposed.

"Whack, whack, whack" Three firm slaps from my palm land in rapid succession so fast you couldn’t even draw breath or start to cry but a second later it registers in your brain and oh god does it sting. "Alicia, you have a bad habit of being late…punctuality in you is something I desire." "Will this happen again?" "No Sir" you whimper…at least you hope not.

I keep you bent over my knee gently caressing your back running my fingers through your hair and stroking your now tender bottom. "Mmmm… somebodies wet" I say as I slip a finger along your slit and slowly start to stroke you towards an orgasm you know you’lll not be allowed to have. "No Daddieee….no no nooo not again no please." As tears of frustration come unbidden to your eyes…orgasm denial is definitely not one of your favorites…"Shhhh shhh this belongs to me baby…as does all of your body, do you understand." "Yes", you say, with a soft sigh.

I stand you up and brush your hair back from your face and gently kiss away your tears and then your lips. "Are you sure this is what you want baby?" You’re stubborn I know and hate to feel you aren’t good enough…with a defiant glint to your eye you nod your head in the affirmative… sometimes it’s almost too easy to manipulate you.

"Say your mantra" and you do. "I am a possession your most cherished possession and I will make you proud to own me, I will not resist you, I will be obedient and devoted to you in all things. My pain, my pleasure, my thoughts, my body, my time all belong to you. I exist to please you. Once I take the final step; I will have no choice, I will have no control, I will give everything I am and everything I will be, to you, my lover, my husband, my daddy, my master."

As you say it the words start to sink in, giving up that much control is scary…and I can see it in your eyes as you say it. "You’re not ready for that yet my beautiful baby bird but someday you will crave it" and with a smile we both share…I say "…today… today I will take just your body."

"but first…hands above your head wrists crossed" as you do a length of white silky rope appears in my hands and I trace it over your stomach and breasts and up the sides of your arms…before expertly tying your wrists together. I spend a minute admiring how splendid you look and tell you so…and then take out a black satin blind fold. I pull your hair out of the way and again take my time caressing your neck your body and everything else before darkness enfolds your senses and you're left with only my touch to guide you in this journey.

I push you to arms length and tell you to stand still and to not move. I then quickly peel off my own cloths…this is the first time I’ve been naked before you and even now you can’t see what’s in store…"the cookie monster" has a way of terrorizing petite little girls like you…just the way I like it.

I slowly circle around your trembling body running my hands all over you before sitting back down and drawing you to me…you place your bound hands over my head as you straddle my hips. Your tiny pussy soaked for days with the need to come and to have me inside of you hungrily seeks out my massive cock and your rubbing against me quickly slicks up both up. You’re ready and we both know it…its time.

"Save a horse, ride a cowboy" I chuckle and you do…or at least you attempt to.

You’ve only ever been with one boy before, and this cock definitely belongs to a man, not some little boy. "whoo whoo hooo oooooh its tight ti—ti…tight, oh god I’m so tight" and now you finally understand why I’ve been working you into a sexual frenzy of want for the last few days. You need to want this as bad as I do…and you certainly will by the time this is over…I want to own you forever so matching your libido to mine is a must.

You brace your forearms on my shoulders and use my neck as a lever trying to control the rate of entry…you’ve always been interested in dilation…but if you could see what I see…an image of your pussy obscenely stretched over my girth with still half its length to get up inside of you…perhaps you’d change your mind…blindfolds are good things.

Having gone as far as you’re gonna go you start to grind down on me slowly as it hurts some being this opened up…"It’s in oh It’s in…I don’t think I can come with this inside me…you moan" I say baby you’ve got four more inches to go and with that I surge to my feet. Impaling you upon my cock. "Gangster style" I growl into your ear… your legs spread wide and resting in the crook of my arms my hands wrapped around your slender waist and your bound hands around my neck. "Ouch ouch ouch stop ohh no no ouweee daddieee the pressure the pressure"….you’re still fighting me, still resisting something you know you’re not supposed to do. "Relax, relax" I croon "shhhh shhh you can do this baby, you can do this"

You do somewhat but you’re still crying still breathing heavy still tense…In the mirror I can see it as I slowly pull out all but an inch of my cock from your splayed out body suspended as you are on my arms. God you look so small, so beautiful, so good. The size disparity between us is fantastic and your dark hair cascading down your back contrasts wonderfully with the white silk ropes…oh I want you… and I will have you…if I do it right.

