1/2/2008 5:57:23 PM: Green acres is the place for me

Well after a few bumpy weeks and a lot of soul searching, i have very comfortably settled in to my new country home.  Master and i have found our common ground.  It isnt always easy to go from completely independent to serving again 24/7, but with lots of love and patience from Robert, i have once again found my true slave nature.  I thought it had been lost forever, but can you ever truly lose such an important part of yourself.  It now flows so naturally and i find myself once again feeling whole and complete.  Funny how having someone who loves you enough to let you just be who you are naturally can make all the difference in the world.

Thank You Master for having the patience, love and insight to see the slave that i could truly be.

all my love............

your pretty girl, 

erin

11/30/2007 4:12:47 AM
Today is "the Day"...........Not sleet, nor snow, nor a falling sky will keep us apart.

From today forward, i will not be waking up alone in a cold, empty bed.  I will be snuggled  safely in the arms of my loving Master.

Thank You for opening Your home to me, for making it "our" home, for having faith in Love and in me, and for seeing all the qualities i believed no longer existed in me.

We have looked forward to today with great anticipation, excitement, and admittedly on my part.......a little fear.  It is a big step to wander away from the life You have always known, even if that life was not a happy one.  There is security in familiarity, and fear in what is unknown. 

Life can not be lived in fear, if one is ever to be happy.  Fear takes a strangle hold on your emotions and doesn't let go until you have successfully driven away the One that loves you the most.  So i have learned to listen to Love.........not to fear.  To hold tight to faith and believe that Love is truly possible.  It isn't always easy.  It doesn't just come because you believe, you do have to work and put some effort in to Love, but the rewards are so worth the effort.

Today i say goodbye to the past, and walk happily into the open arms of my loving Master.  Knowing that from this day on, i will be loved, cherished and appreciated for who and what i am.  I will have Love, i will give Love and when two people share love, life can only be wonderful and special.  Every day a new adventure.  Love is limitless, there are no boundaries, only those you allow yourself to set.  

To those that do not believe Love can exist, i am here to tell you that it does.  You just have to have faith in yourself and faith in people.  I had given up, i didnt want to trust anyone, was afraid to get hurt, but all it took was the love of one special Man to make me see that i had so much to offer.  His faith in love and in me, opened my eyes to a whole new life.

Today i go "HOME", the place i have searched for my whole life.  I look forward to seeing all the wonderful things this life has to offer.

Good Luck to everyone in their search.

Erin

11/21/2007 10:03:22 AM:
It is amazing how long one will go with their head buried in the sand.  Unaware that they have lost a sense of themselves.  Comfort arises from familiarity, lulling one into a false sense of security, peace and happiness.

I had become unaware of how unhappy and complacent i had become with my life until Robert showed me that there was a life out there that i had completely neglected.  One where i was free to love and be loved, the way i have always dreamed about.  A world where i dont have to fear abandonment, hide in the past, or abuse the One i love in order to feel safe and protected. 

Robert gave me the freedom to be who i am.  His love and patience has helped me to see the mistakes i have made in the past.  He cares that i am healthy and happy and is willing to put forth the time and effort to heal the wounds that brought me to my life of seclusion and unhappiness.

I have read many other slave profiles on Collarme and see myself in so many of you.  You carry with you all the scars and baggage.  Holding on to them like a safety net.  Fearing if you let it go, you will disappear.  It is not your burden.  The carelessness of others actions should not define who you are and how you live your life.

I used it as a protective cover, shielding myself from love, pushing or running away from anyone who dared to get close.  Blaming them for everyone else's unloving actions.  In the process i ended up angry, bitter and alone. 

Until now.  It took the simple action of one man, one extraordinary man, who believed that His faith in Love, His faith in me, and His patience could heal my heart and soul.

I am well on my way to letting go of my past, looking forward happily to my future as a loving slave to a wonderful Master.

Here is to loving with a whole heart, being loved unconditionally and being the best that you can possibly be.  Please don't give up on yourself or your dreams.  You are too important for that.

