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| My last sub was an agoraphobic BBW. We were together for 8 years but 4 months ago she had to move out of state to care for her mother. It was a loss for both of us because we had a great Dom/sub relationship. She was so bound up by her anxieties that she passionately welcomed the chance to lay those burdens down for a few hours and just indulge in the ease of being led. She wanted the joy of knowing that she would please me because she was doing as I asked. And she loved finding parts of herself which she had long suspected were there. She found that spankings absolutely transported her to a calm and centered place.
And she also got better, not "cured"! She was able to go to familiar places by herself without too much anxiety though new places or situations continued to leave her an anxious wreck. Still, it was progress.
I know it’s an extraordinary long-shot but I’d like to find that kind of relationship again with an agoraphobic woman. You know deep down that you’re submissive but you fear that you’re never going to address that craving. Your anxieties keep you from getting the opportunities to find any relationship at all, much less a Dom/sub relationship.
The only thing that gives me hope is that I know you spend a lot of time on your computer carefully scanning for anything that will help you get outside yourself, that will help you feel understood, that will relieve the anxiety and loneliness.
Maybe you’ll see my profile and think: “I could write to him. That would be a step I could take.”
Is that you?
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