Slowly I begin to pump back up inside of you all the while whispering soothing words…the pleasure starts to outstrip the pain…and I don’t go all the way in…not yet…you start getting into it and soon you’re riding me, moving with me and the pleasure that wonderful tension that’s been with you for days…it’s coming in a tidal wave of passion its building and building and building and through your inarticulate moans I hear you beg me "ohhh DADIEEEEE PLEASE LET ME COME" ---"Come for me, come for me now baby"…and you do like a supernova. Rhythmic spasms ripple through your being, instantly you’re flushed, sweating, uncontrollably trying to flail as I crush you to me… an Orgasm with out ending…it just goes on and on and on. Finally shuddering itself out as you collapse into me arms still suspended by nothing more than my manhood.

"damn you’re a screamer" I chuckle into your ear "what? Huh? " You’re totally empty at least your mind is… That tiny little pussy still has a good six inches of me in you but that’s not all the way… "Relax" I say –"mmmm ok" as you nuzzle into my neck your head lolling on my shoulder and slowly I begin to lower you all the way down on top of me…eight inches doesn’t sound like much but when its pressing up behind your belly button and quite a bit thicker than your wrist. It’s a lot to take for a itty bitty girl like you…and that’s exactly what I like.

At first it is too much and then, then a miracle happens, your pussy blossoms. There is no other way to describe it, it just opens up for me, unfolds and adjusts to me and I start to take long slow thrusts all the way up inside of you so deep I must be touching your soul… you’ve become a limp little rag doll, a fuck doll, MY fuck doll and there is no way in hell I’m letting you go…not now, not ever.

The pace of my thrusting increases, You’re mine I growl into your ear MINE ---"Yes oooh YES" you moan. You’ve never been this deliciously filled up and you can’t imagine ever going back to anything else god this is sooo good and you’re getting ready to come again. The tension that’s been building wasn’t yours alone and now that you’ve been released from want…its my turn…you can feel my body stiffening, my breath becoming ragged, my grip on you tightening.

But as much as Id love to come inside of you I don’t want you pregnant just yet baby. --- I raise you high off of me and set you down before me. Your legs collapse beneath you and like you were meant to, you kneel at my feet, blindly seeking with your bound hands and your mouth that which you crave. My cock, my seed…your lips distend around it and you double fist it deep into your mouth, you come again and the force of your orgasm whips your head down on my cock as I grasp your hair in my hands holding your head at that most amazing depth. Just as you think you cant take it anymore your spasming throat exquisitely tight around my cock I erupt inside of you…and you come again sucking me down like the cock starved whore I know you are…good girls we both know swallow it to the last drop.

In the aftermath I sit back on the bench with you between my legs I stroke your hair as you continue to lick and suck my cock… "baby, stop" hey phew whhooo hey its getting a bit much" too much….Its hard to tell with your mouth so full of meat…but if I could see behind the blindfold Id bet your eyes are smiling…they say "my turn" actually you are smirking after all… Chuckling---"what have I unleashed in my little Alicia."

Guess we’ll just have to find out now won’t we?

The End…for now



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I need you to open your heart and your mind to me as much as your body

getting into your body is easy honey

I want into your soul

and that takes time and trust and love

you need to be held

and when I feel your soul is opening up to me

like your sweet little pussy has

I will make love to you

all day and all night

Do you understand...

Babygirl

that you will be bound to me forever

there is no escape

there is no resistance

and you will belong to me

heart body mind and soul

Daddy will take you in all ways baby

hard and rough and naughty

bound and spread wide

from behind and from the front

standing kneeling sitting lying down

Daddy will fuck his little girl

he will use her throat and her pussy and her mouth

he will degrade her

and spank her

and milk her

and make her drink his seed and take it up her ass

there will be times for pain

and times for pleasure

but the first time

the first time darling

will be for love

because you are what daddy has been searching for his whole life

even when he didn't know it

and he is what you have needed even though you didn't know it

the first time will be for love

I will have you buried beneath me

you will be on the bed

and I will be over you

I will look into your eyes

and kiss away your tears of joy

I will reach down and flip you over

so you’re face down again

I will have you relax your ass

and tilt your hips up

I will have you spread your thighs

and expose that wonderful pink vulnerable opening that makes you a girl

I will breathe you in

and stroke my finger along your slit

I will feel your juices

and bring them to my lips

I will turn your head so that you can taste yourself on my lips

in a loving kiss

I will ask you if you’re ready

and you will wiggle your bum and give me a shy smile

and say not a word

but your eyes will say yes

take me daddy I’m ready and I'm yours

and from behind with your hips to me I shall slide into your tight little vortex of bliss

