Well I can not sleep. So I figured I would update. Today my first day was very overwhelming. I had lot of emails. I actually learned a few things though. I did not know you could induce lactation very interesting. And I have asked a few questions and hopeful to get my answers. I have also talked to a few people that I seem to like already but I know I must hold myself back and get to know them well and not to rush thing. I am just so excited to start this part of my life ! I think maybe that is why I cant sleep! =] 

Many have asked how I know I am submissive or how I got interested in this life style. Well I touched a bit of it on my first journal but I think I will go more into it.

My mother and my father divorced when I was young. I had a special needs sister that has sadly passed away. I went to live with my father and as I said he was or is a drug addict. Therefor I was left to take care of my sister. I learned to cook and clean ect. early in life and I took care of her until I was 18. Along with taking care of my addict father helping him go through withdraws and other things. My mother had no contact with us up until just a few years ago. I started working at a very young age. 15 to be exact that's when you can get a work permit in Ohio. I switched to online high school so that I could still graduate and work as much as possible. 

When I finally managed to get out of my fathers house I moved in with my boyfriend at the time. I helped take care of his niece and pretty much raised her until she was 2. This is when he and I split up. being 20 and getting out on my own was very rough but I have managed. But as you can see I have always taken care of someone my whole life. Even now in my job I am a caregiver to two special needs boys. 

So for me being submissive I would say its in my blood to take care of a man to do the house work cook and clean and take care of your every need. 

For me to find this lil that it is filling that empty spot of just a vanilla relationship. Even though I would enjoy some aspects of a vailla relationship. I came a long way with a lot of helpful people guiding me here! I thank them greatly for their help and helping fill that hole in my life !

I hope this sheds some light on how I have figured out that this is the lifestyle for me ! 

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xoxo 

-Triniy

I guess I should let you all get to know me. =]

I have figured out that I am a submissive girl by nature. I have grown up taking care of my special needs sister and my drug addict father. There is the psychology of why I am the way I am. I have been in a few vanilla relationships and something is always wrong. I hate when a man tries to cook, clean ect. I feel that it is my place to do all of that. This is why I say I am looking for more then a sexual encounter. I need a man that I can serve that understands he is the man of the house and likes it like that. Someone that's not afraid to give me orders and be strict and punish me when I am not meeting his expectations. Not only domestically but also sexually. I also need a man I can trust and someone that can communicate very well with me. If I am going to let you control me I need to know that I can trust everything you do for me is in good interest for me. I love to please. I love to let a man know how much I appreciate him in anyway shape or form. Like I said I am a true submissive at heart, its in my bones you could say. 

I am on the other hand very independent and a strong women. I know how to stand up for myself and all you fakers will not be able to fool me! I have talked with very experienced people and have takin all the advice givin to me to heart. I know what to look for and what not to look for. 

If there is a real man that is willing to help guide me and let me grow, that likes a women to know her place in the world please feel free to contact me. If you just want to use a women and spit on her and make her feel like she is a complete tramp and a doormat please do not contact me. Some of you may say I am crazy to try and find a loving dom/sub relationship well then I am crazy because that's what I want and I will settle for nothing less !!

xoxo

-Triniy