All my best,

erin

11/17/2007 4:03:22 AM
It is amazing how long one will go with their head buried in the sand.  Unaware that they have lost a sense of themselves.  Comfort arises from familiarity, lulling one into a false sense of security, peace and happiness.

I had become unaware of how unhappy and complacent i had become with my life until Robert showed me that there was a life out there that i had completely neglected.  One where i was free to love and be loved, the way i have always dreamed about.  A world where i dont have to fear abandonment, hide in the past, or abuse the One i love in order to feel safe and protected. 

Robert gave me the freedom to be who i am.  His love and patience has helped me to see the mistakes i have made in the past.  He cares that i am healthy and happy and is willing to put forth the time and effort to heal the wounds that brought me to my life of seclusion and unhappiness.

I have read many other slave profiles on Collarme and see myself in so many of you.  You carry with you all the scars and baggage.  Holding on to them like a safety net.  Fearing if you let it go, you will disappear.  It is not your burden.  The carelessness of others actions should not define who you are and how you live your life.

I used it as a protective cover, shielding myself from love, pushing or running away from anyone who dared to get close.  Blaming them for everyone else's unloving actions.  In the process i ended up angry, bitter and alone. 

Until now.  It took the simple action of one man, one extraordinary man, who believed that His faith in Love, His faith in me, and His patience could heal my heart and soul.

I am well on my way to letting go of my past, looking forward happily to my future as a loving slave to a wonderful Master.

Here is to loving with a whole heart, being loved unconditionally and being the best that you can possibly be.  Please don't give up on yourself or your dreams.  You are too important for that.

All my best,

erin

Update 11/16/07

Proudly claimed by Robert (aka Bobkgin).

Thank You Master for bringing me into Your loving family.  Your unwaivering faith and love has given me the strength to believe in who i am and finally allow myself to be the slave i was truly meant to be.

You are my heart, my soul, my Love...........my Future.

All my love,

erin 

When i had just about given up my search, someone very, very special entered my life.

We first gravitated towards each other several months ago, just talking as friends.  We drifted away from one another while we explored different people, but recently found ourselves, drawn back to each other.

He has taught me what it means to truly love and be loved.   A love that is unconditional, pure and simple.

He loves me for who i am, but pushes me to be better than i am, to believe in myself and my dreams.

We recently spent several days together, just the two of us.  Away from the pressures of the world, i found what i have been craving for so long.  A place where i can truly be all that i am.  A slave, an intelligent woman, a lover, and a friend.

So, we are spending time now discovering one another and building towards a future together.

I appreciate all the love and support i have received from all my friends and look forward to keeping those friendships strong, but i am no longer seeking a Master.  I have found one that has captured my mind, heart, body and soul, and i cannot wait to explore all the wonderful things we have to offer each other.

Best of luck to everyone in their search.

hugs,

erin

I have been here before, some may rememeber me as rinnie. That is who i am and always be, but after some recent events, felt the need to shed some of the past and start again.

This is who i am, it is not a game or fantasy world for me.  Too many come online and use it as an escape from reality.  Hiding online from sad marriages and even sadder lives. 

Some may take one look at my pictures and never read the words i write.  Others will take the time to get to know the woman, friend and slave, that goes along with those pictures.

I could fill this space with flowery words and proses about who i am as slave and what submission means to me, but ultimately it comes down to finding someone you connect with and simply getting to know who and what they are.

So.......having said that, here is what i am looking for.

Rinnie's Wish List of Compatible Dom Traits:

1)  You will have a slight sadistic streak that will compliment my need at times to be a complete masochistic painslut.

2) A sense of humour is very, very important as i love to laugh and have fun and want someone that i can enjoy that with.

3) You realize that there is life beyond BDSM, as much as i would love to be chained and flogged 24/7  the reality is that there is a real world that exists around us.

4) You do not expect instant submission.  You are smart enough to know that a good relationship takes time and are willing to put the effort in.  Talk to me, get to know who i am.  You will certainly find out how submissive i am.

So if You havent fallen asleep or gotten pissed off at anything i have said, then congratulations to You.  You are braver than most and deserve a soft kiss on the cheek.   

Hope to hear from You soon.

rinnie.........aka lifelessOrdinary