and enter you

completely

filling you

all the way

and more

I will cup a breast in my hand

and taste a nipple if I can

I will grasp your throat

and pull you into me

I will nibble on your ears and your lips and your neck

I will be touching you everywhere

I will move inside you

pulling out almost all the way

and make you beg

I will make you back up into me

to make sure I am what you need to be complete

we will go faster

and deeper

and you....

will soak the sheets

and your pussy will spasm and clench

like a warm wet velvet glove...that really is too small for daddy

but feels ooooohhhh soooo gooood

for us both

I will slow down each time you get close to cumming

and make you catch your breath

and plead to never stop

you will pout and I will chuckle

and you will yield

to me

and to the fate I choose for you

if I want you to cum

You will cum

and If I want you in breathless agony

from not cumming

I will keep you that way

when I feel your pussy

out of control

desperate

needing

dying without my cum inside of you

I shall have you flip over

never pulling out

and we will put your legs behind your head

and I will kiss you and suckle you

and devour your throat

and then

then

I will pound you in earnest

nothing to get in the way

nothing to stop me

your legs and ass

all moved out of the way

just your beautiful pink petals

and my thick cock slamming into your body

your center

desperate to fill you up

to place my self inside of you

to send my seed into your womb

to create a life out of the love I bear for you

and to have you yield to my desire...

to have you surrender your entire life to me

and for me to take care of you

to have you

and hold you

to fuck you

to make you mine and never let you go

and I will look into your eyes

and hear you whimper in pain

and drive my self further into your tiny body

and then I will erupt inside of you and set off a shock wave inside your being

your pussy will spasm trying to suck my essence further into you body ...

to take me inside of you....

like I know you want me to

and I will shudder and fall on you

and relax...and you will wrap your arms around me

and be happy at last for finding true love

...and that my sweet baby girl is how daddy will take you the first time

 

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…Its a November storm and the rain is cold…

The wind is howling and the rain is beating on the roof with a fury not seen in years

The power has gone out and you’ve come to my room

The bond between us draws me from my dreams and I sense your presence …I sit up and there you are a my porcelin skinned green eyed angel… my little girl…Daddy’s girl

There’s little light…but it’s a full moon and even through the clouds there is enough to see by

You’re standing in the doorway

Hesitating

not wanting to disturb Daddy from his much needed rest…

You’re in a sheer white silk chemise that comes down just over your bumm… and like the good girl you are …the rest as instructed is kept bare.

Your hair all loose

like a black satin….

Your face is pale

Summers freckles and tan long gone you’ve gone back to looking like a fey sprite out of some welsh legend.

I drink in the sight of you

And in the shadows I smile …you’re my little girl…and there is nothing I’d deny you…just as you’d deny me nothing

You are mine… to teach, to guide, to protect. to raise up as a girl was always meant to be raised in complete love trust and safety.

You are mine and I am yours it’s a simply as that…the years ahead may part us but I know you’ll always come back to me no matter how many boys might enter your life…Daddy will always be first and Daddy will always be there. For Daddies as we both know baby…are forever.

The empathic bond works both ways it seems…seeing or perhaps maybe sensing me awake

You become animated lol my little elvish girl. I open my arms you climb into bed and we quickly get you under the covers to share daddies warmth…Daddy’s are good for that even better than teddy bears and electric blankets you know.

The storm gets worse and we light a candle in the dark…I know the roads will be covered in ice tomorrow and Ill be staying home with you.

In the candles soft glow, we sit with you nestled between my legs and the covers pulled up to your chin…you lean back against me pressing your back against my broad naked chest, my arms wrapped around your thin frame as my hands caress you gently. Your head is tucked beneath my chin…and a sigh of contentment comes with every breath…if little girls were cats…you’d be purring…

You tilt your head backwards and I look down at you and kiss you so softly on the lips…your eyes glimmer even in the gloom they sparkle with a mischievous light….I break out in a chuckle as I say the words with you…the words I knew were coming as sure as the dawn will come…I tickle you as you start to say it..

