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what does the title "brat" mean to me?
i received a note from someone claiming to be a dom, who seemed offended by the word. apparently my defiance impedes other's progress. maybe so. also, i think it is important for me to state clearly who i am, and what i want and need, if i am to have any hope of finding it.
i want to submit, yes. but more than that, i want, very much, to be with someone capable of mentally and physically making me desire to submit to them. i will not simply offer myself up to just anyone. how can i trust, and beieve in the protection and love of a top if they cannot conquer me?
yes, i enjoy being restrained. but there is a 50/50 shot that i will need to be forced. eventually, i can, and have, become a wonderful, obedient sub. and i would dearly love to again. but if you want someone who will immediately call you master,or mistress, and just roll over for you, i'm not it. when i call you by your proper title, it will be because you truly deserve it, and when i wear your collar it will be because i do.
some other things. everyone has thier own tastes, and wishes in a potential partner. so let me put some things out in the open now. i am not a small girl. bbw, fbl, healthy, whatever you want to call it. i also smoke, drink socially, and occasionally use recreational drugs, only of the natural variety.
in addition, i do NOT want an internet or phone based relationship. i do not webcam. because of this, if you are not in the dc, md, va, pa area, and do not regularly commute here, it won't work. i really need physical contact.
i have been without a top for 3 years, mostly because i keep vanilla dating and then trying to train mates from the bottom. dumb. they usually get skittish when i ask about rape fantasy, but when i hand them the flogger, most go pale. i truly hope there is someone here willing to take on a challenge.
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