After a few years here at Collar Me... I've realized that it's time to update my profile.

What I've been feeling and going through has changed and my desires to be owned and transformed have grown.... and I thought it made sense for my profile to reflect this.

First off, this much hasn't changed: My name is Frank and I'm married with a family. I love my family and overall my life is pretty good. But the thing is, the whole thing is a lie. "Frank" is a role I play. I've done it for a long time, I'm good at it, but it gets harder and harder each day as I know the real me... is a woman, a soft, submissive woman... and I'm done denying that.

I used to say that I wanted to be "property". But I think I didn't understand some things. First, what I "want" is not important at all. I don't have "wants". I'm meant to make someone happy... and that's how I'm wired. I am meant to be the woman someone else wishes to make me. In mind, in body. Whatever.

I said this to someone the other day and I think it's true - if you wanted to make me into Pamela Anderson, that would excite me. But if you wanted to make me Rosie O'Donnell? That would excite me too. Because what excites me... is becoming what you want.

I see myself as the loving and attentive housewife... designed to please. That role seems like a natural thing to me, and one I'm probably meant for.

But the thing is... I'm not the expert. You are. This is about you, and not me.

Can I leave my family behind to do this? If I said "100 percent yes"... that's a lie. If I said "absolutely not" that too is a lie. I don't want to hurt anyone. But the fact is.. I don't know if I'm hurting my family more by trying to keep up being Frank. I know I'm getting worse and worse at it as time goes on.

There comes a tipping point.

What I'm "looking for" is hard for me, but I'll try. Might be better to say what I'm NOT looking for.

If you're interested in play... in me dressing up... I'm sorry, but this isn't a game for me.

If you want me already transformed... if you want to know what kind of woman I "want" to be.... well, that's nice... but that isn't going to work for me. It has to be about you.

If you're interested in helping me. In guiding me... that's sweet and wonderful. But then again it would be about me, not you. And "Frank" acts that way. The woman inside me does not.

I know you probably stopped reading by this point, I'm sorry to ramble on. But I hope somehow these words ressonate with someone who will see who I am, and what I could be... and it will match what they want and what would make them happy.

Because that.. making someone happy... being what they want... the woman they want in every possible way... is really all I can think about.

Thanks for reading.