Brat

You know Daddy will deny you nothing

We’ve been here before and we will be here again.

Giggling the words come tumbling out…I say them with you in your sing song voice

-----Daaaaaddddddddeeee Tell Me A Story----

Once upon a time...

there was a king

who had three daughters

and his youngest daughter looked just like you

------"I like this story already daddy----

and she was daddy's favorite

-------"but of course she was heheheh"-----"hush pumpkin"… "are you gonna interrupt me the whole way through…remember what happened last time you were rude…I raised you better baby girl… (lol I can already feel your bumm in my lap grow hot just remembering the spanking) you grab my hand and and with a flourish pop it over your mouth…saying not a word…after a bit you close your eyes, start sucking my thumb…silent…you await daddies voice

"anyways"---I begin to re-collect the thread of the story

she used to crawl into her daddies bed

when she got scared

and he would hold her

and explain that the thunder and lightning were nothing to be afraid of

but the princess wouldn’t always believe him

and she would burrow under the covers

everytime the thunder crashed

she would go further underneath

and cling to daddies torso all the more

and he would stroke her head under the covers and stroke her back

and say its all right honey nothing can hurt you

daddies here

and she would smile

and snuggle in close

now the king was a widower

and being without a queen

is tough on a man

so with a sweet young girl snuggled up to him

it was kinda of hard to…. well control the hardness

-----"Baby you still awake?" "yes daddy I am listening", "Good girl" I hug you closer

are you still awake? the king would say

and she would nod

and say yes I love you daddy

and he would chuckle and say oh I love you to honey

but you need to come up from out of there

and the littlest princess said "why??? I like it here its warm and safe and daddy is so close"

and then she noticed this strange warmth coming from right beneath her cheek

and it got bigger and hotter and bigger and hotter

til it was pressing into the little girls face

and she said Daddy are you ok?

do you have a boo boo

do you want me to kiss it better daddy?

and the king said ..no honey...its not right

but Daddy I love you

and I want to make it better

and the king said little girl you need to come up right this instant....you’re causing daddy to have a problem

but he said it so forcefully

that he scared his little girl

and she began to cry

and she said Nooooo Daddy I love you

dont Be Maaaddd at me

and then she got an idea

she had seen one of her sisters do this to a young knight in the castle

and she grasped Daddies thing in both hands

it was sooo hot and hard and it pulsed

and she put her mouth on it...or she tried to anyways

mmmmmm daddy

she was just an itty bitty thing

and everyone knew shed grow into a gorgeous beauty

and that her father the king was VERY protective of her

-----my own cock long since hard… jutts up between your thin thighs your small hands barely wrapped around its girth and…without warning followed by a tongue lapping up the sweet slippery precum.I shudder and totally get distracted…only regaining my wits with effort…deep breath ..oh yes where were we… the story… right the story----

the little girl has got the kings throbbing cock in her hot little hands and is trying to suck her Daddy with all her might...and the king...the king had just frozen

he didnt know what to do...he did know that NOTHING IN HIS ENTIRE LIFE had felt this GOOD

and before he knew it

he had his hand on her head

and was teaching her to bob up and down

he’d whisper...no teeth my sweet

that’s a good girl

and...even though she couldn’t smile with that cock in her mouth

she was smiling on the inside

and she just knew

that she could make her daddy very happy

if she could only get all of him in her mouth

..the only problem is that she was so small and inexperienced that she didn’t know how to get that giant cock all the way in

she pulled up a bit and POP

his cock came out

the king looked down at her

and "said daughter...are you having fun making daddy feel good?" with a soft smile on his lips

and she said "yes daddy"

...but then she got a frustrated look on her face

she said "Daddy I want to ...you know make you feel really really good"

but I can’t do it...

I keep choking

but I want to get more of you in my mouth....but there isn’t any more room

and the little girl began to cry again

shhhh shhh no no honey

you did fine for your first time

and you’ll get better

but "daddeeee...I want the cock now"

"I dont want to wait"

and "I dont want to practice on any one else"

