I was online today, you know doing normal stuff surfing the web trying to avoid those porn sites that tend to rule the internet. As I was, an add popped up right in the middle of my screen. Now normally I just go and X them out because they annoy me and do nothing but slow down your computer. Before I could go and X it out it had finished loading and I looked at it for a moment and show two shot glasses with a title of "Should we lower drinking ages". Now normally I would have closed it out after reading this but I had nothing better to do with my time and it peaked my interest, I clicked on it and an article popped up on how it might discourage teens and people under the age of 21 not to drink. At first I laughed and was like that’s stupid thinking it will discourage us from drinking. Then I forgot about it and as that idea went to the back of my mind and bounced around inside my head like it was in a padded room, I went on with my day and continued surfing the web.

Later on I began to go over the day’s events in the shower, I don’t always do this is the shower I am normally singing the last song that I heard so cliché I know but who isn’t from time to time. But I do however commonly go over the day’s events mainly at night when no one is online to bother me or ask me stupid questions. Now for those of you who know me know I have been dealing with some issues with a certain person. Now I know this seems off topic but bear with me it will come together in the end. Now this person has told me they weren’t a big partier but almost every time I turned around it seemed they were always at a party. Like any other party there is normally one key factor in have a good time and kicking back in the summer, alcohol. As I’m getting slightly heated over this matter I thought of that annoying little add that popped up on my screen you know the "Should we lower drinking ages" one. So that gave me food for thought and did I ever think about that, maybe more then I should have.

Now before those of you against this and think we should keep the drinking ages as they are wait a minute finish reading and hear my thoughts on this. We should lower drinking ages because what’s half the appeal to drinking? Being cool? To fit in? Maybe, but also because from the time we hit about the 8 th grade in middle school the parties begin to start and that every pesky alcohol might pop up and we might encounter peer pressure to drink. At first we just do it to fit in and be cool, then after a while it becomes fun. We begin to enjoy that drunken feeling of smashing our head into a wall and staring at our cell phones and wondering why it’s making this annoying sound and how to stop it. Maybe not you but that’s my story.

Also from when we are in the 8 th grade we are told it’s wrong. As normal around this time we want to grow up so fast it’s not even funny and we are told we have to wait to that all too important age of 21. At first if we respect our parents, we say alright sure that’s not far and we wait, but then that fight will happen, that need to rebel will build, that peer pressure unbearable and we do it, we drink. We drink so much that we are almost all too likely to get caught by our parents or even worse the cops. We get in trouble for it and you know what, we should, we made the mistake to drink. We may learn from this ordeal we may not and if we do some may never drink again, some may wait till they are 21, but right now I am focusing more on the high school ages, 14-18. Why because I think it should be lowered to 18. I think we should lower the drinking age to 18 simply because around that age we are Seniors and if your high school was anything like mine you learned it’s no good to be drinking because over the years at least once a year somebody died from it. As seniors you have the pressure of picking a college, passing high school if you had let your grade slip over the years. You learn to grow up quick and sure there are some of us who don’t that’s a given any where whatever age you are.

Now if you are sitting there and are like well you just said you are stupid teenagers making the wrong choices. Hold on I’m not done here not yet, not so quick, not so fast. Think of the things they let us do at 18, did you think of any? I’ll wait ……. Now if you couldn’t think of anything please go back to school and keep your nose out of those damn videogames that wash your mind that make you think you can fly and take down a monster that is twice your size. Now if you did think of anything good, I’m glad, the first thing that most likely came to your mind might have been the right to vote. Oh yes at 18 they give us "hormonal teenagers" the right to vote, why? Because at this suddenly ripe age of 18 we are considered an "adult" we can buy porn legally, smoke cigarettes, get our own credit cards, have more than one person in the car with us, and make our own decisions. At 18 they say you are legally smart enough to vote and chose who runs this great country of ours. Now if you ask me you should be made to take a test that says you are smart enough to make an informed decision on who becomes the president. Why?, because we all secretly know half of the people going to vote this year are going to be like do I want the white guy or the black guy.( No intent to sound racist) You may disagree with me on that but secretly you know that’s what most of us are going to do. Now for those of you who are following this race and looking at who is the lesser of the two evils I applaud you, you are an informed voter and we need more of you.

At 18 we can buy "adult films" and watch them because why, we are deemed adults. Now we are old enough and mature enough to watch two people having sex. Yet at 17 they let us see "R" rated films where people are half naked and might indulge in some sexual behavior. Most of which will wind up on day time television anyway so why don’t we let 14 year olds in the movies. It’s only a matter of time before Mommy and Daddy are out of the room and it comes on and they watch. Am I getting to taboo for you well I’m sorry wake up and be welcomed into modern America. But no we are 18 and adults now so it’s perfectly all right, not like we haven’t watched it on the internet before right, of course not.

At 18 we can buy cigarettes and kill our bodies slowly, not like we didn’t find places we could buy them before we were 18. Half of the cops, no, in fact, more than half the cops do not care if you are 12 and smoking. You may get a few who play so much by the rules everyone hates them anyway and stop you and hand you at all to beautiful ticket which most of us will show off in an attempt to rise up a rank in the eyes of our peers. But no most cops wouldn’t give you a passing glace, why? Well they have more important things such as: helping people in car accidents, fights, people being mugged and jumped, and those murders everyone loves to hate to hear about.

