I am fairly new to the lifestyle, having been "introduced" by former friends of mine.

What I currently seek, for the time being, is intelligent conversation to obtain knowledge through this medium. I do not find having someone ask me to service them as intelligent conversation.

I wish to learn my role in this lifestyle as I truly do not yet know what my orientation is. There is a part of me where the thought having someone kneel before me I find appealing, but then there is that part of me that craves to do the kneeling.