"I want you daddy...only you"

well honey the king said

the reason you’re choking is called a gag reflex...what’s that says the princess...sounds nasty

lol the king chuckles oh …its the bane of all good little girls and their fathers everywhere

there out to be a law about training a girl to get rid of it from a young age

lol

she nods emphatically

"you should do it Daddy"

you are the king after all

lol no no baby...they would have me de-throwned

this has to stay just between you and me ...our little secret ok

...can I tell my sisters the littlest princess says

I tell them everything you know

ok ok you can tell the other girls

but no one else ok

ok ok Daddy

She then gets a sly look in her eye

Daddy---you said there was a way to train around this gag reflex thingy

..can you train me

hmmmm I dont know baby...you’re awful small still

I don’t want to hurt you

the king had to painfully adjust at that time

"what’s wrong daddy?"

the king grimaced...we should outlaw that too he says with a wry grimace

outlaw what daddy

blue balls

what are those she asks

it’s when a man gets excited and can’t get any release...like now

oh nooo daddy I don’t want you to have blue balls

it’s all my fault

it’s ok honey...the king says

Ill be ok

"no no no no"

you always taught us to make it better and care about other people to fix what we made wrong

I need to fix this no matter what

help me get rid of this gag reflex daddy

there might not be room in my mouth for you

but there is room in my throat

you can fit in there

and the king gets a little glint in his eye

baby girl...are you sure...and she nods vigorously

yes yes yes daddy stick it all the way down my throat no matter what it takes I need to take care of my daddy

ok he says

time to make my good little girl into a good little slut

and he says ok honey

go back to what you were doing before

and she grabbed that monster cock and < pop > it goes back in

lips tight around it making a slurpy vacuum seal

and the king sat up a bit

and put one hand on his daughters head and the other on the base of his cock

and he started saying encouraging words--thats my good girl...such a good girl up down up down a little more now

and she would get in some but that horrible gag reflex

would always get in her way

and she started to choke and struggle against the king...

at first he got a little angry at her but then he knew he had to let her up

and up she came

tears and salvia dripping and soooooo sad

daddy Im sorry Im sorry

I love you

I want to make you happy daddy

but I just dont have the will power on my own

shhhh shhh he said to his little girl its ok

and she rested her head on his lap and he stroked her hair

but her little hand cam down on the kings balls

which were very sensitive by this time

ouch he said and the little girl was startled

oh daddy nooo I forgot about the blue balls

oh daddy what can I do...

she started to cry again

and all the kisses her daddy gave her wouldn’t help

finally she knew what she had to do...

she had to suck it up be a woman and suck some damn cock

she said "daddy"

I don’t care about the choking or the gag reflex

a daughter should take care of her father

and that’s what I’m gonna do

and with a fierce gleam in her eye she said daddy I want you to fuck my throat all the way

don’t hold back

give me everything

and don’t let my struggles bother you

this is what I want to do for my daddy to please him and take care of his needs

ok honey...if that’s what you really want

and she said yes daddy that’s what I really want

ok and the king took out a pair of handcuffs from his bed side table and put them on his little girl

with her hands bound behind her back

she didn’t have a chance of resisting...just the way the king liked his women...and his little girls

slowly the king bobbed her head up and down on his shaft

at first she stopped at four inches

but then he was pushing her past

but just a bit and for not long enough

and he knew he was going to have to hurt his little girl to get off

but...

this is what she wants he thought to please me...and she did ask for it...what a lucky father I am to have a sweet devoted girl like her

so he said honey Im going to hurt you ok

Im going to force it all the way in,,down to the base

ok honey

and even though her mouth was full of cock she nodded and made affirmative sounds

and daddy began to fuck his little girls face in earnest

at the six inch mark

and then all of a sudden

he thrust her face all the way down

and kept her there

and her body began to involuntarily struggle and buck

and her throat spasmed about his cock in exquisite tightness

and the king went off like a rocket to heaven and poured his seed down her throat to feed his little girls belly

and he spurted again and again

but the princess had passed out

and the king withdrew his spent member and her face tried to follow it not wanting to let it out of her throat but eventually it came free and the little girl came around and when she woke it was with a gigantic contented smile for her daddy and she knew she was a good little girl for pleasing daddy and he loved her

off you go babygirl..it’s almost dawn and you need to get back to your room said the king

and she did…with a little smile on her face that said she knew this wouldn’t be the last time she would take care of her daddy

The End

---In the real world…you had fallen asleep and we lay spooned together with your bumm to me and my cock poking up between your cunny lips I brushed your hair from your face and watched you give a contented smile as you sighed and snuggled closer up against me…fast asleep and dreaming of the morning when you would have to drain your own Daddies cock and solve his blue balls….but that baby girl is another story.

