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7/21/2008 12:27:20 PM
So, I haven't been updating but life as life can be, has been kind of busy.

In April, Ryu and I became Grandparents of a beautiful baby boy.

In May, Ryu and I had to take custody of the beautiful baby boy.  While I never thought I'd be raising a baby again, I find many things to be far better/easier than it was for me 20 years ago raising my daughter.

In June, Ryu and I were married.

So now, we are raising 2 wonderful children and our grandson.

I have found my friend, my lover, my partner and my husband...I am blessed.
12/20/2007 1:50:37 PM
Happy Yule all.

Ryu and I are going home to meet each other's family for the holidays.

I honestly don't know what I was thinking when I agreed to this.  I am soooo nervous.

We'll be spending 3 days at him Mom's and then 2 or 3 at mine, depending what she can tolerate (2 umms are going too and Mum's 75).

Hopefully it is far better than the horror I have conjured in my head.

Wishing all a happy peaceful time.

Saya
11/21/2007 11:02:00 AM
I am currently in an email exchange with someone from the boards, I am grateful she is willing to talk and open up about her life; and am enjoying the communication a great deal.  Thank you.

I've been busy the last few days, because tomorrow I'm cooking, for the first time, the complete Thanksgiving meal....wish me luck, please.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!
11/11/2007 7:15:06 PM
Things have been very quiet around here lately.  Which in some ways is a blessing, since we had a few months of insanity.

Right now, all I can think of is the holidays; preparing my first official and complete Thanksgiving dinner for 8. 

I've definately improved my cooking skills in the last 6 months; my last relationship (13 years) was to a chef that prefered to do all the cooking; so me cooking meals daily is a definate change.

I've only had one true mishap in the last 6 months, put something on the stove on what I thought was low heat, went upstairs to do laundry, when I finally came back down the kitchen and hallway were filled with smoke...no fire. ...also had to plan a new dinner.

This is the first relationship that I am not the one 'in charge' and making the lion's share of the income. 

Oddly, I have never been happier taking care of Him, our home and the lil ones.

My ultra femist sister would be sooo disappointed in me...LOL.


10/18/2007 11:12:36 AM

The last few months have been wonderful, Ryu and I have learned much about ourselves and eachother.



Reading the boards has been helpful, fascinating and at times frustrating.



I posted about a 'change in relationship' in the midst of feelings of nervousness of what was to come.  As it turned out, no punishment was ever given and Ryu handled it and me the only way that could have worked.



There were responders that didn't  understand and thought it was some ploy by one or both of us, and nothing I can say in the post or here will change their opinion.



Although that post helped me to see that while some advice and or comments here can be helpful, not all will be; but thank you for your responses.



There were a few that understood and I truly thank them for their well wishes. 

8/10/2007 7:12:22 AM

I posted about how to Dom your Dom, because Ryu and I were going to have a week that we were home alone, and he wanted to know how it felt.


Funny, I built it up so much in my head, stressed over it a bit even, and it was just days like all other days.

With that said, we did have some fun with rope bondage, he had been checking out sites and found some things he wanted to try. 

As far as the Topping him, it turned out well, but I know it can get better with time and practice.

Topping him wasn't as stressful as I thought it was going to be, once I realized he would let me know if it was too much and the fact he truly enjoyed it.

I never tried to take him to sub space, I did however find something he had never had done before and enjoyed VERY much.  So I did achieve my goal of 'making it special' for him.


We had a great week but are glad to return to normal.  We both really put too much pressure on ourselves to make this week special....live and learn.

7/15/2007 10:14:15 AM
For those that have read the profile, yes I'm pretty new at this...

I'm new at having found someone that accepts the weird/odd/perverse things I find that I enjoy, VERY much turn me on and are willing to do them.

I'm new at having someone tell me I'm beautiful and believing them because they see how many scars I have, how many colors my eyes change, they notice my flaws and love me not inspite of them but because of them.

I am new to having someone tell me they value complete truth, openness and honesty; demanding it as well as giving it. 

I'm new to having someone say 'I want to hear what you have to say' truly listen and better still, remember; even some things I might prefer he forgets.

I am new to finding  a confidant, a companion, someone who stimulates me;  mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually and energetically. 

I am new to finding someone who has touched my mind and seeks not to change it,  someone who sees my body flawed and scarred and desires it, and someone who has touched my heart and made me live in the moment.

The biggest thing I'm new to is someone knowing me and completely accepting ME.







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 Age: 32
 New Haven, Connecticut