I am a profoundly submissive, passionate, intelligent, honest, attractive, funny and confident, d/d free woman. I was trained by my first Master for nearly 2 years, but we parted amicably and remained friends until he moved away. He fostered my growth in my submission beautifully.

My second Master has recently granted my release. I am no longer a collared slave. We had a wonderful 2.5 year relationship, full of great times. It was like a dream come true for me to surrender to him. There were also some struggles along the way, but we always seem to work them out as he had a special way about him that would help us grow closer together through those difficult times.

Unfortunately, after about 2 years, my health deteriorated to a point where I was no longer able to provide for his every need to his full satisfaction. I was failing him miserably (my opinion) and it was going on for longer than we both liked. It wasn’t fair to him. However, I did not forsee what was at stake because of this. That he would ultimately opt to seek out someone else to get one particular need met that I could no longer engage in with him. In turn, I was left to ask for my release as I felt something was amiss in our relationship. I knew I had lost him. I am totally heartbroken now as he was the one and only that I wanted to serve for the rest of my life. Sadly, that cannot happen now because, according to him, I gave up on him. It all seems like a nightmare to me. When am I going to wake up?
My only hope now is that he can forgive me for how I failed him.

I am officially leaving the lifestyle at this time. I told him that if we ended up not working out for some reason, I would never engage in a D/s relationship again with anyone. I thought it was difficult to end a vanilla relationship, but I have quickly learned that ending a D/s relationship is like having a piece of your soul die. My heart cannot go through this again.

I wish everyone, including my former Masters, the best in their search for their one and only…or many, if that suits your needs. I am going to miss surrendering to my Master tremendously but apparently this just isn’t for me.