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| this is rich I am 56 really good shape I box 3 times a week iam single looking for friends I am sober 12 years I have survived many years of abuse I was beating all the time as a kid by my father 12 years of violent daily beatings I also got raped at age 7 on the train tracks in the Bronx I never said anything for over 40 years I stuffed all my feelings I never cried for over 40 years I became a drunk age 12 I didn't know how to face all the pain I am better now I am sober I attended a group for sex abuse survivors I felt dirty inside and worthless for a good part of my life I don't today because I have faced the truth and the spirit of the universe which is called divine love has healed me, I also want to say that I am not a victim because victims don't heal I forgave all the people who did me wrong I prayed for good things for them I did it everyday for over 2 years I one day I got better no more bitterness I am free to be who I was meant to be, I don't know why I am still alive I had survived a murder attempt in 1995 I was a motorcycle gang member I no longer live that kind of life I bless all people with peace love and harmony we are all one we have one creator I want to say that life is so very fast it seems like yesterday I was 15 now I am 56 I cant change the past the wasted years the drunkenness the times I spent in jail it was all a big lesson looking for love outside of myself was the problem I felt unloved and unwanted one day I realized everything I need is inside of me I got rid of the voices of shame blame and feeling dirty inside the voice of love is deep inside no abuser or anyone else ever hurt that- I am a worthy whole human being I am part of the divine I just share who I am with others take care I realize people might think why I am on here well I make peace with all- I am not better than anyone I know we are all equal and we are one divine family I bless all with peace love and harmony
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| Age: 46 |
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