Sometimes the hardest things to do turn out to be the simplest when you realize what yourholding onto, is actually holding you back from what you want/need/desire. Sometimes helping someone else is a lesson in itself about YOU. All it takes is actually listening and apply what you told them to yourself. 

8/15/2013 a thursday afternoon. I sit here pondering thsoe I have met, the things I have done and the things I still want to do. Life is about experiences, good and bad.  It comes with as much baggage as we allow ourselves to carry. Yes I said "allow ourselves to carry".  I've let too much of mine get in the way of what I seek.   Problem is , it is MINE and a part of me........How do I give it up..... will I be ME without it......Will anything be LEFT?  Hmmmmm Yeah I know  stupid huh... Yes I will be ME...... Yes  something will be left but what?  And for me  it is the being told to let it go that is the key. Of dropping what Isn't mine to bare.

  Tis why my mind seeks a Sadist.   Someone who enjoys inflicting pain, physically and emotionally to let me attach the baggage and be free of it.

 I once had that for a short time but it was not meant to be. I still seek it, crave it, need and want it.  but finding someone close by seems nearly impossible or is it.

Da brat

Starting a new chapter in my life.

 Looking to explore with others who have been in my shoes. Curious to see who and what is out there. As  they say, one door closes another one opens.