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Im officially changing my profile to switch =)  I love the control of making someone feel a certain way, whether its pain or pleasure, hot or cold,  I love the variety of sensations possible.  I love getting into rythmic flogging.  Coincidentally there was classical music playing in the background which just seemed to fit the mood/ situation.  WOW so much funnn!!!  I havn't had that much fun for the longest time.



Sure I've just had THE surgery and have basically completed my journey as far as that goes.  It just seems such a waste to come back to this place.  I need to just get done with school so I can move on.  sigh......two years later.

And for someone who shall remain nameless..if you cant connect the dots then your obviously pretty fucking stupid....damn hater.
7/10/2009 11:32:01 PM
just image spanking my firm ass until its a

bright cherry red and then just placing the head of your cock right outside my vagina
and slowly pushing your way into me.........

imagine how tight my vagina feels around your throbbing cock as you thrust home against me, while im chained bending over a bench.  gagged and with a butt plug in....

between your cock and the plug its almost more than i can handle.

i struggle and scream against the gag, but my muffled crys, pleadings, for help fall on deaf ears.

as you pound me harder and harder.....

soon you mercifully pull out you rock hard dick and shoot your load all over my tear drenched face.

 As I look up at you in anticipation and fear of what is to come next
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to be continued.........

6/30/2009 6:10:25 PM
Ok this irritates me.  first time chat dialogue...

Dom:blah blah, take your shirt off...

me:  um no

Dom:  but im dom..

me: your not MY dom..

Basically Im not taking orders from someone I don't even know.  Seriously I have to really get to know a person before I would become submissive to them. So dont be dumb, be a real person with at least so common courtesy.
6/28/2009 2:23:06 PM
THE SURGERY=non of your damn business if you dont already know dont ask lol.   I had some work done down there is all.  Personal stuff.lol nm
6/28/2009 9:46:48 AM
so basically im still making just small trips out of the house so im still pretty tied down, lol.  Only two of my friend have called or even come to see me, yeah, two.  Sort of makes you realize who your real friends are, i guess.
6/27/2009 8:21:39 PM
Leaving for awhile just makes me realize how sad it is here.  maybe it just me but coming back to billings i was struck by how "shut down" people on this particular flight were.  A really strange feeling, but a good one in the sense that I realize that Mt is just not the place for me.  Doesn't have that good "feel" to it.  anyway just  a thunk..
6/20/2009 8:34:13 AM
holy crap totally frustration.  I dont know if maybe its just the swelling but it causing extreme sexual tension. (no thats not an invitation) Its so weird but its good that I know ill be sensitive down there when the  numbness and swelling get better

6/14/2009 8:37:57 AM
I really was not prepared at all for this surgery.  Not that Im regretting it, but I didn't realize how incredibly intense, painful, and uncomfortable it is.   Im blessed in that the staff here at the healing house are literally angels.  They are so caring and wonderful that words can't describe it.  I'm on the mend and dreading the day that I have to leave. 

The other patients here are awesome too in that it is a relief to be able to make friends with others that have been through the same life struggles.  In particular the guys(FtM) have been fantastic to talk to and we will be friends for life. 

The surgery went well and the healing is underway, both physically and emotionally.  To anyone considering this surgery this is the only place I would go. Its really been therapeutic and wonderful.
6/10/2009 11:59:18 PM
The surgery is all finished yah!  I had it done monday morning,  Im really sore still though and prob will be for a long tiem.  Despite that though Im happy its done and waiting to go home.
6/1/2009 1:02:36 AM
I suppose Ill make an entry.  With my surgery coming up in a week Ive been going through an emotional roller coaster.  Im not happy with my family situation, oh that right what family, fucking assholes... anyway background.  When I was a senior in high school I was just starting to explore this side of me that had been stewing under the surface, my wanting to be a girl that is. 

One day My dad discovered that I had been ordering girls clothing online, and confronted me about it.  I didn't even know how to handle it in my own mind much less explain to anyone else.  Put on the spot I moved out that evening.    Ever since then I've had little communication with them.

It hurts so deeply to lose my family its almost as bad as the gender deal.  I so tired of hurting I just want it to go away.....