At 18 credit card companies send us cards that are preapproved for a 500$ limit, why because they can make money off of us we will charge it up to the max amount and they will allow us more. Simply because we are 18 and the government says sure maybe this will fix the economy when in turn it makes it worse.

Now I did not list this one above in the brief over list because I strongly feel for this subject and respect the men and women who do this.

At 18 the government says hey this kid is now an "adult" and can decide on what he or she can do with their own life and can be held accountable for the actions they make, even if that means signing away 4 or more years of their life at a time. At 18 the government lets us join the service now which part you sign up for it does not matter to them all they know is that your 18 and want to serve your country, so they let you. They will accept you if you can fit into the standards that they require and if you don’t they can ask you to change if you want it that bad. They deem you are old enough to sign on that dotted line and realize what you just gave up. You gave up the right to do what you want when you want, and agree to give your life away to help protect those of us who work daily, have children, live everyday hand to mouth, and right down to those on death row. I personally can and never will be able to thank them enough.

They say we are incapable of making the decision to drink before 21. However they give us the right to do what’s listed above and fight to the death for our country. You may have noticed a short but common line through this which is; "18 and are adults". They call us adults and hold us accountable for our own actions for everything after we turn 18. So do I believe we should lower the drinking age, of course. Not because I personally enjoy drinking and are looking to stay out of trouble, no. We are called adults at the age of 18 and as adults we can vote, drive freely, buy whatever we want, have credit cards, live on our own, and fight for our country.

Still somehow we are too inculpable of making the decision to drink and know when enough is enough. I am here saying enough is enough, if we are considered "adults" let us make our own choices on what we drink. We have the power to pick a single person to run a county at 18 and after the decision of the 2008 presidential race is made we all are going to need a drink.

So I haven’t written an entry in a while and I have no reason as to why I can guess a few but I guess they are all in the past. Now I am here and ready to explore again and I have learned more things about myself. I learned what I thought before was true I cannot be with a younger guy I need a man who knows who he is and what he wants and can put everything he has into that. I don’t mind you being close to your family but don’t let them rule your life I have been there and done that with another and I am done forever. I have also learned that if I open my eyes more and listen better I can find so rather great people who were always there but I gave no time to. I have learned to be more open but at the same time be closed till the right time. I need attention or I look for it in other places. I have found my love for writing again and sadly it took my heart to be beaten to find it but I think that’s also when I do my best work, they may tend to be a tad morbid but all the same great. Is that bragging you can tell me and take it as you will I know who I can be and I just busted out of my shell even more. I have played games before and now I’m done forever. This won’t be that long because if I don’t stop now I may never stop because a lot has happened over the last few months which have held fun time’s bad time new life and hearts torn. We all move on and I’m doing it with a small and an under laying tone of fuck this shit. Am I more mature now? Maybe but I’m still me with that fuck you attitude but just a bit more in check.

Well I keep getting e-mails from a lot of ‘Dominants’ saying they are the one for me and they Know It! All I can do is smile to myself and ask in a reply e-mail with a, "Well how do you know you are the one for me?" Want to know their replay? “I just know it we have so much in common let’s meet and get started.” Let me say this so hopefully I don’t keep getting those types of e-mails: Yes having things in common is a very good BASE to start a FRIEND SHIP on. I seriously cannot seem to stress this enough, I am not looking for a Master or a Dominant Daddy or whatever you may be at the moment. I am looking for a friend ship that in time will grow into more if it was meant to be. Also if you are to start a conversation with me I am not like anyone else you have ever dealt with before and I have no plans of changing myself. Sadly but very great fully I have only met two people on this site who are clearly who they say they are and I respect them to no end. Master Tiny and Mistress Jessica I officially <3 you Both and can wish you nothing but the best.

I thought writing a journal entry would be easy, it's not ... This is my 4th attempt at writing it ... So anyway lets start off with this: I'm just gonna write like me, forget grammar, what my place is and not be politically correct ... Honestly where is the fun in that ...  and isn't a journal there to allow you to get to know a person more ... making an impression in your writing seems to be a huge part of who e-mails you and who wants to get to know you on this site ... So just be yourself people, I mean honestly I've seen so many fakes on here it's not even funny anymore it's to the point of disgusting, half of I you can tell just by reading the profiles ... Respect and honesty is the name of the game people lets play it once in a while ... I have learned that in time and am tying to hold true to that ... For more about me that's not on my profile ... Here we go ... Family is my life and will always come first no other way about it ... I've got tattoos and plan on getting more ... I'm a music junkie ... I love to dance ... I love to write and draw ... I hold strong to some of my opinions that I truly believe in but hey I'm always up for conversation about anything else ... I'm always willing to learn things about other people and what they believe as well as many other things ... I'll respect you and what you have to say if you respect me and what I have to say ... And to add to that ... To all dominants can we try to have a normal conversation first not what my history is in this life style at least right off the bat ... That will come in time of being friends, and because I mean what I say that I'll say(type) it again friends first not relationships or talk of BDSM ... Get to know me I tend to be one of those people you love(like) or straight up hate...