7/6/2006 4:06:33 PM
TES fest 06 simply rocked so many great demos and lectures so many cool people to talk to ...so great to simply express who I really am to someone and have them just smile, laugh and nod.

It also caused me to seriously re-evalute my life in terms of kink...I am both more experienced and more a novice than I once thought.

D/s expert, SnM average BnD novice

I don't think Ive ever been in a relationship as an adult that did not involve D/s  my default is take to charge. 

My fetishes are in fact TPE, Rape play, Age Play, Care Giving and Mind Play...I like to get into peoples heads and will definately be learning more hypnosis perhaps in conjunction with a mind fuck caning (thank you boymeat)

Ive been a sadist for a long time...I also grew up in a rather rough neighborhood and in a physically abusive home...so perhaps thats a reflection on it...but how many of you gave your childhood friends "Daily beatings" when they got annoying huh?

In most relationships Ive enjoyed spanking, deep/hard penetration, forced oral and forced anal, breath play (been doing strangulation for quite sometime),  humilation and degradation, enemas and piss play are old hat to me...I will admit I  went through a period in college where if a girl didn't do what she was told I tossed her and got another one...(not proud of it, but its difficult to operate without a compass)

the BnD is where Im most deficient, honestly the props aren't that appealing I like to use my hands, and its more efficient to use quick connects and permanent cuffs and collars even though I will admit rope is pretty and takes enormous skill (I used to rock climb so I know a how much there is to forget)

still I broke my crop on a friends ass and need to get another one, I own something cane like but not a real ratan one (used to think they were wimpy again thank you boymeat), floggers eh got a rope one I almost never use preferring my thick leather belt.  whips likewise cool to learn but $400 eh gads Im gonna have to borrow one to learn better.  Paddles most things work well as a paddle and Ive got wood working skills and spare lumber...if you want one just ask :-p 

Medical play and cutting/needles---well considering Ive worked in hospitals and or health related fields most of my life Ive done, assisted and observed more than many---anyone else done a clinical rotation in a urology OR?, helped put in and pull out stitches?  Thread, Needle play, cathaters and scalples may be moderately new to me in a scene related way, but theyve been a normal part of the work day for a goodly portion of my life.

Fire play and electrical wand play both interesting, but no one mentioned cold branding.  again all interesting but like knife play I think the appeal to a lot of people is the illusion of danger...still Im going to learn...and oh Ive got a basement lab with spare amp/volt controllers if youd like to do a great electro mind fuck on someone ask for one. 

so to sum up, Im going to be more active in the community Im hoping to improve caning, flogging, spanking, whip and rope bondage skills...and am hoping to find a mentor to improve these skill sets. 

Ive been getting an urge to carve on flesh lately so if youd like to try out even a small cutting give me a buzz, full EMT kit on hand.

Im usually pretty casual but am also starting to have an interest in formal service and positions.

as always moving forward toward truth and self knowledge with integrity
DW


3/7/2006 7:06:41 AM
I found this poem on the internet...and really liked the last part...if youre a girl and you identify with it let me know...

There was a time when I was a rebel on the mount. My hair was wild; my attitude harsh and proud. I stood on that mountain alone and fierce and invited those I wished to live at my feet. The numbers were few.

Storms came strong and mighty. At first, when the lightening and thunder came you could see my form contrasted by the light: fist raised, hand on hip and proud! But the storms became too strong and though I fought and fought and fought, I finally lay beside my mountain to see it was only a hill.

I looked at my scarred hands, bent back and harsh spirit, and said, "Is this all that I'm fighting for?" I turned and looked at those who yet stood beside me. They were war torn. Then with a crackling voice I said, "I give up. I can't make this work. Look at what I've done to you so that I could remain on this peak of desolation."

So I took off the rude helmet that I had made for myself. Laid down my armor of irritation; my weapon of anger; took off my breastplate of haughtiness and went to wash in God's river.

The water revealed a woman, soft hair, soft eyes, gentle hands and quiet voice. I stepped out and put on the garments that He quietly laid out for me – a gentle and kind disposition, a tender and obedient spirit, quietness and confidence for strength and I was stunned … the garments fit me perfectly.

