I had a wonderful dream last night. I looked above me and saw my master standing tall. I then realized that i was on my knees. I wasn't wearing anything, and my master looked down at me with a stern expression. I began to feel afraid, and that is when he smiled at me and kissed my forehead. He then led me a table, where he started feeding me. I don't know why i had this dream, but i woke up a little sad. Mostly, because i know that i may never have that kind of bond :(

Older men are  wonderful to me. I mean the attractive older men. The funny thing about being attractive is that it involves your personality. I feel like a person that is funny and caring is an excellent catch. I have always loved older men because they seem to be somewhat established. I find it great to look up to someone who has experience with life. I want someone who wants to see the world, and who is completely spontaneous. Someone who cares about what i enjoy, just as much as i care about his needs. Someone who is completely sure of who he is. I want someone that i can be adventurous with. I want someone who encourages me to live my life to the fullest. I want to belong to him, and to care for him. This is an overview, but the reality is that i have yet to find this. I hope that i can find someone who could understand. i am really sleepy so i should really stop babbling on. i am an English major and i probably have commas in all the wrong places. ughhh

I am really interested in getting more serious, but i still feel like I'm wondering in circles. I really want to find that someone who i really can connect with. I would also like to find out about places where people involved in this lifestyle connect in South and North Carolina. I would love to learn more. I am open to new experiences and knowledge.

So, i am definitely ready to become more serious about my journey in this lifestyle. I guess i would like to really get to know someone without them moving so quickly. Ok i get it, you are naughty. I think we all are. But i do believe that a good master would be someone who has patience. I'm looking for someone that i connect with. Is that too much to ask? :(