Seeking Voluntary Acquiescence
I first entered this lifestyle when I was 22, and was quite active. I belonged to a playgroup in Houston when I was still single. I helped to introduce four brand-spanking new women to their submissive character during my membership there. But I never developed a real connection with any of the submissives I knew, and it wasn't for lack of trying.
Take it from me: you can deny your character to others all you want, but when you deny your character to yourself, nothing but heartache and misery follow.
I'm looking for a woman who knows what being in a power-exchange relationship is all about. She will have a certain spirituality, the desire to keep up physically, understand both me and herself intellectually, and be completely comfortable with who we are.
UPDATE: 01/30/2013
I have recently been let in on a little secret, one in which I was already a part without realizing it: I am a sadist.
I never in all my lifestyle years considered myself a sadist. Strict, demanding, cruelly imaginative, yes, but not a sadist.
I've been thinking about it for awhile, going over it again and again in my mind, and I have finally accepted that attribute as being accurate.
Yes, I am a sadist. I'm all about engendering sensations in a submissive's body, controlling when, where, how often, and most importantly the intensity of what I consider to be the correct feeling at the appropriate time. Relationships come and go, but sensations will stick with you forever.
So that is what I'm looking for: someone who needs these sensations as much as I need to provide them.
PS- Why "verdantsilk?" It's what I prefer for bondage. I'm a sadist, not a barbarian.