3/5/2006 2:41:29 PM
LMAO ok ok I know it can't work with me and a vanilla girl...but hey she contacted me and I had to try... her kids were adorable though makes me think I should do the big brother program again...anyways...short sweet and no one got hurt...the dating game...back to looking for the perfect little slave girl

good luck to all

3/1/2006 7:39:08 AM
I put her back on the plane to Washington its been an interesting 2 weeks ..and despite the fact she wasn't physically my type Im glad she came...it didnt turn out to be permanent but thats ok because for a change I encountered someone worthy of my trust...we parted as friends...lol now I really need to stop shopping for slave girls and work on my business Ive been terribly lax and playing Daddy Dom "WAY" too much

if you ever get tired of tending the online Doms come out and see me...she will give you a reference Im true natural Dominant :-p  and pretty fun too

12/18/2005 6:29:26 AM

for all those fast girls who like faster cars---from EE Cummings


She being Brand-new;

 


and you know consequently a little stiff

 


I was careful of her


and (having thoroughly oiled the universal joint

 


tested my gas


felt of her radiator


 

made sure her springs were O.K.)


 

I went right to it


 

flooded-the-carberator cranked her up, slipped the clutch


 

(and then somehow got into reverse


 

she kicked


 

what the hell)


 

next minute i was back in neutral


tried and again


 

slo-wly;

 


bare,ly

 


nudg.

 


ing

 


(my lev-er

 


Right

 


-oh and her gears being in A 1 shape passed from low through


second-in-to-high like greased lightning)


 

just as we turned the corner of Divinity avenue I touched the accelerator and gave


her the juice, good (it was the first ride


 

and believe i --we


were happy to see how nice she acted right up to the last minute


 

coming back down by the Public Gardens I slammed on the


internalexpanding


&


externalcontracting


brakes Both at once and


brought all of her tremB


-ling


to a: dead.


stand-


;Still)


12/8/2005 3:02:29 PM







I played match maker for a couple this week oy vay online love and paranoia maybe well deserved...prompted me to post something about verification to the boards. and got me thinking about starting yet another business...this time a match making service :-P


eh what else...played the gallant brother and bailed my sister out of a last second move from her place...even had D. pull a few strings high up to take care of sis's sociopathic ex husband.


on the way I stopped for a girl in tears...fixed her car gave her a hug and let her borrow my cell to call someone to pick her up...told her to "pay it forward" just like in the movie...hope she will.


Plugged my business to about 40 people...dontcha just love a captive audience...then stayed an extra night in NH and met up with a big $ client to go check out Portsmouth...didn’t get a check...but I’m feeling pretty positive.


oh went to the WMPE munch last night they’ve got some really interesting technique demos coming up...unfortunately getting people to come out of the wood work even to a public place is difficult all my recruiting on collarme.com...still no one showed up...think maybe need to try a different approach...


anyways cheers and good karma to you all


11/30/2005 2:25:16 PM
as the worm turns :p  well looks like south africa girl was not for real...got some closure today with the girl who stole my heart and must go to a man she doesn't want.  the last who calls me daddy.....Im quite worried about shes been in the hospital twice in 2 weeks...I hope and pray...and try to have faith...and in the meantime make friends...even mentored another Dom about what it means to be a man last week...glad I could help in some small way...for now...Im on my own
11/23/2005 6:28:57 PM

..if love online is any less real then why does the pain and the joy feel the same?

 

 

 

 

The Heart of a Man

In the predawn gloom I hear the rain drops outside and in the distance the train by the river.

I have trouble telling if I’m still asleep,

Dreaming?

Awake?

There’s little difference

As all my thoughts are of you.

All through the night my body has ached for you, and as I lie in bed still…

My loins swollen and throbbing for a release that will not come.

How I long to have you here beside me.

To breathe in your skin.

To feel your pulse quicken beneath my fingertips.

I can hardly wait to run my hands through your tresses,

To pull your head back and bare your throat to my lips.

To explore your body and the infinite pleasure it can give us both

What has started out as a titillation to learn about you,

Your hopes, thoughts, dreams,

To understand you and connect to your soul in some way

Has turned into a desire to possess you

From wanting

To having

To needing

To now

An all consuming hunger,

A craving to feast upon what must become mine.

Come home my love

For where I am… that is your home, home in my arms is where you belong.

Come home to me

8/26/2005 9:25:23 PM

The very first thing I wrote, concerning the lifestyle


What do you do when your reality is so far from your dreams?

And you have secrets that you can’t ever tell to a single soul
to live a lie is what you’ll have to do,

 If you want to fit into this world’s mold

 
To explore your darker side means giving up all you know
You’ll have to leave behind family friends and all your history
You long to be accepted for what you are
But know the life you need to be complete is far from normal and your differences will bring out the bloodlust in the mob.

What do you do when the world is full of people who can’t let you be yourself?
You could do great things with your life if only you could find those worthy of your trust
To find those like yourself is what you’ll need, to find those that believe nothing is impossible and nothing is forbidden.

Your thoughts are dark or that’s what society would say if they knew but in truth you are just different your inhibitions are no more and you want the world to love you just the same. To shape mankind is what you’ll do---what gives you the right they’ll ask ---the answer is: everyone has these rights but you still are able to dare to push the limits on all fronts.

You’ll have to master yourself before you can hope to master others.
You’ll have to teach yourself before you can teach others.
You’ll have to support yourself before you can support others.

Don’t accept those into your life that will be burdens without furthering your goals.
Don’t accept those into your life that will contest or thwart your will.
Don’t share your deepest darkest thoughts with anyone that hasn’t already had them.

8/26/2005 9:09:52 PM
Another early writing:

A Taste for blood.

what I want...

the thought of you ducking your head, lowering your eyes, "being shy" curling in a ball, or scampering into a hidey-hole...elicits an overwhelming response to hunt, to pounce on you, to reach into your safe place, your hidey-hole, to grab an ankle or a calf and to pull you out--to pull you into my world---

you kick like a frightened rabbit but can't dislodge my hold---

your struggles only excite me more...I pull you up, prostrate across my chest and bend your head back.

I devour your lips, your throat, a shoulder a breast..I rend your clothing from your limbs and blast past all your defenses... I enter you swiftly, brutaly you try to scream but can't even draw your mouth from mine.. in fear you contemplate biting me as I kiss you but know if you draw blood I'll enjoy it and bite back...

you fight me ineffectually this only makes me want to quicken my pace, to get deeper inside of you  I know Im hurting you.. youre whimpering and there are tears leaking past your closed eyes, if you could see me in the dark you'd know I was smiling but you can propbaly tell Im getting pleasure from your pain...I get harder everytime you cry out, or whimper...In one long orgasm of slaughter Ive sacrificed you on my altar of lust...

The morning sunlight streams through the windows and I can see the bruises on shoulder, hip, wrists and thighs; strangely they are in the shape of my hands, there are even teeth marks here and there... your lower lip is bloody, apparenty I bit you anyways...

but worst of all are your eyes..when they open, will they show the bitter pain of your rape and my utter betrayal of your trust...some master, I wasn't even abe to master myself---I let loose my dark side, the side of me you weren't supposed to know about... I promised to protect you from harm but the greatest danger lied within me...and it is there still...just below the surface...waiting...

"baby" I begin to say..."don't" you say...your eyes say the rest... you understand... my need...my hunger...you've always known...its what you need to.

I pull you to me and kiss away your tears, holding you close... we rock slowly ...Im hard again...damn Im always hard, it never seems to go down...you give me one of your crooked little smiles... slowly this time, I enter you---and soon your collapsing on my chest your hair cascading down around us...but no... Im not gonna let you stop at one...I move you up a bit and begin to thrust...you've turned into a puddle on my chest and I crush you to me, I never want to lose you, I love you..., I own your body and to show you just how completely. Im gonna send you to heaven and keep you there... one orgasm after another rolls through you... its all you can do to catch your breath...you're crying again, once more I kiss them away. 
Tears of joy? Tears of pain? they all taste alike to me; perhaps they are the same, perhaps it doesn't matter what they are from, as long Im here to kiss them away.

 that my dearest ...is one of the things I dream about, that's what has to be real for me...tell me, what do you need to be real?

8/26/2005 8:47:06 PM
A question to you:

True or False:

Nothing is Forbidden...

Every perversion that does not violate a natural law, can be successfully incorporated into a functional society.  The only thing that will surely spell a culture's doom is hypocrisy?
8/26/2005 8:43:04 PM


An Interesting Observation
          

Its a funny dynamic if you think about it---

There are more dominant men in search of fewer submissive women---
which should makes us compete for your attention--

-which leaves you the supposed submissive with the "Power" of choosing the best Dom...

but a Dom by nature does not chase a woman, they come to him.

But it does beg the question:

Who really has the power
in this lifestyle dating realm?